The feelings are not one-sided!" There was still a pleading tone in Ran's voice. I didn't answer that. It was getting harder and harder not to tell the truth. But I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't allow something like that again. Ran swallowed, I knew that tears were welling up in her eyes. I knew she still didn't believe my words. I just knew "Then ... So it was all just an act?" She asked flatly. No, it wasn't an act. I really liked her, more than that. But how would she know? She would never know. No way. No matter how much I wish it would.I closed my eyes, what I had already said up to now could not be undone anyway. So I kept playing! One way or another I already lost my house! "Yeah ..." I mumbled. I could imagine how Ran was shaking now, just couldn't believe me saying something like that. I lowered my gaze, trying to hold back the tears without much success. "No, I don't think so ...", Ran's voice sounded so sad, so desperate. What had I done there, idiot. Why couldn't I even do something right? "I don't believe you, Shinichi!", Ran stood behind me, grabbed my arm ..... turned to her. I was right, she was crying .... I had tears in my eyes too. "Tell me that again ... Look at me ... Was it all just a pretense! All that we experienced together?", No, she really couldn't ask that of me, could she? Did I have to answer that now? She would notice that I lied to her as soon as I looked at her, then none of this would have made any sense.No, I wasn't allowed to look at them. I swallowed again, the dice for the last move had already been cast .... Why didn't I just finish it?

At Ran:

He had looked at her ... he had said it again! But she still didn't believe it. Could she really have been so mistaken about him? Could he have deceived her so much? No ... The tears just ran down her face, but she hadn't really realized yet that she was crying at all. But what else should she do? Laugh ... Laugh because he told her he was just playing with her emotions? You had to cry, didn't you? Without paying attention to where she was at all, she kept walking .... On and on, the path blurred before her eyes, over and over again. She just didn't understand it, didn't want to and couldn't believe it. Why did he say that? Why are you looking at them? Just before that everything had been so beautiful, and now? Now everything was so terrible ... She had been so sure.Shinichi would reciprocate her feelings. If not him, then who? If only she could turn back time ... What had she done wrong? If yes, what? She just wanted Shinichi to come back at least. If not as a boyfriend, then at least as a best friend. They had known each other for so long. Could there really be no feelings at all? He couldn't have used her since kindergarten ... No, Shinichi wasn't that good at acting. Although she was sure of it, it hurt. Especially when she realized where she was. She stood in front of Shinichi's villa. Why did she have to run over here? She was so desperate, at the moment she didn't know what to do or what to do. Did everything have to go wrong? It hurt her ... It hurt her. Shinichi had hurt her, maybe deeper than he could ever imagine. Her legs started to shake, she didn't know why, but she was walking closer and closer to the house. She had been here so many times, but today everything was different.Today she trembled at the sight of the house. Shinichi had really let it down, and then no matter how cold it was. That didn't suit him at all. No, that didn't work at all. The big house brought back memories. Memories of the times we shared, the times with Shinichi and the times with Conan. How they'd played together, learned, etc., the trips she'd made with Conan. Did that really leave him cold? Was he so freezing? No, he wasn't like that .... He couldn't fool her, even if he didn't love her, he hadn't played with her either. At least as a friend he had to love her! If there were no deeper feelings than friendship involved, but that was something. But why ... Then why had he lied to her again. Why had he lied to her again shortly after telling her the truth? Did he mean he couldn't trust her? He ought to know that it could hold tight.She wouldn't have said a single voice about Conan's true identity. To no one. So that wasn't the reason ... Otherwise she couldn't think of anything. In the end he enjoyed hurting her like that

