... "Kira" I looked up in shock. Those weren't my words. Hao finished the sentence for me.
"K..Kira?" I asked him frightened and panicked. Hao just nodded to me in a friendly and totally happy way. I couldn't return that smile. Not now ... when my world just seemed to be ending.
"Yes, I love her," he smiled again. "I don't know either! ... It just happened that way, but whenever I think of her my heart gets so light." He beamed at me overjoyed. What could I do now? I turned the corner of my mouth in a faint smile and committed suicide on the inside. However, I didn't last long. As quickly as I could, I grabbed Hao's hand and hurriedly bent my head down until my forehead touched his arm and He couldn't see my face. I closed my eyes and kissed the back of his hand lovingly. Just ignored his confused look. When I slowly opened my eyes again and looked at the spot on his hand that I had just kissed, a single tear fell from my right eye.I looked up at him slowly. I didn't care what he thought of me now. Without any major facial expressions, only with eyes filled with emotional pain and the tear that had settled on my cheek, I looked him completely in the eye.
I managed to say "good luck" just before I lost control and rushed out of the hospital room.
Completely dissolved, I ran down the hallway, which just seemed like an endless path that led to eternal rest. When I finally saw the bright light at the end, I just ran faster. I pushed open the two emergency exit doors and stormed outside. Grabbed the metal railing (she's on the first floor) and pressed me against it with my whole body. My tears ran down my face inexorably. While a few dripped onto the railing and others simply slapped on the floor from a height of 5 meters and left a dark stain.
° my first love! ...why he? °
I let go of the railing and went down the emergency stairs. After that, I left the school building and went home.
Several times, almost every two minutes, I had to hold on to something and take a break. Otherwise I would have collapsed from mental weakness.
Everything was spinning around me. My head seemed totally foggy.

Currently in school

Hao was still sitting in the same place, completely calm. Seriously he looked out of the window to maybe find some hope for his sister in the deep blue sky.
But hopeless.
She loved him.
How could she? He didn't understand.
"Oh Sairi what should I do ?!" he muttered to himself.
He got up slowly and went back to class. He apologized to the teacher for Sairi and said that she was not doing well and that she was home now.
Then he waited for the break, in which Yo came to him with a questioning look.
"What's going on? Where's Sairi?""I think at home," Hao said absently.
"You think???" Yo asked, startled.
Hao didn't answer him and just ignored his question.
"Yo you are right. You should go looking for her!" He just said and still didn't look Yo in the face. Yo didn't understand any of this. But decided to look for his sister. He only glanced at Hao once more and shook his head incomprehensibly. Then he let himself go to the headmaster for the last few hours to look after Sairi.
He started immediately. Didn't make any detours and went home on the direct route.

At Sairi's

I felt so miserable. Now I stood in front of our front door and unlocked it. I stepped into the hall, slipped off my shoes, threw the school bag on the floor and took off my jacket, which also landed on the floor behind me.
I would put it all away later.
Step by step, I stepped forward with a lazy look on the carpet.Everything seemed so difficult to me.
The light suddenly faded before my eyes and turned me into an eerie and cold black. My legs buckled under me ... everything was black ... then the serve!