Chapter 1: Joy

Hi you ...
... once thought to write about my life ...
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Yours W! nn! - cHaN

[Yuri's point of view]

It's raining. I sit on the windowsill and look outside. Dark...
Again I think about Sasuke. I just can't forget when he gave me the basket.
I loved him for 5 years ... still do it ... at a party I confessed to him ...
Since then he has not exchanged a single word with me ...
I can still clearly remember it ... I cried bitterly ... was at the end ... I never judged him to be so callous ...
Kasumi always comforted me until I told her everything was fine ... but in reality it's very different.
Tears roll down my face.

I hear the door open, but don't look, just close my eyes and hope that it will close again.
When it closes again, I am relieved and exhale calmly.
To be on the safe side, I turn on my MP3 player and maximize the volume.Only now do I notice that I am being held in my arms ... my brother ... Ruki ... probably the only person who knows how I feel and how I live. He is always there for me and solves my problems. I feel good with him.

He gently strokes my hair and takes the plug of the MP3 player out of my ears.

“What's wrong?” His voice is soft and soothing. I know he can see how bad I am.

"Nothing ..." I answer briefly and my voice sounds more like a croak.

He sits down on the windowsill and looks at me, takes my hand and caresses it.

"There's something I don't know about ... tell me ... what's going on?" He wipes my tears away with his other hand.

"Can you guess ..." Yes ... he knows ... the thing with Sasuke ...

He nods and looks outside. He studies the starry sky in silence. "I know ... it's hard, but forget about him ... you really don't deserve something so callous, Yuri ...""I know ... but I can't ..." Actually, I don't want to talk about it anymore and so I change the subject. "We have a new one in the class ..."

"Yes ?? Fine ..." He smiles. "... make friends with her ..."

I know what he's up to ... I can only grin. "You only say that because you don't like Kasumi ..."

"I just don't have a good feeling about her ..." He closes his eyes.

"You always have ... she's not what you think she is. She's nice ... helpful ... and funny ..."

"Well ... you have to know ... but don't say I didn't warn you. I'm already worrying enough about you. All your friends ... they don't deserve you. You're too good-natured ..." Yes ... he always says that. Good-natured ...

"Thanks, Ruki ... but I'll be fine ..." A sigh escapes my lips.

“Really?” He opens his eyes and looks at me worriedly. I nod slightly.

"Yes ... can you go please? I want to be alone ..." I return his looks and nod to him.He also nods and stands up. When he stands at the door, he turns around again. "Say if you have problems ... you know ... I'm here for you ..." Then he goes out and quietly closes the door for you.

I am so grateful to him. Not every brother wastes his time on his annoying little sister and tries to comfort or help her.

I jump off the windowsill and close the window. It's gotten pretty cold. But I love the rain ... when I look at it, I can think twice.

I open my closet and take out a small box. My so-called "secret compartment". If my father knew I had started smoking again, he would probably turn my head. But I'll tell him in a few months. On my 16th birthday.

Instead of thinking of Sasuke, I think of something more important. Kisuna will stay with me for the whole summer vacation starting tomorrow. Ruki doesn't seem to be thrilled with her ...

I get ready for the night and crawl into bed.A little later I fall asleep ...

. :: NEXT DAY ::.

The rays of the sun tickle me awake and slowly open my eyes. Since I'm a little grumpy in the morning, I pull the covers over my head and grumble a little. I should have drawn the curtains ...
I prick up my ears when I hear laughter from the kitchen.
I get up quickly and slip into my teddy slippers. I puff out my room and sneak to the kitchen. It is already there ... and I was asleep until a while ago ...>. <

I open the door cautiously. Then enter the kitchen with a yawn. Great...-.-#

Kisuna looks at me and laughs. "Good noon sleepyhead .."

I growl slightly and sit down at the table. Ruki is not at the table ... somehow amazes me ...

"Hi Kisuna ..." I sigh. Hopefully she doesn't misinterpret this

"Oh dear ... someone is tired ..." Kisuna sighs back.

I look at her inquiringly, but turn to the rolls that are in a basket.I quickly grab half of it and smear it generously with cherry jam. Kisuna watches me with a smile.

"Good hunger ..." She leans back and stretches. I nod and destroy the bun in a few minutes. Then I take a sip of orange juice and look at Kisuna.

She smiles - as always.

"And? What have you done nice?" She looks at me and sips her coffee.

"Was on the I-Net most of the time ... you know me ..." I grin at her. I've only been on the internet lately. Only now have I discovered the forum, where I've been for over a year. At first I always uploaded my stories there. There are now 19 pieces ... and I've only finished three of them.

“Did you continue writing to Darkness?” She tilts her head and stares at me. I can only smile.

"Yes ... I'm already working on the second part ... the first one had, in my opinion, an open ending ..."

"That's good ... then I'll start reading tonight ..." Kisuna takes a long sip of her coffee.I nod. At least one of my friends who appreciates my stories ... and the only one I can talk to on the subject of anime ...

I look at her ... Kisuna ... she ran away from home ... so she told me on the phone yesterday ... she cried ... again had stress with her parents. Mine are currently working ... will still talk to them ... and knowing them, they will let Kisuna's parents know that she is fine.

And already I notice how Ruki is leaning against the door frame.

"Oh no ... the pain in the ass ..." He smiles at Kisuna.

She grins. "I'll give you a pain in the ass ..." Ruki can't help but laugh.

"I want to see ..." he mumbles and grins back.

Ruki sits down on the bench and turns on the CD player. Rammstein can already be heard from the boxes.

He sings along softly. "We were living in America ... America is wonderful ..." Kisuna laughs.

I shake my head and sigh ... typical ...