Ante Scriptum (AS): I apologize for the line skips that make the whole thing a bit illegible, but I can't help it or not. I want to give you a simple tip here. With the lyrics everything is okay and with the poems, four lines each make up a stanza. In the event of deviations, a note is given beforehand.

So, something new, I hope you like it. If not, it doesn't matter.

From Friendship to Love, from Love to Depression, from Depression to Hatred

A little song, written at a point of feeling deepest loneliness.

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Having lost you, having found
My last memories gather 'round
Your eyes, your face
Your smile, your grace
Each thought makes
My heart ache
My body shake
My soul break
My mind wake
For gods sake
My life's fade '>

Friends we were, the time made more
Walking on a distant shore
Feeling white sands underneath
Watching you, hearing you breath
Once we met, a rainy day"God", we'd say, we'd think, we'd pray
"God, don't make this moment go
Don't let it end now, please don't… no! "
We talked, we smiled, we laughed a lot
We acted as if we'd play the plot
The plot of friendship, build on trust
Not knowing what would come (Yeah, lust)

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After that we met each other
Each visit fun, no-one did bother
I sat near you, you sat near me
I felt the same way, needn't see
The heart bumping inside your chest
I knew, but I was still your guest
I had looked down, I felt ashamed
I was afraid of being blamed
You laid your hand down on my cheek
I moved my head, faced you, got weak
Inside your eyes a fire burned
I realized there's no return
Our lips touched

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Our tongues twisted

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Your hands moved gently on my body

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My fingertips found to your breasts

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This moment I was sure I'd never forget

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This went on, for days, for weeks
It seemed our love did have no leaksOne day, a day like all before
We walked, as said, on this white shore
You next to me, me next to you
It was like all these couples do
But what you said, it seemed to me
So wrong, unreal, it couldn't be
You said you've found another one
You said this fault can't be undone
You said your sorry to leave me now
You explained your decision, I don't know how
But one thing I know for sure
For my wounds there is no cure
First came desperation
Then depression

After that there was realization
You left me here, left me alone
You left for an other, now you are gone
"I hate you, might you suffer in hell!"
I went on weeping, broke the shell
A present to you, you remember?
I made it out of precious timber
I kept in mind that rainy day
You left your love, and went away

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That day now seems to be forgotten
I saw your "man", they said, you've shot him
You hit him right into the head
After a moment he was dead
You did right he always treated
You like you had been defeatedYou've lost your love but not your pride
No more you had wanted to hide
I read the letter you had written
In our relation 'you've always hidden
But now you're gone I feel just pain
Why did you go, it was a shame

Having lost you, having found ...

Ha --- ving lost you, having found ...

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My life's… fade --- d

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