Sooooo here is my first Shaman Kingff and with it my first Shounen Ai and also my first drama that I wrote ^^
So I hope you like it, and I wish a couple of commissioners and of course criticism ^^

I'm still holding your headband in my right hand.
I just can't believe that I can never see your face, your smile again.
Tears run down my cheeks again, tears that only flow for you, Horo.
You only died because of me, back then you confessed your love to me, and I ... I pushed you away from me, said that you were perverted and that I hate you ...
If I hadn't and your love returned, would you still be alive?
Tears run down my cheeks again and I remember what keeps me from sleeping.

[Flashback]

We are involved in a tough fight, Zeke had given us a lot of trouble.
I thought that the last hour had struck when Zeke approached me with an aggressive look.I closed my eyes to face my death, but opened them in shock when I heard the painful scream Horos.
My eyes widened, Horo was bleeding on the floor.
His eyes were half closed.
I ran to him.
In my heart of hearts, I wish that he was fine.
I crouched down in front of him and quickly wiped a few tears from my face so that he couldn't see that I was crying.
"W- why are you crying R-Ren ?!" Horohoro stuttered and held out his hand to Ren.
Ren took Horos hand in his and tried to smile "Why did you do that you idiot ?! I don't want you to die, even if I told you I hate you!"
Ren had to pull himself together, but he couldn't.
Tears ran down his cheeks that were dripping into Horo's face.
Horo smiled "I wanted to protect you Ren, do you think I would have endured if that guy had killed you?
I would never have forgiven myself Ren!Do you actually know how much I love you "Ren blushed and kneeled down to Horohoro, he took Horos hands back in his and smiled sadly" I love you too! "Ren confessed.
Horo smiled at the words.
He grabbed his head with his hand and pulled off his headband.
"R-Ren for you!" Horohoro stammered and powerlessly pulled the headband on, Horo smiled again and then closed his eyes forever.
Ren looked at Horo sadly and tears formed in his eyes that dripped onto the lifeless man's face.
Ren clung to the lifeless body and wept heartily.
[Flashback end]
At these thoughts he looked sadly at Horo's headband.
With his left hand he grabbed a knife "I'll be back with you in a minute" said Ren, but then he thought ...
What would Horo think if Ren just murdered himself like that? Then Horohoro would have died in vain, and Ren didn't want that because he loved Horo.
Ren thought again, put on the headband and went to Horos' tomb.He bent down to the grave and put new flowers there.
He then took off the headband that Horo had given him back then.
For him it is his most important possession.
With a smile on his face he put it on the tombstone that had Horo's name on it and said "I love you Horo ... forever!" He wiped a tear from his face.