Brazil today. I thought about your words yesterday and came to the conclusion that you are really right. It can't go on like this. I'm on my way now and Fane? I love you anyway! "I looked at that damn thing and ran as fast as I could to the phone, picked up the phone, hoping to hear his voice, saying it was all a joke; but you couldn't hear anything anymore.I burst into tears, I really couldn't anymore, it was all pure horror. I put my hand over my mouth and leaned my head against a cupboard. "Fane? Are you there? Fane !!!!!", Yukari yelled and came running towards me, "what's going on?" She handed me a handkerchief and I blew my nose and washed away the tears. “Are you okay?” I nodded slightly. "At least that. Where is Tsubasa?" That name. Tsubasa ... I would never see him again, let alone hear his voice, and it was all my fault, I alone destroyed it all. "He flew back to Brazil ..." "Oh, I'm sorry. Well, he had to go back sometime ..." "Yes, yes, but I shooed him away! He wanted to stay, but I somehow objected to it . " "What?He wanted to stay here in Nankatsu? " "Yes; but not me! And because of my stupidity, I lost him ... "Suddenly Yukari stood up and stood before me, confident of victory." We're going to the airport quickly! " "How? "" You heard right! If you really love him then fight for him! Maybe we can still get him! "" You probably don't believe that yourself ... I've already lost all my faith .. "She grabbed my arms and dragged me to my feet." You do now what I say! Get dressed and we'll take a quick drive from Ryo's car and we'll get him back, I promise you Sanae. "She tried to cheer me up with her laugh; but I just looked to the side, embarrassed. I freed myself from her grip and went to the toilet. I couldn't assert myself against Yukari anyway, I was way too tired and exhausted for that. I looked in the mirror and saw how my face was smeared with make-up and all my hair swirled, just horrible.As I said, I changed my clothes, combed my hair and let the dirt rinse away with water.

Even if neither of us had a driver's license, we drove to the airport by car against the law. I sat in the passenger seat and kept looking out at the green and bright landscape. The weather was great, as always, strong sunshine, not a single cloud in the sky; but I didn't really care. Rain and thunderstorms would better suit my mood. "Don't look like that, Fane. Everything will be fine." I turned to the side and looked at Yukari for a while. She kept smiling, trying to give me strength to be optimistic; but I knew you had to be realistic about something like that. When we arrived I didn't get out immediately, but first of all looked at the entrance to the airport and the people who walked in. I opened the car door, got out, and took a deep breath of fresh air.“Yukari, wait here.” She nodded and I ran in as fast as I could, tried to weave through the crowd, looked for Tsubasa, but couldn't find him.
"Can you tell me when the flight to Brazil is going?" I asked the lady at the front desk. My heart was pounding madly with excitement. I imagined everything exactly, I will see him from behind, he will then notice by himself that I am near him, will turn around and take me in his arms. "I'm sorry Ms. Nakazawa; but the plane has been gone for half an hour."

It had now been exactly three weeks since I hadn't seen Tsubasa. For me these times were just agony, grief and fear. Afraid that he really doesn't love me anymore, he really left me, which I honestly couldn't understand. Did he really care? These kisses, the togetherness, was he just playing with me?The worst part of these thoughts was that I couldn't find the answer, yes, I could call Tsubasa now and ask what was going on; but I didn't.
Every day I watched the Brazilian Bundesliga (repeated on eurosport XD); but nowhere to be seen. Has he even given up playing soccer? Questions after questions in my head. I skipped school regularly, had no nerve to put other things on my mind, and most of the time I spent sitting in my room and looking through the window into the deserted city center, just like when Tsubasa was the first time Japan left ...
"I don't really want to know how you feel," Yukari said as she sat down next to me on the bed and wrapped her arms around my body.
"I don't wish you that either, believe me it's a hell of a torture."
"Did he at least get in touch with you?"
"Not even that ... man, that's such an asshole! Just let me sit here instead of fighting for me. I really thought he loved me; but it's very different ..." Tears fell down my cheeks , I really couldn't take it anymore. My heart felt strong stinging, now I would like to go to the skyscraper and let myself fall on the floor.
"Oh, something has come for you!"
"Fir me?" I asked, rather surprised.
"Yes, yes. Have a look, I've been waiting here so long." She smiled at me, which amazed me even more; but as I said, I got up from my pose, washed away my tears with the back of my hand, and touched the blade. I pushed it down slowly and let the door fall back. With slow steps I went into the living room. It was pitch black, although it was still daytime. The blinds were down and candles and incense sticks were everywhere.What's going on here? I looked left and right and saw a person all in black standing by the stereo, turning on slow music. I was rooted to the ground, my heart suddenly stopped beating, I began to tremble, is it really this someone I had hoped for so much?
"My little Sanae," it sounded from his side. He turned in my direction, gave me a seductive smile and knelt on the floor. Isn't it really what I thought ??? He took my hand and placed a gentle kiss on the back of my hand.
"Three weeks have passed since we last saw each other. I'm sorry; but I needed this time to think about myself and all my feelings. And yes, now the time has come and I finally know what I want. Sanae Nakazawa ... I love you more than my whole life than any living being on this world, no universe!My love for you is infinite and I need you !!!!! That's why I'm asking you here and now ... Do you want to be my wife? "He looked at me begging so that I would finally say yes.
Well, my first thought was, huh, what's that supposed to be? Is that supposed to be a joke? Are you not very tight? But I looked into his beautiful eyes and knew, yes, that was really serious. I knelt down to him and pressed a small kiss on his lips and whispered in his ear: "Yes, I want ..."

And since then everything has passed very quickly. We got married, don't live in Brazil as I first thought, but in our favorite city of Nankatsu. Even if Tsubasa couldn't realize his dream of becoming a professional in America, he did it here