So much for: "the next part will come at the weekend at the earliest" * sigh * Well, well, it was just finished ^^ '' '' Have fun reading!

The whole situation was so emotional. I wish I could hug her now as Shinichi, just comfort her a little, but as an elementary school student that was a completely different matter. Ran turned to me now, looked at me. The look burned into my thoughts. So sad, desperate ... Ran, I really didn't want any of that. I didn't want you to suffer so much because of me! "Unfortunately it's not you ... are you? You're not Shinichi!" I thought I was interrogating myself. I stared at Ran. Closed my eyes again and then answered .....

Part 2 - No Love Inside ?!

"Ran ... I ... So ..." I stuttered as I slowly took off my glasses, but didn't look at them. A fight was raging inside of me. I was still not sure whether I was really doing the right thing here. As soon as I told Ran the truth, something was inevitable ... But didn't she now have a right to know?When I had already put her in such great danger. She was worried enough about me now. I just wanted her to stop worrying about me. But was the truth really necessary for that? I got up, took two, maybe three steps forward, turned to her. "Ran, I am ..." I started, still unable to look directly at her. My heart was racing so much at that moment that I was afraid it would burst any moment. It was just inevitable. Things that should have been said a long time now simply had to be said. If there was a better time, when was it? Was there one? I slowly looked up from the floor, then looked directly at Ran. Right in the eye. ".... Shinichi Kudo!" I finally finished my sentence. All of a sudden, a completely different atmosphere arose in our surroundings. Time seemed to stand still, the events revolved around us. And we stood there in the midst of the hustle and bustle and looked at each other.A strange feeling, but somehow liberating. I never thought it would be so easy to get the truth out. No, actually it was crazy. It shouldn't really work that way. Something like that shouldn't be. Ran and I .... And there was no longer a lie between us. She now knew Conan Edogawa's secret, she must have guessed it all along. We were still looking at each other, I could hear my heart pounding in my ears, but tried to ignore it. Tried ... It wasn't that easy. We just stood there, looking at each other as if we both couldn't believe that the truth had finally been told. We were both still trying to understand the consequences that we could not yet see. I wish I could freeze this moment now. Just hold on. Without changing anything. Just capture this moment. Was that such an absurd wish?Was that impossible? Yes, it was. Time would go on. That moment would soon have passed and would then only exist in the memories of both of us. So a completely pointless wish. That would never come true as it was before. And yet I wished so much. How it looked with Ran ... What was going on in her head at that moment. Silence surrounded us. Nowhere even a sound penetrated to us, as if we were currently standing or sitting under an impenetrable glass ball, cut off from reality. I was sure that was exactly what Ran thought about it ...

Oh yes, that's what she thought. Conan was Shinichi .... Not a big surprise for her anymore, she had suspected it, no, she had known it all along. Conan hadn't been able to deceive her even with his brief transformation back. She had waited so long for it, and now that he finally opened it up, she couldn't believe what he was saying. Now that the truth was finally spoken.The look he gave her so determined ... And she, she was just too shocked to even react at that moment. Conan had really told her, Conan had told her what she had been waiting for so long. And despite everything, why was she so shocked now? Because she didn't expect to find out? Because she had to go through so much today? Maybe! Then Shinichi had come to save her after all. She was so incredibly relieved that he had finally revealed himself to her. Finally, she had waited so long for it. And now she had nothing better to do than look at him, still sit on the park bench. Her heart was beating so loudly, she wanted to do so much ... Her thoughts circled, she was so happy to have finally learned the truth from him. Conan was Shinichi, he had always taken care of her. She wasn't left alone, as she had thought at the beginning. And yet, even after he saved her today, she had still tried to suppress what she had basically known all along.What she suspected. She just hadn't wanted to admit that Conan and Shinichi were the same. But it had been so obvious, but no matter how many times she asked him, he had always rejected her. So why now? What was he up to? But it didn't matter. What counted was now, only then did the future come. A future together, once again she wouldn't let him go. No, she would hold on to him now, she had almost lost him once before, and only now found him again. Slowly the tears welled up in her eyes, but they weren't tears because she was sad and disappointed. Maybe right now it looked to him like it was her. Maybe now he thought he had lost her now? But she was just so relieved ... Just that he was here, that he had revealed it to her. Now they could finally go further forward together, no longer had to search for the right path on their own.Didn't he see it exactly as she did? Wasn't it obvious they needed to get together now? But why? Why was he looking at her so seriously now? Maybe she was wrong about his feelings after all, maybe he didn't reciprocate her feelings at all. Then why did he save her? Why did he always take care of her? Otherwise they wouldn't go together. Then she got up slowly, still, after these words, her legs were shaking. Still, she believed that everything was just dreaming. That was just too good to be true. She only thought that she didn't want to wake up from this dream, should it really be a dream. Could it be otherwise? Would the right Shinichi really reveal himself to her? She came closer and closer to him, now she just wanted to take him in her arms .....

