Those damn nights in this desolate city.
How I despise them and need them at the same time.
As if you're the only one that still keeps me here.
A giver of life for my useless existence

Mother was right: I am a godless failure with an unreasonable face.
A drunkard, a lost soul with no perspective.
The lowest social class.
Spend my lonely nights in this bar, day in, day out.
Consume consolation in liquid form, suppress loneliness with hard liquor.
Ridiculous. Pathetic.
Just a shadow of myself

Hide my face to save those strolling by.
And yet.
But my gaze is not directed downwards.
He sees her, secretly and quietly pursues her.
She mustn't notice that I'm here.
She mustn't see me.
I feel she is in this room.
I perceive her graceful movements, hold her tight with my senses.
Never let go of her again.
They belong to me.

Like an elf.Do not turn around!
Do not look at me!

The skin as white as snow, like the most fragile china.
The face is an image of beauty.
So tender, so lovely.
Let me touch you, little elf.
Keep my rough, scarred hands on your face.

I want to own it.
She should be mine.
My ray of light, the star that shines for me.
But it will never be mine.
It was not made for my abnormal existence.
Dance, don't care about anything, don't come closer!

My drug princess.
So much destroyed and yet so beautiful.
If only I could kiss your lips once ...

She pauses, she comes up to me.
Don't look at me don't make it so hard

She takes a seat next to me.
I don't want to look at them, I don't want to stain my eyes.
But I can't just look away.
She is too beautiful.

Why are you so sad?
I see the pain in your gaze
Where's the smile on your mouth?
I would like to give it to you again.You just have to let me.
Let me kiss you, let me touch you
But don't look at me!
We sit next to each other like two mute acquaintances.
Strange and yet familiar.
I don't perceive the music.
No sounds, no lights, just you.
Only you.

My elf.

This face.
I hate you. Your beauty. It makes me sick.
Received and mistreated so much from God.

So much beauty preserved and yet destroyed.
Your lifeless eyes.
You did it again, admit it.
You took it again.

I despise you for it.

The glass trembles in my hand.
I would love to ram the broken pieces into your skin.
In your face, your pretty, adorable face.
Take away the beauty that you exploit so shamefully.

Drug princess.

Forgive me,

I love you.....

Your voice breaks through the background noise.
At first I think I've misheard, but then I hear him clearly.
The lovely sound.
You sound like an angel"Would you like to dance?" you ask.
Have noticed me, speak to me.
I can't dance, but I'm not telling you that.
Don't want to disappoint you.

I'm confused, but I don't look away.
I'll hold your gaze
The alcohol begins to work, the world shines.
You too shine and suddenly I can dance.
I know I can.
The alcohol makes me a dancer just for you.
"Gladly" I say, studying your gestures, your face.
Can laugh again, you noticed me.

My princess.

What's the matter with your eyes?
You are so empty and expressionless.
You are so young and already dead.
So much beauty, what a waste of this vegetable poison.
I want to beat it out of you.
Don't wanna hurt you
I want to punish you.
What a waste, my elf.
Your youth poisoned, your countenance disfigured

You pull me with you into the middle of the room.

We're on the dance floor, you put your arms around me.Tell me to do the same
May I?
Can I really touch you like in my dreams?
Can I smell your skin?
Can i call you my own

The DJ hangs up.
I hear the words:
I miss, god, I miss
waking up beside you

I don't miss anything, nothing more.

The alcohol begins to work.

You lay your head on my shoulder, quite unabashedly.
As if we'd known each other forever.
We are strangers and yet familiar.
The world starts to turn.
Knowing you in my arms I don't mind.
I don't care about anything else with you.

You pause in the middle of the song, but it was so beautiful.
Destroyed it.
Say you feel dizzy if I could drive you home
It's the drugs, right?
I accept.

Lead you to my car, still clutched tight.
You couldn't stand without my help.
Poor elf, helpless, alone and pumped full of poison.
I'll save you, I'll bring you to me .....

Carry you into my lousy home.Surrender my soul to you.
Here I am, alone, isolated.
Now you can be a part of it.
If you could leave, I would ask you to come in.
Hold on tight, you are safe with me.
Nobody will harm you
my helpless elf.

It's cold in the house.
Do you feel the cold
Take me in Your arms,
console me.

