Translation
Gefühle
past
> Hello everyone! Here I am again. And after a little creative crisis (brain empty!) I try to continue! And please keep going with the clerks! <
Chapter 3
"Past"
She still couldn't believe it: had the ice block thanked her? She glanced furtively over at the big demon, who was sitting under a tree as always.
/ He reminds me of someone ... / She continued to look at him and tried to hold onto her thought. But again and again her past slipped away from her. She remembered her last flashback sadly. Something really bad must have happened because she could only remember fragments of what had happened.
In fact, it was only now that she really got to think about it. How did she get here in the first place? Where was her home? Who was she once?
She didn't know anymore. / Is that what you call "the grace of oblivion"? / she thought sadly and stared at the floor in front of her.She forced herself to grapple with her memories:
1. She remembered blood, a lot of blood ... Maybe a fight? Definitely!
2. She remembered James ... a dead James ... He had meant a lot to her because her heart ached when she thought of him.
3. You remembered the children! Dozens of kids ... maybe a school? More like a boarding school, because it was night when it happened.
4. She remembered the raging anger in her mind and the pain in her heart ... It shouldn't have happened.
5. Above all else, she remembered the horrified faces of the children ... How they stared at her and moved away from her. That was cruel.
Shivering, she noticed that the night had become very cold. She started the fire again and added more wood so that little Rin didn't have to freeze. / How cute, how she sleeps ... So innocent ... What do you think happened to her real family? / lovingly she looked down at the little one.After the fire burned properly again and gave off soothing warmth, she went back to her thoughts.
/ I have to remember! I can't keep running away! / she silently scolded herself.
Suddenly it flashed through her like lightning! She was now sitting bolt upright in front of the fire and looking into the writhing flame as if hypnotized. Tears ran down her face and Sesshoumaru had also noticed the change. He sat up slowly and looked at the distraught blood elf: / What do you think she has? /
Shan'dalar began to tremble. Her heart seemed to burst because what she remembered would have been better kept hidden:
She saw herself when she came to this boarding school in human form. Friendly faces greeted and welcomed them. And there he was, too: James stood to one side and studied her. She looked back openly ... Back into those sad eyes ... These eyes had seen a lot of suffering ... maybe even too much.
She had to look away because she was led into the house.It was huge and beautifully decorated. She looked around, jamming.
The first days went by in a flash. Everything was so new and unfamiliar. Daily school, over whole days and not even the easiest subjects and topics were dealt with. But she felt good here.
Again and again she saw the sad eyes that were still eying her suspiciously.
Then one day, all of a sudden, he was standing behind her. Very close and whispered in her ear with a hoarse voice: "Who are you really, Lea? I can smell it that you are not who you seem to be. Reveal yourself and don't hide yourself any longer!" running her back: did he really recognize her? Did he suspect that she wasn't human? Slowly she shook her head and whispered back: "Not yet. The time is not yet ripe for it. You wouldn't understand." But no one was standing between her. As silently as it had appeared, it had disappeared again.Even later in bed the showers kept coming back. Goosebumps covered her human body. And at that moment she made up her mind. She would show herself to him, but only to him. For now, at least.
She looked at the clock: 01:30 blinked towards her. But she knew where she would meet James at this time. Resolutely she put on her coat and went into the garden. As expected, James sat on a park bench and looked at the stars. “Have you made up your mind to be honest?” He didn't even look at her.
"Look here and decide for yourself whether it was right not to show me yet!" she called to him and transformed. James had risen from his seat and was walking towards the blood elf. He didn't seem the least bit afraid of her. She had lowered her head, but he lifted it gently: "Why are you hiding? You are beautiful." Their eyes met and she knew that she had always been waiting for him. She had been waiting for someone to accept her for who she was: a blood elf.And here this someone was standing in front of her and looking at her in that understanding way. Her heart melted and all doubts were forgotten. Then he kissed her carefully and she kissed her back.
Then suddenly and suddenly a lightning bolt! Everything shone brightly and she turned back into a person. The couple was shocked to see that the school was attacked! Soldiers, or rather mercenaries, stormed the grounds and the house. James pushed her aside and she screamed and fell ... Then several shots rang out in her direction and she could only watch James sink to the ground, hit. She ran up to him and called his name, but when she knelt next to him, no pulse could be felt.
And then came the anger!
As in the cave in front of Naraku, she turned back and began to float. Her eyes lit emerald green and her hair flew in the wind.
This is how they saw the children. They hadn't been prepared for it and were scared to death. Not only did someone try to kill them, no, a vengeance angel in blood red was floating in front of them!She saw the fear and despaired. But the anger was still stronger! She was out of control! With her sword drawn, she mowed through the ranks of the attackers. The blood flowed in rivers and the screams of fear from the children and adults only reached him in a distorted manner.
Then it was suddenly over ... There were no opponents left ... Only blood and death ruled the scene. She realized what she had done and was terrified of herself.
At that moment she must have mobilized unexpected forces, because she found herself in an unknown world ... In this world ...
Breathing heavily, she came to her senses again. Now she knew why her mind would not allow this memory. Groaning, she straightened up and went to the lake. There she collapsed, sobbing loudly and cried ...
Soft footsteps sounded behind her and a hand touched her shoulder.
She flinched and turned her head. Behind was none other than the ice block!
She sniffed and looked at him.Then all the dams broke and she threw herself crying into his arms. He let her go.
