Who are we?
Where are we going?
Can we actually determine our own life? Or is it determined by other people?
Will we ever really be free?
Then we would have to die.
But we can be free from people who torment us ...
The road is hard and rocky
there are hardly any people who really understand you, who have gone through what you have been through yourself!
And who can you really trust?
Just yourself?
Yes, you have to deal with it on your own. You can't burden others with your problems. They can't help you anyway!
No, maybe they can't really help you ... but they can make you feel like someone is there ... that you are not alone.
Even if you can measure a fraction of the pain, you can feel it.
A hug ... how do you feel about it? Well? Or narrowed? Panicked?
Who knows, maybe it is even more pleasant than the moment when the red sap of life comes out of the skin when it is from the right person.But who is the right person?
Did you even deserve someone so good?
Probably not. There it is again ... that anger against yourself for not getting on with your own life.
Why can't you just be a different person in a different life? But that is probably not granted to you ...
All that remains is the fight. But at some point you get tired of fighting. At some point the pain paralyzes you.
It hurts ... such immeasurable pain. No, no one else can know what you're going through!
But they can show you that they are there for you, they can give you love.
Who knows what it looks like inside you?
Only you!
But there are other things that reach you in your heart. And these don't always consist of pain.
Don't give up on yourself!
You're not alone!
Dum spiro spero- As long as I breathe I hope.

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In memory of a former friend of mine. I don't know how she is doing now, what about her now.I also don't know if she will ever read this, or if she will ever give me an "answer" on it.