"Hey, Ran ..." came the voice from the garden gate. Ran knew the voice exactly, knew who was there. Couldn't she just be alone ... Couldn't she be left alone? She just wanted to forget everything that had happened in the past few hours. The kidnapping, Conan ... Shinichi. She wanted to erase them from her mind, but apparently someone was trying to thwart that. Ran didn't turn around, but stopped. She was still crying ... Still asking why. Was there one? Was she the reason? // Shinichi, I want to understand you, can't you tell me why you only played with me! //, the thought pounded in her head. She was really trying to understand this guy. Even if it's basically pointless. was. She would never understand, would never know the reason why he was reciprocating her feelings.Maybe it was better that way. Maybe everything would turn out fine after all. In the near future ... Meanwhile, Sonoko was standing next to her. "Man, Ran, what's going on?" When she noticed that her friend was widening, actually just about to go crazy, she just took her in her arms. Sonoko really tried to comfort Ran, but it wasn't that easy. She didn't know what had happened in the first place. They walked slowly down the streets to Sonoko's house, which was closer. And then the two girls sat in Sonoko's room, first forgetting everything around them, the time, the room, etc. It was just a matter of comforting the girlfriend. In tears, Ran told Sonoko what had happened. However, she omitted that Conan was actually Shinichi. That wasn't so bad either. Sonoko just shook her head when she heard about Shinichi's words. Even for her it seemed unbelievable what Ran had just revealed to her. Shinichi wasn't like what Ran now portrayed him.No .... Ran was also sure that Shinichi had other motives, that he actually felt something for her, but why .... Why did he have to hurt her so?

At Conan / Shinichi:

I slowly walked towards the detective agency. I lied to Ran, hopefully making her believe I was just using her. That Shinichi Kudo wasn't interested in Ran at all. It was an outright, one hundred percent lie. But Ran would never know the truth. It was too dangerous. If I were exposed, Ran would be one of the most in danger. I realized that today. But it hurt to think that there was no future for Ran and me now, a future as a couple. Even though I wanted it so badly. But if something happened to her, I could never have forgiven myself for it. It was too dangerous. It will always be too dangerous. And my feelings for Ran could be as strong as they wanted. My head, my mind won.I had drawn my line, there was no turning back now. Then I stood in front of the detective agency. We had experienced so much together and I had now destroyed it all. I broke everything, memories ... feelings ... and only because I was such an idiot. I couldn't say it any other way. I was such an incredible idiot. I had even managed to shrink myself. And then for so long to find no trace of the nasty guys who had shrunk me. And something like me had to be scolded as master detective. I was really a master, though at losing the most important thing I had. Great, you master detective. Then I went up the stairs, everything seemed so unreal all at once. I now wished it was all just a bad dream that I would soon wake up from. But I knew that even the worst nightmares couldn't look like this anymore. So horrible and sad. Was that my fate?Was my fate really that bad for me? Then I stood at the door, what would Kogoro say? Wouldn't he wonder where Ran was? I could just say that I don't know. I really didn't know. She ran away, I just exaggerated. It really took the last of my courage to look at her and not burst into tears myself. But I didn't do all of this for myself, but for her. The main thing is that Ran would be safe, then everything would be fine. Then everything would be fine. At least with Ran. At some point she would have forgotten me, would find someone else ... someone who made himself happy without endangering her at the same time? And me! Well, I had to see where I was. Whether I would ever harbor such deep feelings for another girl was questionable ...

Then I went in. Into the detective agency ... Uncle Kogoro was already asleep. What luck! That meant I wasn't going to be pestered with questions.I quickly went to my room, packed a few important things. Read back a few important things. For example the earring cell phone, the tracking device, the voice prompter. And then I wrote a brief letter to the professor. In the letter I thanked him for his help, but did not go into the details of my disappearance. I also took something with me in the living area. Namely a photo of me, Ran and Kogoro. One of an excursion ... I kind of liked the photo but couldn't explain it. Maybe because all three of us looked so happy on it. Involuntarily I stopped and looked at the picture. Ran, Kogoro, I ... We all three smiled at it, and it wasn't a fake laugh. Ran's laugh in the picture was natural, I knew she must have had a lot of fun back then. "Please find someone else ... just forget about me!" I mumbled, still staring at Ran at the picture. I just couldn't take my eyes off.Two tears of mine fell on the picture frame, ran down it. I actually had to go slowly, but my body didn't obey me the way I wanted. I just couldn't look away, couldn't just put the picture in the backpack that I quickly packed. But I had to. Ran could be back at any moment, even if that was actually very unlikely. "I'm sorry Ran, it's better for you that way! It's really better for you, you'll find someone