Through detours into the heart - Taiora, the epitome of romance

Slowly I opened my burning eyes
Weakness flooded my body
it was my own fault, nothing brought the blame to someone else
looking, I was responsible for the tears that got hot down my cheeks
walked.
What should i do now?
I brought them together, all by myself ...
I should be happy for you, finally you were happy
But I couldn't, I wanted her to be mine all alone.
They kissed and I saw it.
Well, before I continue counting and you don't understand anything, I'd better start from scratch:

I don't remember exactly how it all began, my memory leaves too many gaps for that.
But I'll try to remember the best I can
Everything came as surprising as snow in August, you understand what I am referring to, namely the day on which everything began.This day changed my life in many ways, but the story I want to tell you has its roots there, but it is only now bearing real flowers seven years later.
Blossoms...
Like the cherry blossoms under which I lay three months ago, I sleepily opened my eyes a crack, ready to close them again immediately if the sun once again sent its rays mercilessly through my window.

But there was nothing, no brightness, just lots of little blinking lights.
I opened my eyelids completely, I felt the wind gently sliding over my body and drying the hot drops on my face. Tender cherry blossoms dance down to me and I watched their game for a while.
Where was I actually?

I took my hands off my chest, having them there the whole time, and felt the slight pounding of my heart that made me make sure I was still alive.
Slowly I let it slide to the ground and felt dewy grass under me ...Confused, Eich looks rigidly upwards, the branches of a cherry tree turned over me and these velvety, beautiful angel wings were hanging everywhere,
Cherry blossoms.
Through many places of the ramifications, the infinite black of the night sky penetrated with its glowing and sparkling children, who bathed the night in a pleasant light.
Again the wind passed over my face and shook my hair
little by little I got some clear thoughts again.

I heard the water lapping gently on the bank and rippling in the wind.
I carefully drew my arms up and stood up, leaning on them.
I grimaced painfully, an unbelievable throbbing spread rapidly in my entire head. I screwed up my eyes.
Slowly I began to realize everything again, where I was, what I was doing and also what I felt.
Every fiber of my body ran through a weakness that I had never felt before, every single cell writhed in pain.I felt the yielding earth under the grass as I clawed my fingers into it so as not to fall back immediately.

I opened my eyes and looked around, in front of me the lake shimmered in the moonlight and in the billions of light points of the stars. I watched as the water sloshed back and forth onto the bank and retreated. I watched the wave-like movements caused by the wind and listened to the distant rush of the sea, from which the light breeze came and caressed me tenderly, so that goosebumps covered my bare arms.
With every new breeze a brief rain of flower petals poured over me. Behind me were countless cherry trees, all of which stood in their spring splendor and proudly heralded April.
It was April and it was unusually warm so that you could still go out at night with a T-shirt, but that doesn't really matter.

I was in the most remote part of the park, here in Odaiba, and that in the middle of the night.And slowly I absorbed the whole beauty of this place.
I loved this hidden place and came here almost every day, nobody knew it, I was always undisturbed here, only she knew about it. You. The ones I lost my heart to
Sora Takenouchi.

My eyes glided over the floor, shimmering through the dew drops.
A sigh slipped over my lips when I saw the empty vodka bottle lying next to me. I pulled one leg up so I could put my arm on it to support my aching head.
What was I thinking?
Slowly but fragmentarily my memories came back
I was just on my way to see her.

Still totally exhausted from soccer training that had cost me everything, I scraped together all my strength and ran to her house as quickly as possible.
But just as I jumped around the last corner, I stopped as if petrified. The smile that I wore on my lips the whole time, just when I was thinking of her, suddenly faded.My stomach cramped painfully and all the butterflies that had already nested there seemed to have died out all at once, all that remained was this icy cold and this infinite emptiness.
I wanted to turn around, run back, look away, but I couldn't.
There she stood and she kissed someone else who had been pretending to be my best friend the whole time and who was now so betraying me.
I knew he was interested in Sora, but I never thought he would do that to me. I always said I was only interested in her amicably, but that was not true and if he had really been my best friend, then he would have known that very well.
When she broke away from him, the rigidity in my body was also released.
I turned around and ran as fast as I could, tears slowly came to my eyes but I held them back ironically, hey I was the cool sunny boy, always happy and in a good mood, nothing could harm me.I had to maintain my image even in such situations. There was nothing that could ever make me cry, nothing that would ever make me weak. Except for one. You.

