There is something in me
That nobody knows
Like a secret
Sometimes it rules me
And I'm sinking
Back deep into the darkness
The secret tells me
I never get older
Never will laugh with friends
Never be what I'm supposed to if I ever
Mention his name

Is it really - I can't tell
Or did I just dream it?
Because when I care
I'm sinking
No tears come
No scream escapes my mouth
Into a nightmare of hands
I am wrapped
And from fingers
And from soft voices in my head.
So wrong
So beautiful
So bad

This is me