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Hopeless
the eye. "I love you too. I've loved you for so long." Tears still ran down her cheeks. "I just never expected it!" She began to laugh softly. "Ran ...", he tenderly took her hand one more time. "Everything's fine!" He whispered and sank into her eyes. It almost seemed like everything around them was frozen. He sank into her eyes ...
...
Outside the restaurant, in the stairwell, they finally faced each other.Nobody was to be seen far and wide. He had to tell her something else. "Ran ... There is ..." he started, but was pleasantly interrupted by his girlfriend. She gently put her index finger over his mouth. He fell silent and looked at her in confusion. It wasn't until she straightened up to him that he knew what she was up to. Their faces grew closer and closer. After he closed his eyes, first their noses touched, then their lips ... At that moment, a small fireworks display exploded inside him. He had wished for nothing more ardently. For that moment he was the happiest man in the whole world. He was well aware of that. Nothing was sweeter than that kiss. Their first kiss, they were really together. Wished for so long and now finally it was. The sweet taste was quickly joined by something salty ... Ran had shed a few tears of joy full of happiness.
They slowly separated from each other, but were still hugging each other.Before he could say anything, however, his heartbeat had to calm down again. The noise in his ears clouded his senses and he wanted to be able to think clearly again. "I've waited so long for this!" She whispered in his ear. It wasn't exactly helpful what she was doing. But it made him very happy. "I still have to tell you something ..." he started and slowly released the hug. "What?", Ran looked at him happily but questioningly. He didn't know what to expect now. Not what was about to happen, however. "It's about Conan ..." he paused briefly. Ran was no longer beaming, just looked at him questioningly. "W-what about him?" She asked quietly. // He's in Europe with his parents. He left a good two weeks ago ... // she pounded in her head. Had something happened to him? Or why did Shinichi look so serious? She didn't understand. "Conan is ... He didn't go back to his 'parents'," Shinichi said softly but firmly.Not much was missing. Just one more little thing ... "W-why? What do you want to tell me, Shinichi?", She looked at her boyfriend, shaking her head. She didn't understand why he could ruin the whole mood all at once. "I think you have a right to know ...", he needed a short pause to take a last breath. After a strong breath he continued: "I was Conan Edogawa ... I was ..." ... // shriveled by a poison and had to go into hiding for the time being because the organization was trying to kill me // he finished his sentence in his mind. Because Ran's reaction to his words did not allow him to continue. "No ...", shaking her head, with a trembling voice she took a few steps back. "Let me explain it!", Shinichi took a few steps towards her. But she backed away further. "Why do you say that now? Do you have to break everything?", She just put her right foot back. However, this foot found no ground.For Shinichi Kudo, everything was going on in slow motion at that moment. Ran, who lost her balance and fell backwards ... Her bloodcurdling scream that seared into his memories ... How she slowly disappeared from his field of vision. He was firmly rooted, could not think clearly for the next few seconds. He was still looking at the place where he had last seen Ran ... "RAN!"
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"RRRRAAAAAANNNN", he finished his scream from the dream in bed. He sat horizontally in bed, trying to breathe calmly and hold back the tears. It happened again. "Ran ..." he whispered, like so often during the day. Half a year ... Night after night he was haunted by the memories that he tried to suppress during the day. He quickly fell back on the pillows. Vacation didn't help, distance from Tokyo didn't help. His friends had been wrong that things would get better here by the sea. He couldn't escape, the memories, the sadness and the despair.Of course, the feelings of guilt too. He'd accepted it now, but his friends didn't. They were still trying to make the old, cheerful Shinichi out of him. He wouldn't come any more. That Shinichi, the self-confident and popular detective, no longer existed. That part was gone with Ran….
When everything seems pointless,
life is your greatest enemy
then not even time will help you anymore.
Not even the time!
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The next few hours were only a mystery to the young detective. He had managed to go down the stairs, although people hurrying up tried to prevent him. He saw the pool of blood, heard people shouting back and forth ... The sirens of the arriving ambulance and the ambulance, as if in a trance, he followed the events. He couldn't intervene, as much as he wanted. Ran's image of her lying there in the pool of blood had frozen him. The ground had suddenly been pulled from under his feet.Everything was in pieces in front of him ... Even when Ran was already gone and the crowd of onlookers slowly disappeared, he still stood there and looked there. He didn't get it. Something like that shouldn't have happened at all ...
How he got to the hospital after all was not only a mystery to him. There he met Kogoro and Eri, who of course had been notified by the clinic staff. He had expected accusations from her. However, only an oppressive silence fell over the three people, waiting in silence to finally find out from the doctors whether the emergency operation had been a success. Whether Ran would make it ... There was still hope that it wasn't that bad. Not as bad as he had to assume because of the horrific images in his head. He didn't let this little ray of hope be taken away. He clung to it - it was his thread. His only common thread. Minutes crept by and turned into hours. Although it must have been three o'clock in the morning by now, he didn't feel the slightest bit of tiredness.The adrenaline in his blood kept him awake so that he could keep looking at the little lamp over the operating room.