I don't know exactly what happened next, the only thing I can remember is that at some point I sat there, opened the vodka and took a long sip.
I grimaced in disgust and my throat started to burn, immediately my head felt a bit dizzy, I had never drunk alcohol before. Of course not, I was an athlete and therefore couldn't afford that at all, my coach would tear my head off, so he was never allowed to notice.
I took a second sip and got a slight urge to cough, this stuff was really disgusting. But slowly a light fog settled over everything in my head, the desired effect occurred.

But in the intoxication in which the memory was lost, I also lost all inhibitions and let my tears run free, tears that I had pent up for so long, tears that I thought they would never come out of my eyes, flowed unrestrained down my cheeks.Dripped down my chin and heated my whole body.
And I was of the opinion that with more alcohol everything would get better, I would slowly forget everything and drink myself more and more into an intoxication.
And at some point I must have fell asleep here.

Slowly I reached for the bottle that was a meter away from me, I picked it up and pulled it to me. I looked at her with glassy eyes and swore to myself> never again! <.
I turned it a little in my hand and watched the last drops gather on the floor.
Then I tensed all of my muscles and threw them as far as I could, throwing them away from me.
With a distant splash I realized that she was slowly sinking into the lake.
I ran my mane of brown hair and closed my eyes.
Should she be happy with Yamato, I'll be happy if she is too. And what is one sad person against two happy ones?
A nothing.

My head was still pounding in pain and now I was even having hallucinations.I heard my name being called softly, and this voice reminded me so strongly of her that I almost began to cry again.
I quietly listened to the noises around me, someone came, I noticed steps that were walking across the grass. No matter who it was and what he wanted, I wasn't a pushover.
The steps approached me and came to a stop shortly behind me.
"Taichi, what are you doing here? It's the middle of the night!"
said that soft voice as the person belonging to it leaned down to me.
I didn't want to believe my ears. That was her voice.
Sora's voice.

I slowly opened my eyes. I was afraid to wake up and realize that there was no one there and that the alcohol was still working.
Slowly I felt how two hands gently clenched their way around my waist and then around my stomach.
"I've been looking for you everywhere! Your mother is very worried about you!"
breathed the tender voice lovingly into my ear before letting go of me again.I felt cold where her hands were before.
It was there, it was really there. With me. Not with Him.
Gently she let herself fall into the grass next to me and I watched how her gentle facial features formed into a smile, how the moonlight shimmered in her orange, silk hair and gave them a touch of gold.
She opened her mouth slightly and inhaled the mild night air.
"I'm so glad I found you," she said while leaning her head against my shoulder.
Goosebumps made my entire body tremble, I could not think clearly, the butterflies in my stomach, awoke to new life like the phoenix from their own ashes and immediately threw a huge party.
Not paying attention to what I was doing, I put an arm around her waist and pulled her closer to me.

What was I doing there? It suddenly shot through my head.
Oh shut up, my stomach replied and immediately my mind pouted into an untraceable corner.Tears formed in my eyes but I had no strength left to defend myself, so I just let her run this one time.

Reluctantly, she raised her head and looked at me
"Taichi what's going on?" she asked worried.
"Oh nothing, it's just ..." I couldn't anymore, my voice cracked and I shook my head blandly, but tenderly she brushed my hair and looked deep into mine with her beautiful eyes.
"Hey, what's going on?" she slowly pulled my head down to hers and rested her forehead against mine.
"I ..." I scraped up all my courage at that moment and later I couldn't believe that I had really managed to say that, but she had seen me cry, nobody had ever said that before, so why should don't I tell her everything right away?
"I ... I love you ... but I know that you are with Yamato, I saw you kiss and I just want you to be happy!" it gushed out of me like a