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Fanfic: It´s all about love...
Chapter: Kikyo's pain
Kikyo's pain
So, after months I'll be back. Actually, this chapter was almost finished for months, but I didn't like it at all, so I didn't publish it. But now I do it (don't ask me why, that's how it is ^^). I still don't like it, in the original it was 1000 times better, but I lost it ... (* sigh * typical for me). There is also a problem: I don't know how to spell the name "Kikyo" - with u at the end or not? So far I have preferred this notation, but since many people now write it without u, I also switched. It doesn't really matter.
I know a lot of people almost hate Kikyo, I don't like them that much either, but if you watch Seasons 2 and 3 and you learn more about their history, you can feel really sorry for them because they had to endure so much. Actually, this chapter was not planned at all, it only forms a short cut into the actual story.It shows the thing from Kikyo's point of view and is independent of the rest of the story, but it is a not unimportant contribution to the next chapter. (Shall I give it away? In the next Kapi, Kikyo meets someone - and it's not Inuyasha! XD)
Here we go:
* A world full of pain, so full of hatred and destruction ... *
The miko looked at the barren landscape, destroyed, bogus, desolate and deserted. Her soul collectors flew around her but did not bring her new souls so that she could survive in this body. Kikyo watched the sunset, clouded gray by the haze that lay over the swamp.
* It means nothing to me. Beauty - what is the point of it? * She slowly stroked a withered branch. *I feel nothing. Just hate. Hatred of everything. Hatred of all who live. Hatred of Naraku. * She didn't feel anything else but hate. She felt - nothing - except suffering.
*Why I'm here? Why am I walking on earth? What am I looking for and what am I not finding?Why do I have to suffer this pain? * To all of these questions there might be answers that she knew but that brought her no satisfaction. Bitterness filled her heart. The wind ruffled her hair.
*Who am I? What am I? And what will happen to me? I am neither dead nor alive, my body just an illusion, my soul meanwhile that of someone else.
Kagome - this girl who is like me and yet very different. You that is what I could never be. You who lives. She who is with Inuyasha. And yet - why don't I hate her? For a while I thought so - but I am strangely indifferent to her. However - sometimes I wonder who she is. What's so special about her. Kagome seems pretty weak to strangers, but she has her own special abilities and qualities. This warmth and her strong will. Was Inuyasha so drawn to her that he might forget his first love? There, a stab.Apparently I am able to feel after all. But it was only a faint echo of remains.
She, Kikyo, could still remember Kagome's warmth. This girl has now saved my life twice, even though I tried to kill her and although I did not release Inuyasha. Yet she did not hesitate a second *
Kikyo smiled bitterly.
What did life and warmth mean?
She just wanted revenge, she could never forget that. At the time of her death, her life had ceased, she was just a memory, an illusion.
She was only on this earth because she wasn't finished here yet. After that ... after that there was no future for her here, as she had hoped at the beginning. She would go back forever.
And she would take the hanyou with her, no matter what. Perhaps she would even have to eliminate others in order to achieve this.
Inuyasha was hers.
So, to explain: Kikyo has self-doubts and is not entirely sure of her goals.She doubts her goals on this earth, and whether that's right (I know that somehow everything doesn't come across). In the end, however, her will wins the upper hand again and she pursues her goals towards Naraku and Inuyasha as ever. She tries to convince herself that she feels nothing but hate and sorrow, which is partly true, but on the other hand there are her feelings for Inuyasha, which she doesn’t leave indifferent, and a certain feeling towards Kagome that she cannot decipher, and rather aside pushes.
In the next chapter I'll get your feelings across in more detail (and hopefully a lot better). However, I don't know when that will come * lol *
So, please write a lot of criticism. Maybe then my long-standing writer's block will finally collapse. Oh yes, I've just started another FF. But it has not yet been uploaded. I would be really happy about commies.
Your Aye
So, after months I'll be back. Actually, this chapter was almost finished for months, but I didn't like it at all, so I didn't publish it. But now I do it (don't ask me why, that's how it is ^^). I still don't like it, in the original it was 1000 times better, but I lost it ... (* sigh * typical for me). There is also a problem: I don't know how to spell the name "Kikyo" - with u at the end or not? So far I have preferred this notation, but since many people now write it without u, I also switched. It doesn't really matter.
I know a lot of people almost hate Kikyo, I don't like them that much either, but if you watch Seasons 2 and 3 and you learn more about their history, you can feel really sorry for them because they had to endure so much. Actually, this chapter was not planned at all, it only forms a short cut into the actual story.It shows the thing from Kikyo's point of view and is independent of the rest of the story, but it is a not unimportant contribution to the next chapter. (Shall I give it away? In the next Kapi, Kikyo meets someone - and it's not Inuyasha! XD)
Here we go:
* A world full of pain, so full of hatred and destruction ... *
The miko looked at the barren landscape, destroyed, bogus, desolate and deserted. Her soul collectors flew around her but did not bring her new souls so that she could survive in this body. Kikyo watched the sunset, clouded gray by the haze that lay over the swamp.
* It means nothing to me. Beauty - what is the point of it? * She slowly stroked a withered branch. *I feel nothing. Just hate. Hatred of everything. Hatred of all who live. Hatred of Naraku. * She didn't feel anything else but hate. She felt - nothing - except suffering.
*Why I'm here? Why am I walking on earth? What am I looking for and what am I not finding?Why do I have to suffer this pain? * To all of these questions there might be answers that she knew but that brought her no satisfaction. Bitterness filled her heart. The wind ruffled her hair.
*Who am I? What am I? And what will happen to me? I am neither dead nor alive, my body just an illusion, my soul meanwhile that of someone else.
Kagome - this girl who is like me and yet very different. You that is what I could never be. You who lives. She who is with Inuyasha. And yet - why don't I hate her? For a while I thought so - but I am strangely indifferent to her. However - sometimes I wonder who she is. What's so special about her. Kagome seems pretty weak to strangers, but she has her own special abilities and qualities. This warmth and her strong will. Was Inuyasha so drawn to her that he might forget his first love? There, a stab.Apparently I am able to feel after all. But it was only a faint echo of remains.
She, Kikyo, could still remember Kagome's warmth. This girl has now saved my life twice, even though I tried to kill her and although I did not release Inuyasha. Yet she did not hesitate a second *
Kikyo smiled bitterly.
What did life and warmth mean?
She just wanted revenge, she could never forget that. At the time of her death, her life had ceased, she was just a memory, an illusion.
She was only on this earth because she wasn't finished here yet. After that ... after that there was no future for her here, as she had hoped at the beginning. She would go back forever.
And she would take the hanyou with her, no matter what. Perhaps she would even have to eliminate others in order to achieve this.
Inuyasha was hers.
So, to explain: Kikyo has self-doubts and is not entirely sure of her goals.She doubts her goals on this earth, and whether that's right (I know that somehow everything doesn't come across). In the end, however, her will wins the upper hand again and she pursues her goals towards Naraku and Inuyasha as ever. She tries to convince herself that she feels nothing but hate and sorrow, which is partly true, but on the other hand there are her feelings for Inuyasha, which she doesn’t leave indifferent, and a certain feeling towards Kagome that she cannot decipher, and rather aside pushes.
In the next chapter I'll get your feelings across in more detail (and hopefully a lot better). However, I don't know when that will come * lol *
So, please write a lot of criticism. Maybe then my long-standing writer's block will finally collapse. Oh yes, I've just started another FF. But it has not yet been uploaded. I would be really happy about commies.
Your Aye