Gewallt ... what exactly is Gewllt? I think as I lie in my room and stare at the ceiling. Is It To Hurt Others? So why does everyone always hurt me? Why can't thoughts remain thoughts? Does everything have to be said ... everything violent, everything bad? Can't you keep silent when you know that it hurts the other ...?

Is it natural to be bad to cause pain to others, mental as well as physical? so why can't i ... why can't i hit anyone? Why does my own aggression always end up with myself? If I do something bad ... then only to myself ... but why? Have I forgotten how to be angry with others? Feeling anger at someone other than myself? Can I just take it out on me?

Question after question and I don't know an answer ... close your eyes ... fall asleep.

Gewallt ... be happy if you can still direct it against others ... but please don't do it if it is not necessary, because maybe it will hit someone like me.... violent ...

- ui !!! that was pretty dark right now. Oh ... actually this FF is not a real story. More like a ... poem ... that doesn't rhyme. all the feelings one feels ... are they really describable? Maybe, maybe not. I just want to teach the readers a little more about what can go on in people. I also know someone who struggles with these problems, very well in fact. He wanted me to try to write everything that can go on in such people ... but can I really do that ...? My next chapter is grief.