Title: Memory
Part: 1/1
Author: Ferreri
Fanfiction: White Cross
Comment: My first guilty x Ken and the first fanfic that I upload here. ^^ It's a bit cheesy and ... well ... just read it. I'm bad at brief descriptions. ^^;
Pairing: Guilty x Ken

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memories

Warm sunlight falls on the lush green of the trees and their branches
hanging down heavily from fresh, young leaves. The light throws
Shades through the branches and gently tickles my nose. An easy one
A breath of wind brushes me and I feel your long, slender fingers
to run through my hair. Enjoying, I close my eyes and listen
the birds are singing. A happy smile plays around the corners of my mouth as
you blow a kiss on my lips.

In the past I would never have thought you would have been so caressing. I have youalways considered a sadist. But that was once upon a time. Your orange
red hair falls over your shoulders and i play with it. It's so soft.
Amazing. Every time again. Soft. And it smells so good. It smells
after you. I open my eyes, look into yours. Luminous Smarage.
Your lips form words in silence, but I don't have to hear them to listen
know what you wanna tell me And I feel for you too.

I'm slowly sliding halfway on you, enjoying your company. I am finite
At home. I usually only feel as happy and exuberant as with you
at Soccer. I feel so light and free. As if I had to
reached my destination after a long journey. I am finally home! With you. In
your arms. Where I belong, where nothing oppresses my heart. It is
like a dream.

The sun warms my back and I feel the life in you and in
me. A gentle vibration tells me that you are speaking. I even have it
not heard. Only your heartbeat reaches my ear. Thiscalming throbbing. I get sleepy easily and raise my head.

Should i wake up? But I'm awake. What are you talking about?
Your voice sounds so different. Am I dreaming? You nod Then it is too
Well. I'm with you. Only that counts. If this is a dream I will
never wake up. I want to be with you! Nobody destroys ours here
Luck. Nobody comes at night and tears us apart. You pull
me close to you and I can feel your breath. So it is good. I want more
Not. Your hands stroke my back. I do not want
wake up, don't want to leave you. I am happy here.

I hear a loud throbbing. Again your voice is so bright, demands
to wake me up. My hands are clenching your shirt
And I hug you tight But the bright voice, so familiar to me
is merciless, does not go away. I press my hands on them
Ears. She should go! She doesn't belong here!

And then I open my eyes.No sunbeams, the shadows on
throw the warm, soft grass. No birds. No warmth. As well as?
You're not there. Night is relentlessly replaced by day. Everyone
bright sunbeam takes you away from me. I'm so cold. I loop
my arms around the body and go to the window.

A face is reflected in the glass. Is that me Dark hair hanging
lank and tangled in a pale face and a pair of empty brown eyes
Look at me. A foreign. I see the sun light of the city
empowered how their rays flood them. You reach my room
and dust particles shrouded in gold dance before my eyes.

Omi's bright voice, which has snatched me from you, penetrates mine again
Awareness. I hum something and hear Grandma go. Go slowly
me in the bathroom. With every step I feel myself getting more and more into that
Reality return, feel like my memories of this one
wonderful dream fading pale in the morning light.I wash
me, change my clothes and smile. It's not my smile. Not that
Smile for showing you Just some smile. So that they themselves
do not worry.

With the fake smile on my face, I go to my friends.
It once hurt me to lie to them, to be unable to tell them that I was
love you But that's over now. I don't feel any more pain
no happiness and wellbeing, no sadness ... there is only this emptiness in
me who swallowed all other feelings. All feelings. Except this one
Loneliness that captivates me every morning and gives me the air to
breathe deprives.

I only still live in my dreams. I miss you, long for me
after you and want to be with you. And I can't do that when I'm awake
am I don't want to have to think about where you are because you aren't
are there. Because you left me Left alone.

I don't touch my food. Yohji says I'm getting skinny. You can
get skinny in two weeks?Two weeks ... It's really been two weeks
Weeks ago that you sacrificed your life for me? why did you
just done that? I never asked for it! I never wanted it! How
could you just leave me alone

I still remember the pain that tore me apart inside
threatened. Everything hurt me. Every fiber of my body was consumed
after you and ... my soul hurt a lot more.

I dreamed that my life was outside of this hell
would. Together with you. But neither of us were made for that
Luck. You're gone and I'm still here. I am missing everything about you. Yours
Warmth, your love, your arms that held me ... It may
sound strange, but with you I found myself again. Now
I just feel empty and tired.

The others don't know anything about us. Us. We don't exist anymore. Just
nor me. My friends think I am unhappy in love and in
In a way, they are right too.But neither can they
know how happy you made me

I do eat something, don't want to cause grief to my friends And
who knows? Maybe you're right and I'll get better
walk.
Maybe...

Maybe I'll hear a laugh like yours or look into a face
That resembles yours, see smeared eyes that look like yours.
But that will never be you. Still I'll see you in every face
search.

The bread tastes bland, but it used to be my favorite variety. But that
was before ...

I work with the others in the drawer, make bouquets, water the flowers
and see the girls around me I no longer like to be under
People. They look at me, tell me something and touch me.
And you don't. Can't do it anymore. You will never see me again
touch and I will no longer be granted your voice
Listen.

And so I wait until this day ends too. As always, it takes too longLong. I am tired. I apologize quietly for supper
to fail.

It looks like I was wrong. The pain of yours
Loss is still there. Tears run down my cheeks and
burst on the floor. I am lying on my bed. Slowly calm down
I myself again.

I shut my eyes. Warm sunlight falls on the lush green
of the trees, the branches of which are heavy with fresh, young leaves
hang down. The light casts shadows through the branches and gently tickles
my nose. I open my eyes

You smile at me and give me your hand. I put mine in
and you pull me on my feet We walk through tightly embraced
our small, distant world, where nothing and no one tarnishes our happiness
can.

In my dream where I can be with you

Owari

Is there anyone else? Hello? * shake up * congratulations! About Commi's, I would
I am very happy ... or is nobody there anymore? Not? * drop *