Worried, I made my way home. My things and hands were covered in blood and everyone was staring at me. Sometimes I gave them a dirty look, sometimes a sad look until I finally got home. I took out my key and was about to unlock it when I noticed that it was already open.
Is there anyone at home? Didn't Mum want to go to a friend's house?
I went in and saw my mother standing in the kitchen cooking.
"Hello Heiji. Nice to have you here. I hope you are hungry. I'm cooking your favorite ...", she said, but when she looked at me her breath caught.
She dropped the wooden spoon and opened her eyes.
"What happened to you? Hurry up, we need bandages!" But I went up to her, held her right hand and calmed her:
"Mum, it's okay. It's not my blood. I'm going upstairs now, getting changed."
She nodded and I went up the stairs to my room.As I went in, I slammed the door behind me and leaned against my door to sit down. I buried my face in my hands and this time I let the tears run down. I was totally devastated and couldn't have a clear thought other than what is going to happen to Kazuha. Fear and anger overwhelmed me in ways I had never seen before. I sat at my door like a pile of misery and sobbed to myself. I can't be without her. What should I do without kazuha? I knew neither on nor off and just thought of that bloodied face of my best friend, who was also the only girl that I have ever really loved in my life. I just never showed it, and not even to my best friend, even my parents and confidants, I didn't let it show, although everyone had already suspected it. Only now did I realize how stupid I was. Why didn't I tell her? Now it might be too late!At that moment my cell phone rang and I picked myself up and went to my desk. The display read 'Dad' and I pressed the green receiver and said:
"Yes Dad. What's up?"
"You still have to come to the presidium because of the accident. Now if you can."
Without waiting for my answer, he hung up and I put my cell phone back on the desk. 'Idiot', I thought, he doesn't know feelings either! 'With my cap pulled down over my face, I walked out of the house and one kilometer through Osaka to the police headquarters. When I went through the automatically opening door into the presidium, everyone greeted me in a friendly manner and my father's secretary said:
"Hey Heiji, back again?"
I just nodded to him briefly and walked quickly into my father's office, who was patiently going through a file in his red executive chair. When I entered the room he raised his head a little and said:
"Let's get straight to the point. You just have to say ..."
"I know what to say Dad!"I interrupted angrily.
"Have a seat first."
But I ignored his suggestion and started to explain the accident without going into exact details, such as my feelings about it, even though he asked me about it.
My father thanked him and I went straight out of the office without a word. Now I was standing in front of the Presidium. I have no idea what to do now. 'Put my head in the sand,' I thought teasingly. 'That's always the best I can do. 'I hung my head and went to the right, although I wasn't sure where to go yet. 'Wait a minute ...' I lifted my head a little because it wasn't a bad idea. 'Sand? I could go to the beach again. I haven't been there for a long time. Maybe that distracts me a little. 'Without losing a second, I turned and walked the other way. I first had to pick up my motorcycle from the workshop. 'Hopefully it's done by now. I don't feel like walking all over town!'After a few minutes I arrived at the workshop of my old friend Yamatho Ukiwari, who greeted me warmly.
"Hello Heiji. You're sure to come for your motorcycle. I finished it earlier. It's like new again."
"I'm glad. What do I owe you?"
"Oh, just add that to your father's bill. He gave me something too."
"Thanks. If he's in trouble, let me know, okay?"
He nodded and pushed it out from behind. When he put the handlebars in my hand, I immediately got on to have a feeling for all my pride again. When I was about to turn it on, Yamatho said:
"You, where is your little friend?"
Horror appeared on my face and I looked at him in disbelief. Then he added:
"Well, this ... um ... Tomaya ... Kazuha. Yes, exactly that? Doesn't she always accompany you?"
I let my head droop a little and looked sad. 'He has to remind me of it again.'
"She can't today.", I answered him and then said goodbye.