> Sooooo, end for today ... clerks are always welcome ... <
Chapter 3
"Past"
She still couldn't believe it: had the ice block thanked her? She glanced furtively over at the big demon, who was sitting under a tree as always.
/ He reminds me of someone ... / She continued to look at him and tried to hold onto her thought. But again and again her past slipped away from her. She remembered her last flashback sadly. Something really bad must have happened because she could only remember fragments of what had happened.
In fact, it was only now that she really got to think about it. How did she get here in the first place? Where was her home? Who was she once?
She didn't know anymore. / Is that what you call "the grace of oblivion"? / she thought sadly and stared at the floor in front of her.She forced herself to grapple with her memories:
1. She remembered blood, a lot of blood ... Maybe a fight? Definitely!
2. She remembered James ... a dead James ... He had meant a lot to her because her heart ached when she thought of him.
3. You remembered the children! Dozens of kids ... maybe a school? More like a boarding school, because it was night when it happened.
4. She remembered the raging anger in her mind and the pain in her heart ... It shouldn't have happened.
5. Above all else, she remembered the horrified faces of the children ... How they stared at her and moved away from her. That was cruel.
Shivering, she noticed that the night had become very cold. She started the fire again and added more wood so that little Rin didn't have to freeze. / How cute, how she sleeps ... So innocent ... What do you think happened to her real family? / lovingly she looked down at the little one.After the fire burned properly again and gave off soothing warmth, she went back to her thoughts.
/ I have to remember! I can't keep running away! / she silently scolded herself.
Suddenly it flashed through her like lightning! She was now sitting bolt upright in front of the fire and looking into the writhing flame as if hypnotized. Tears ran down her face and Sesshoumaru had also noticed the change. He sat up slowly and looked at the distraught blood elf: / What do you think she has? /
Shan'dalar began to tremble. Her heart seemed to burst because what she remembered would have been better kept hidden:
She saw herself when she came to this boarding school in human form. Friendly faces greeted and welcomed them. And there he was, too: James stood to one side and studied her. She looked back openly ... Back into those sad eyes ... These eyes had seen a lot of suffering ... maybe even too much.
She had to look away because she was led into the house.It was huge and beautifully decorated. She looked around, jamming.
The first days went by in a flash. Everything was so new and unfamiliar. Daily school, over whole days and not even the easiest subjects and topics were dealt with. But she felt good here.
Again and again she saw the sad eyes that were still eying her suspiciously.
Then one day, all of a sudden, he was standing behind her. Very close and whispered in her ear with a hoarse voice: "Who are you really, Lea? I can smell it that you are not who you seem to be. Reveal yourself and don't hide yourself any longer!" running her back: did he really recognize her? Did he suspect that she wasn't human? Slowly she shook her head and whispered back: "Not yet. The time is not yet ripe for it. You wouldn't understand." But no one was standing between her. As silently as it had appeared, it had disappeared again.Even later in bed the showers kept coming back. Goosebumps covered her human body. And at that moment she made up her mind. She would show herself to him, but only to him. For now, at least.
She looked at the clock: 01:30 blinked towards her. But she knew where she would meet James at this time. Resolutely she put on her coat and went into the garden. As expected, James sat on a park bench and looked at the stars. “Have you made up your mind to be honest?” He didn't even look at her.
"Look here and decide for yourself whether it was right not to show me yet!" she called to him and transformed. James had risen from his seat and was walking towards the blood elf. He didn't seem the least bit afraid of her. She had lowered her head, but he lifted it gently: "Why are you hiding? You are beautiful." Their eyes met and she knew that she had always been waiting for him. She had been waiting for someone to accept her for who she was: a blood elf.And here this someone was standing in front of her and looking at her in that understanding way. Her heart melted and all doubts were forgotten. Then he kissed her carefully and she kissed her back.
Then suddenly and suddenly a lightning bolt! Everything shone brightly and she turned back into a person. The couple was shocked to see that the school was attacked! Soldiers, or rather mercenaries, stormed the grounds and the house. James pushed her aside and she screamed and fell ... Then several shots rang out in her direction and she could only watch James sink to the ground, hit. She ran up to him and called his name, but when she knelt next to him, no pulse could be felt.
And then came the anger!
As in the cave in front of Naraku, she turned back and began to float. Her eyes lit emerald green and her hair flew in the wind.
This is how they saw the children. They hadn't been prepared for it and were scared to death. Not only did someone try to kill them, no, a vengeance angel in blood red was floating in front of them!She saw the fear and despaired. But the anger was still stronger! She was out of control! With her sword drawn, she mowed through the ranks of the attackers. The blood flowed in rivers and the screams of fear from the children and adults only reached him in a distorted manner.
Then it was suddenly over ... There were no opponents left ... Only blood and death ruled the scene. She realized what she had done and was terrified of herself.
At that moment she must have mobilized unexpected forces, because she found herself in an unknown world ... In this world ...
Breathing heavily, she came to her senses again. Now she knew why her mind would not allow this memory. Groaning, she straightened up and went to the lake. There she collapsed, sobbing loudly and cried ...
Soft footsteps sounded behind her and a hand touched her shoulder.
She flinched and turned her head. Behind was none other than the ice block!
She sniffed and looked at him.Then all the dams broke and she threw herself crying into his arms. He let her go.
> Sooooo, end for today ... clerks are always welcome ... <