steps became .... "Conan .....", she couldn't get out more at first.The little boy lying there on the floor actually opened his eyes. For Ran at that moment it was as if the floor was being pulled from under her feet. Slowly she sagged, unable to take her eyes off Conan. She couldn't believe, couldn't understand what must have happened there ..... What it all meant. At that moment it was all too much for her ... She had to recover first. She had to realize ... Conan was hurt ... Badly hurt. And she, she had nothing better to do than sit here on the floor and stare at him. She wanted to get up. "I'll get help! ..." she started. She actually wanted to say: "Hold on this long", but Conan held her. "Conan ... What ...?", Again she felt the tears welling up in her eyes. No, it couldn't all be true. She didn't want it, she didn't want him to look at her like that. Like the motto .... Wait, I have to tell you something important .... Or: Before I go, you have to know something.Ran shook his head. No .... No .... No ..... She had followed him specially to prevent something like that. No ... "Ran ...", Conan said softly. Ran slowly knelt next to Conan and looked at him. Tears still ran down her cheeks. She couldn't let that happen .... Everything was spinning in her head, so many thoughts were running wildly. "I ... I have to tell you something important ...", Conan's voice trembled with every second word. Ran just shakes his head. No, she didn't want to let him go. What Conan had already accepted, she just didn't want to allow. "Please don't ...", Ran's voice also trembled. But Conan shook his head too, even smiling slightly. Did he want to make it easier for her? "Ran, please listen to me ...", Conan was still smiling. Oh yes, Conan had already accepted ... Conan knew that with this injury he had no chance ... Ran knew it too, but she wanted to leave no stone unturned.

"You have to know two things before ...", Conan had to stop talking briefly, gasping for breath.But even though he was definitely in pain, Ran was sure, he kept smiling at her. Ran wished dearly, but she just couldn't smile at him. She couldn't ... She didn't want to. "Listen carefully ... I'm really Shinichi ..." Ran swallowed: "But I know that ..." "I'm not surprised ... But there is something else. Ran. ... I ... I love ... you! ", With every letter he uttered, his voice became quieter, his eyes closed more and more. Ran still heard these words rushing in her ears, heard her over and over again as he had said it. At that moment she seemed to forget everything around her, everything was so far away for her. For a short time there was only her and Conan ... Nobody else. But this castle in the air, this illusory world, this illusion ... It dissolved at the latest when it looked at Conan. She hadn't even noticed ... "Conan ???", her voice sounded unreal, distorted. No ... Please don't ... "Conan ... Tell me what?", she would have loved to grab the boy and shake him up. Hoping that he would wake up again." Please ... ", she actually picked him up, just hugged him ..." You can't just leave me alone ! Wake up, please ... "She had literally screamed the last words out of her. She just had to get rid of them. He couldn't leave her here alone. He couldn't do that, not after telling her he would love. It couldn't all be true ...

How long she held Conan in her arms until she realized that he wouldn't wake up, she couldn't say anymore. It must have been some time for sure. Hours ... minutes ... What did it all mean? It all seemed to no longer make sense. "Come back ... you can't leave me here alone!" She mumbled over and over to herself. Over and over again .... Always these words, no one else wanted to come out of her lips."Do you want to see him .....?", Someone suddenly appeared behind Ran. That voice, that question ... It pulled Ran back to reality. She knew the voice, she knew exactly who was behind her. Ran swallowed again, slowly turned around. "Ai .... What .... What are you looking for here?", But no sooner had she asked the question than her eyes fell on Ai's hand. Or rather, on what Ai had in her hand. "No ... That ... That is not true!", Ran suddenly got up and took two or three steps back. Ai had Conan ... why? But that wasn't the Ai that Ran thought he knew. Not the little, closed girl ... No! "Why Ai?", While Ran was still speaking, Ai started to laugh. "So that I can go back ...", Ai's voice sounded ice cold. "And you, my dear .... You know too much, unfortunately!" Ran couldn't say anything anymore .... Do nothing anymore .... Everything was too late! .....

Shivering, she sat upright in her bed, her gaze fixed on the wall opposite.The tears were still in her eyes ... Was it all just a dream now? Her heart was still racing, the cold sweat slowly but surely making its way down her forehead. Could dreams really be that cruel? She looked hesitantly at her alarm clock. It was four in the morning, what if none of this had been a dream after all, but pure reality. If it was true ... She still shuddered a little when she considered that it could have happened after all and that she had simply passed out in the alley. She stood up with shaky legs, feeling as though she was about to collapse. Keep calm ... She crept to Conan's room, stopped in front of his door. Thought, hesitated ... What if he wasn't here anymore? No, she didn't want to waste any thought on that now. He just had to be here! Her hand slowly moved in the direction of the door handle. But Ran pulled her back again. Again this image rose before her inner eye .... Conan, how he lay there, the pool of blood around him grew bigger and bigger.More tears welled up in her eyes again. She didn't want this horrible picture that was imprinted on her memory to be true. She was so afraid to go into the room now and not find a Conan. She closed her eyes again for a brief moment, summoning up all her courage .... Now or never, either she would open the door now, or ... She really winced when the door in front of her, as if by magic operated, rose. She stumbled back a few steps, stared at the door ... Or rather, stared at the person who stood in the door and yawned heartily again and looked a little sleepy at Ran. "Ran ..... What are you doing here ?? Isn't it still in the middle of the night?", The more words he spoke, the bigger her eyes became, the greater the certainty ..... It was just a dream been, definitely, without any doubt! Conan stood in front of her completely unharmed and gave her a tired look.She sank to the floor with relief, simply fell on the little boy's neck. Nothing had happened to him, she had just dreamed it all. "I'm so happy ...", she muttered, while tears flowed down her cheeks again. This time it was tears of relief. She was so scared and Conan was fine. He was unharmed, at the moment he was probably wondering why she was hanging around his neck here, in the middle of the night. He couldn't understand it, but it didn't matter. The main thing was that he was fine. "What is Ran? Why are you crying?", Conan asked a little unsettled. Ran paused for a moment, said nothing, thought of nothing. Just briefly hold Conan in your arms, don't let go of him. Forget what she saw in her dream. "Ran ....?", Conan started again. Then Ran let go of him, looked at him and smiled a little. "Nothing ..... Everything is fine. I just had a terrible nightmare!" She couldn't and didn't want to tell him at the moment what she had dreamed.She would continue to wait ... Wait until he told her the truth ...

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Author's comment:So, I know myself that there is not much that is new. I started FF during writer's block and finished it now. In spite of everything I have to say I like the text .... Somehow * be somewhat satisfied * .... Ok, the writing style is still in need of improvement! Anyway....
Now I want to end our FF together with mausi-ran and then I have planned a Conan FF (but so far only the end XD)
Let's see what comes out XD

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