Laugh please laugh for me!

I want to see you laugh one last time

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I'm sitting here on my bed

I pulled my knees to my chest and

bury my face in my hands.

I am alone, all alone.

Nobody is with me.

Nobody, come to me.

Nobody to protect me.

Nobody to comfort me.

It used to be Ryou, but Ryou

Once upon a time.

He is busy with himself

has no more time for me.

Suddenly the doorbell rings.

Who could it be ?

Ryou, is it you?

Please, please be it you!

I get up and go to the door.

I open it slowly.

No, it's not you ...

It would have been too beautiful.

A little girl with red hair

beaming at me and holding on

five letters to me.

I put on a mock smile

and give her forty yen.

She is very happy.

Good for you.

I close the door again

take a quick look at the post,

then slap them annoyed on the table,

since it's just stupid admonitionsare due to unpaid bills.

Now I'm on my way

into the bathroom because I feel dirty.

When I look in the mirror

I hardly recognize myself.

No, it can't be me.

But unfortunately I am.

My once beautiful hair

do not stand out more than poni on both sides.

They hang greasy on my face

right in front of the eyes.

My skin looks dirty brown instead

tanned out.

Dreadful!

This is not my likeness.

I shake my head and have to

determine,

that it is me

I look like shit and

that's how i feel too.

When I look at the clock, it occurs to me

school is about to start.

Actually I could on this one

Forego stress, but okay,

I go there.

But only to see you again.

So I put on my school uniform

and make my way to school.

The way to school is not very far

that's why I'll be there in five minutes.

There are still a few people in the schoolyard

And that tells me I'm not lateYou and Seto are standing at the back of the big oak tree.

You seem to be talking.

Seto is laughing now.

It's horrible to see him laugh.

He leans over to you and kisses you.

I can see this

no longer endure.

So I turn my head away

so that I no longer have you in sight.

Seto took you away from me

I hate him for that!

The school bell rings and

I make my way into the building.

Suddenly I am being jostled roughly.

It's Joey.

I'm falling to the floor

He screams out loud

waves his arms and

bitches with me.

If I had no eyes in my head

he asks me, snapping.

He seems very upset

that I stood in his way.

I didn't mean that Joey

really not.

Suddenly Joey slaps me in the face.

I hold my cheek

start crying and run away

The others are there too.

I still hear

as they call after me

I would be a crybaby

a coward.

I'm supposed to go to Ishizu and cry.Then they start laughing.

You laugh the loudest.

They all hurt me.

I'm running to the toilet

there i am alone.

I see my tearful face in the mirror and the place

where Joey met me

is slightly red.

I turn on the faucet

let the pool fill up and dip my face in it.

It's refreshing.

After I've dried myself off

I lean against the cold

tiled wall and let me slide down on the floor.

Now I could use a dash of speed.

I'm rummaging around in my satchel

and soon I found a little box with syringes.

I take one out and inject it in my arm.

I always do that

when I don't feel like living anymore.

You do not know,

that I inject myself.

Nobody at all knows

notices that.

I believe,

it is better,

if they never find out.

I feel a little better now.

Meanwhile the second lesson has started

and I should appear in class slowly.When I come into the classroom

I can first listen to the bleating from the math teacher.

well she has nerves!

If it were in my skin

she would certainly not always be on time.

The others in the class giggle.

Only now do I see

that you implemented yourself.

You are no longer sitting on a bench in front of me

but next to Seto.

I sit down sadly in my seat and ask my classmates

what we have to do now.

But nobody notices me.

They all ignore me.

You just sit there and write.

Nobody looks at me.

I feel excluded.

After all-day school I run home

get on my motorcycle

and board at full throttle in the direction of the autobahn.

I finally want to end this ...

Unfortunately, I miss the driveway.

and therefore drive on the long road.

I'm driving on the wrong side of the road.

I don't wear a helmet, why should I?

The wind smokes in my hair.

In the distance I see a car driving towards meand I'll end this in a moment.

Then I am free and released from my torments

and of my life.

I accelerate again

the driver in front of me tries to brake

But it is too late.

A jerk,

and I don't hear anything anymore

only see glistening brightness.

It's darkening before my eyes.

I can hear the sirens of an ambulance from far away.

I slowly open my eyes.

I'm lying on the street

blood everywhere.

I feel a little tug on my right side.

My whole body is numb.

Because of this, I don't feel any pain.

I realize,

That I'm in a boy's arms

You're the one !

You cry.

You ask me

why i did that.

You tell me

that you love me and that I can leave you.

Your clothes are smeared with blood.

With my blood.

You tell me

that you can't live without me

For the first time in a long time someone is paying attention to me.

There are many people around us.Kaiba and Joey are also there.

Nobody disregards me.

Everyone sees me

I'm finally being seen.

I'm finally being hugged again.

You put a kiss on my mouth.

Tears run down your cheeks and down my face.

I have to cry too

'Cause seeing you cry is the worst thing for me

You should laugh too,

when i'm no longer there.

I do not want,

that you cry for me

You should laugh,

just like we always did before.

You're welcome,

Ryou,

laugh !

I wanna see you laugh one last time

I am telling you.

But you don't laugh.

You cry.

I know,

that I can no longer be saved

and has to die.

But I am not afraid of death.

I am happy.

Happy about,

that now it will all be over.

I look at you one last time

see your tear-clouded face

then I fall asleep with a smile on my face.

Hope it wasn't too dramatic and too sad

that poor Marik had to die.Please dear Marik fans,

don't kill me! ^^ "

Sajonara

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