I knew what she was up to ... I actually wanted to. But something warned me about it, or rather, my mind warned me about it.I had told Ran the truth, but that had consequences that I now had to face. No matter how much I resisted it. I was such an idiot, how could I have put Ran in such danger? But it had been clear to me beforehand. Despite everything, at first I couldn't move. I was overwhelmed with the situation for a short time. Actually, I just wanted to let myself fall into my arms, but I wasn't allowed to. No, that was impossible .... I had to push her away .... No matter how much I hurt her. I made up my mind the moment I revealed my true identity to her. I just couldn't put Ran in such danger again. This time, it just ended well. But what if something like that happened again? Would it turn out so well then? Certainly not! So I had to draw a line, Ran shouldn't be in such danger anymore.That had become clear to me in the closet. No matter how much it hurt me, no matter how much it hurt Ran. In time, she and I would get over it. The main thing is that she would be fine. And then I did, I actually pushed her away ... I couldn't look at her now, I looked at the floor. The decision was made, but the will to put the decision into practice was simply lacking. But there was no future for both of us, it was just like that, and I have to accept that. Ran had to accept that .... And I couldn't think of anything else than to make her believe that she has to forget me. The one lie no longer stood between us, and by then I had already made the decision to lie to it one more time. Irony of fate? Was there such a thing as fate that kept showing us both that a relationship between the two of us couldn't work out? Why? Why was it so hard to lie to the person I loved just to protect them?"Conan ... what is it?" Ran just didn't understand. Didn't understand why I reacted this way. It was desperate. Hopeless ... All that I had experienced so far with the Moris had been pointless. All in all, it only led to this one path. The path I would take now. I didn't answer Ran's question, couldn't answer. I was scared, really scared. But of what? That I wouldn't lie to Ran, that I would tell her the truth?

"Shinichi .... Say something! Why, why don't you allow your feelings?", I heard the desperate sound of her voice, which made a cold shiver run down my spine. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry! "What feelings should I leave?", I tried at least to make my voice sound cold. I tried, there was no other chance. Everything was too late, everything was over before it even started. I had played a game and lost before the first move.Lost everything, that had become clear to me by now. "You can't fool me! Shinichi, I love you .... Please ...", did she have to say that now? Did she have to tell me now? Maybe it was just another test to see whether my will was strong enough. But, I still couldn't look at Ran. It would hurt too much. "Yes and? What does that mean? Do you want to rely on one-sided feelings?", I felt bad, really bad .... Especially after I said that. My voice was secure, but a struggle was still raging inside me. My mind told me what I was doing was right. My heart was totally against it. It even went so far that tears actually came to my eyes. I couldn't hold her back. One more reason not to look at Ran. As soon as she looked me in the eye, she would notice that I was lying to her. That I just turned my feelings into the opposite ... It hurt me so much, and I was sure it hurt her too ... to hear something like that from me!That I would ever say such a thing ... But now, now there was no turning back. I had to finish the game that I started with dignity. And the way I played it now, very few people would be harmed. Even Ran would get over these words at some point .... "That's not true ....