You let go of me and laugh at me.
Is it just the drugs or do you really love me?
Your eyes don't want to tell me anything, your mouth stays closed too.
Say, is it just your state or do you feel what I feel for you?

Noise chaos in your head.
The aftermath.
You're doing bad, the world is turning gray, isn't it?
Hurts.
But it's your own fault, princess.
Established your own kingdom for yourself.
I can't do anything for you
Can only redeem you forever.
Do you really want that?
Just have to say, I'll save you

Nausea.
Sucks.
I know the feeling, know it all too well.Knows how you feel
Come here, I'll help you.
Heal yourself, set yourself free.
The poison subsides
but not from you.
Eats you from the inside.
Enjoyable?
Will you do it again
Pretty bitch.

I forgive you.
For this once I forgive you.

I carry you to my bedroom.
It's warmer here.
Lie down and rest.
When you're so sick, I don't wanna touch you.
If you smell like that, you disgust me.
White skin, lips very pale.
You're cold?
I will take care of you.

Lay down on my bed
close your eyes and don't think about anything.
Let the poison go, tomorrow is a new day.
Another chance.

I could sleep with you and you wouldn't fight back.
In this moment you are mine
but
i respect you too much
I love you too much.
I'm not like the others.
Just let me be with you
Lay me with you, need your closeness
Been alone far too long.

You're beautiful.
Angelic.Be mine forever
Only kiss me when you love me
You on drugs
I'm full of alcohol.
An explosive mix.
Do you know what you are doing?
Why you take my hand
why your lips touch mine
We two, strangers and yet confidants.

Where do you want to go
You get up and go.
Tell me to wait
I am confused.
Princess, don't leave me here.
Been alone too long.

The door opens, you enter again.
Undressed.
Your tender skin in front of my eyes.
Arms riddled with pinpricks.
Carnal lust enveloped in the acrid stench of vomit.
Why are you naked
Where are your clothes
Don't look at me like that!
What have you done? Why do you purposely arouse me like that?
You think I'm like the others
Want your fun
don't know what you're doing
I just wanted you to be close, a little guidance.
I misjudged you.
Bitch.

Do not provoke me!
Do not look at me!
I will not let you use meIgnored for months, now you surrender everything.
You don't like me
Don't laugh at me!
You are not yourself
I see the poison through your eyes
False snake.
Do not want you.
Wrong friendliness, wrong closeness.
You have no love in you.
Think I'm just your next

I am much more than that.

How many have you betrayed?
How much did your poison have to cost?
Lost queen in the drug realm.
You are not worth living

Let me show you the way

The intoxicating effects of alcohol wear off.
I feel bad.
I am full of hate
to you of you!
It's all your fault.

Got to throw up, can still hold it back
Will hold it back
Won't show weakness in front of you.
Have spoiled, filthy me.
Lied to.
Look at me!
Memorize my face well.
You will never hurt me again.

I'm not like the others
am not just your neighbor.

Where has your smile goneIt's no longer fun.
I'm full of anger, full of hate.

I hate you, you bitch.
And yet i love you
Your beauty made me blind
your nature enchants me.
Oh why are you hurting me so much?
Why are you hurting yourself so much

It didn't have to end like this.

Stop crying.
Don't cover your face
I destroyed it for you, I'm sorry
but you deserve it
I just want to help you
because I love you.
Will disfigure you so that nobody wants you.
Are forever mine
I am more than just your neighbor
I'll be your only one too

Believe me,
it hurts me more than you do.
It hurts me to see you like this
Poor humiliated elves.
You had to endure so much suffering.
I heal you

Where do you want to go
Don't go away
You're driving me crazy, do you hear?
Now belong to me, belong here.
You won't go
I won't let that happen.
I don't want to be alone anymore.

I run after you and grab your arm.Stop screaming and don't fight back.
Don't make it worse.
Grab more tightly
throw yourself against the wall.
See your lip pop open.
Trust me, it's all right.

Why are you looking at me like that?
Stop pleading!
Pathetic.
Begging for your life like a child
you never really cared about it.
When the poison flowed through your veins you didn't care either.
Pale skin, arms covered with pinpricks.
Can't feel sorry for you
Was your self-built kingdom
your self-established destiny.
Got blood on your lip.
Let me take it away from you

Take the key.
No i won't let you go
You belong to Me.

Are you my drug princess
forever

END