Broken heart
Author: black-phoenix
Subject: beyblade
Genre: tragedy
Paring: TaKa
Warning: Shonen-Ai and very OOC

Well, this OneShoot came to my mind one evening, so don't be surprised if it's a little (or a little more) strange, but I was just tired. It's no wonder at two o'clock in the morning * droop *. But now I've annoyed the readers enough. Here comes the first and last chapter from the fanfiction "Broken Heart"

+ ~ * The one and only + ~ *

~ Kai Pointview ~

Another tear runs down my pale cheek. I don't even know why I'm still crying. Is it still because of you?
With tired eyes I pull my legs up against my body and wrap my arms around them. It gives me the feeling of steadfastness and security that I currently lack. Then I rest my head on my knees drawn up.
Since you left, my meaning in life has disappeared. I shed tears every day.
Sleep is almost impossible for me to think about any more.In every dream I see you repeating the same sentences over and over again: "Kai, how dare you. You cheated on me and now you don't even have the courage to confess this to me. But I know it. Bryan has everything to me tells ... Why don't you finally admit it? Should I tell you something Hiwatary? I hate you, because you are the last thing for me ... "For a moment you look at me with your cold blue eyes, then before you go you say the words that destroy my heart: "It's over"
With these words you left me for good the day before yesterday. Threw these words at my head that weren't true. None of that was true. So why did you leave You were absolutely convinced of your opinion, besides, you had lost your trust in me, otherwise you would have believed me in spite of everything. Then you wouldn't have left me!
It's your fault it's over Tala. Your ... not mine.
Still, none of this changes the fact that I ...... that I still ...
I still love you
Yes, I still love you, despite what you've done to me. This could almost be described as childish naivete. A child who thinks the rattle stork will bring the babies. A child who believes his dead mother is now sleeping and dreaming of a better place.
But I'm no longer a child and I haven't believed in something like that for a long time, because life has shown me the bitter reality.
If I’m honest I don’t believe in anything since you’re gone. Love, trust, friendship. What does that mean? Nothing. But it breaks faster than glass, as fast as my heart.
I sob and again tears run down my cheeks. I can't stand this life anymore: A life without you.
I would love to commit suicide, but that would make me admit that I am weak. Would be too weak to live and I don't want that. My pride forbids me. So now I just vegetate in my desolate life.In my life without you
I've given up wiping away my tears. There are too many that flow incessantly. I can't beat them anyway.
Damn Tala. Why can't you just come back. Why not?...
... I miss you so much ...
The ringing of my front door tears me out of my thoughts, but I don't get up. It's probably just Tyson and the others who want to try to build me up, who want to help me anyway. But I don't want any help. From nobody. I don't need your pity either. I can not stand. Their pitying looks with which they haunt me. Your standing by words that should make everything better and easier for me. But they have no idea what my heart looks like. It's destroyed. All of this just because of you. Nothing can help me. On the contrary, it only makes things worse. Why can't they understand. The only thing I need that you could give me is a hug from you.I want to feel that I am not alone, that there is someone who stands by me. I don't want to talk about what happened either. I just can't take it. If you don't want to do this, let them go, because for me your words and looks are just hypocrisy. They act like they're sorry for what happened, but basically they don't care. They are glad that you left me because we have always been against our relationship. They found same-sex love despicable. They never said this, but I saw it in their eyes. They were against us. Despite everything, they kept it quiet and pretended nothing had happened, since we were all supposedly friends. Pah, friends ... great friends who don't respect that. I never asked them to be gay too, I just wanted them to understand me and not be against a relationship with you, Tala. Apparently that was asking too much. So I don't want to see her anymore, because I know that her pity is only apparent.I'm still sitting here on the floor, but slowly the thought occurs to me to open the door, because the continuous ringing for five minutes annoys me enormously.
I slowly get up and immediately begin to stagger ominously. Sometimes I even go black before my eyes. My circulation is going crazy. It's no wonder either. I haven't eaten anything since you left.
I finally open the front door. I just want to yell at the person who annoys me with the constant ringing when I see who it is.
No sound escapes my lips now.
"Kai", you only pronounce my name. I see you stare at me and tears well up in your azure eyes. What happened to make you react like that?
You step closer to me, but automatically I take a step backwards. I can't stand your closeness, you've done too much to me.
The long silence is broken by you: "Kai ... I'm sorry ... I should have believed you ... Don't throw false accusations around me ... I'm sorry ... Bryan has just confessed to me that he lied to me.But when he said you had cheated on me, a fuse blown ... I was so angry that someone could touch my pure angel that I didn't want to believe you ... I'm sorry Kai ... Please come back to me ... please ... "To At the end you got quieter and quieter, I could literally feel how sorry you were.
Without knowing what I was doing, I threw myself around your neck and let my tears run free, which were silenced by the shock. You hugged me tightly.
"Of course I'll come back to you you idiot. But please, never doubt my words again and stay with me forever"
I want to go back to you because I can no longer bear the loneliness that reigns without you
With one hand you lifted my face: "I'll do everything for you. Just for you"
Then you approach my face. Shortly before our lips touch you whisper: "Yes tebja ljubju moi slatki *", then we sink into a passionate kiss.* Russian = I love you my darling (hope it is spelled correctly)
When I wrote this OneShoot I was in a kind of depressed mood, but when I was working on it I couldn't let Kai commit suicide, I wanted to make a happy ending out of it. If you still want to get up to speed with the suicide, write a picking and I will publish it here soon.
Bye bye your black-phoenix