When it finally went out, he prayed inwardly that everything had gone well. Prayed, pleaded, hoped ... It was a brief moment before the doctors came out the door. One of the doctors went to the small group of visitors, the other doctors passed them blankly. "Are you Mr. and Mrs. Mori?", Always these formalities ... couldn't he just say what was going on? The two adults next to him just nodded. "And who are you," the doctor asked the boy next to the patient's parents. "I'm her boyfriend ..." Shinichi said weakly. "She was with me when she fell down the stairs ..." his voice failed. Only now did he realize why she had fallen down the stairs. // It's your fault ... // that thought made a big lump in his throat. He couldn't go any further. The doctor just nodded."I'm Doctor Shimai, the attending physician," the man paused. "We ... We really tried everything! But the head injuries were too severe. We had no chance. My condolences!" The red thread was broken - the young student detective fell into a bottomless black hole. With a slight dizziness, he staggered back a little until the wall stopped him. "No ..." he managed haltingly over his lips. "That can't be ...", he sank desperately down the wall. How could that have happened? How did he deserve it? It just couldn't and couldn't be true. // Please let me wake up and it was just a nightmare.
He hadn't slept all night. Meanwhile he sat quietly at home. The walls seemed to be crushing him, coming closer and closer to him. It was over and over. Getting married, children, your own detective agency - that was all gone. Disappeared, far away. He would no longer be able to catch up with these dreams, his future hopes.Only when the professor appeared next to him with Shiho did he wake up from his trance. "Are you okay?" Asked the 19-year-old woman who knelt down next to her. He didn't answer, just looked straight. "We're all worried about you. Ran's parents called us and said we should check on you!"
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Then not even the time will help you anymore.
The young student detective was awakened by the first rays of sunshine. It did not help. Time did not fill the void. He had learned that in the last six months. The six weeks of vacation here by the sea hadn't brought anything. While the others went on, his life had stopped after the incident. It went neither back nor forward. He had no more orientation and no more hopes for the future. Again and again he wondered why it had to come like this. Every night anew. During the day he tried to live as normally as possible.To suppress what has happened. Today it went back. Back to Tokyo, his friends and his home. In a few simple steps he had the few clothes he had taken with him stowed away in the suitcase. He left the hotel, on the way to an uncertain future ...
[i]The only thing left is "Why?".
The only thing left is "Why?".
The only thing left is "Why?"
~~~ END ~~~
Author's comment:It was really weird to write another Conan story. However, I noticed that it is much more difficult to write something about Conan again. Incredible. I don't know how to go on. Let's see what I write next. Everything can be a little. But it was really good to take a break from Conan.
Yep, that's it from me.
Thank you for reading!
Your
mausebein2
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Outside the restaurant, in the stairwell, they finally faced each other.Nobody was to be seen far and wide. He had to tell her something else. "Ran ... There is ..." he started, but was pleasantly interrupted by his girlfriend. She gently put her index finger over his mouth. He fell silent and looked at her in confusion. It wasn't until she straightened up to him that he knew what she was up to. Their faces grew closer and closer. After he closed his eyes, first their noses touched, then their lips ... At that moment, a small fireworks display exploded inside him. He had wished for nothing more ardently. For that moment he was the happiest man in the whole world. He was well aware of that. Nothing was sweeter than that kiss. Their first kiss, they were really together. Wished for so long and now finally it was. The sweet taste was quickly joined by something salty ... Ran had shed a few tears of joy full of happiness.
They slowly separated from each other, but were still hugging each other.Before he could say anything, however, his heartbeat had to calm down again. The noise in his ears clouded his senses and he wanted to be able to think clearly again. "I've waited so long for this!" She whispered in his ear. It wasn't exactly helpful what she was doing. But it made him very happy. "I still have to tell you something ..." he started and slowly released the hug. "What?", Ran looked at him happily but questioningly. He didn't know what to expect now. Not what was about to happen, however. "It's about Conan ..." he paused briefly. Ran was no longer beaming, just looked at him questioningly. "W-what about him?" She asked quietly. // He's in Europe with his parents. He left a good two weeks ago ... // she pounded in her head. Had something happened to him? Or why did Shinichi look so serious? She didn't understand. "Conan is ... He didn't go back to his 'parents'," Shinichi said softly but firmly.Not much was missing. Just one more little thing ... "W-why? What do you want to tell me, Shinichi?", She looked at her boyfriend, shaking her head. She didn't understand why he could ruin the whole mood all at once. "I think you have a right to know ...", he needed a short pause to take a last breath. After a strong breath he continued: "I was Conan Edogawa ... I was ..." ... // shriveled by a poison and had to go into hiding for the time being because the organization was trying to kill me // he finished his sentence in his mind. Because Ran's reaction to his words did not allow him to continue. "No ...", shaking her head, with a trembling voice she took a few steps back. "Let me explain it!", Shinichi took a few steps towards her. But she backed away further. "Why do you say that now? Do you have to break everything?", She just put her right foot back. However, this foot found no ground.For Shinichi Kudo, everything was going on in slow motion at that moment. Ran, who lost her balance and fell backwards ... Her bloodcurdling scream that seared into his memories ... How she slowly disappeared from his field of vision. He was firmly rooted, could not think clearly for the next few seconds. He was still looking at the place where he had last seen Ran ... "RAN!"
* ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *
"RRRRAAAAAANNNN", he finished his scream from the dream in bed. He sat horizontally in bed, trying to breathe calmly and hold back the tears. It happened again. "Ran ..." he whispered, like so often during the day. Half a year ... Night after night he was haunted by the memories that he tried to suppress during the day. He quickly fell back on the pillows. Vacation didn't help, distance from Tokyo didn't help. His friends had been wrong that things would get better here by the sea. He couldn't escape, the memories, the sadness and the despair.Of course, the feelings of guilt too. He'd accepted it now, but his friends didn't. They were still trying to make the old, cheerful Shinichi out of him. He wouldn't come any more. That Shinichi, the self-confident and popular detective, no longer existed. That part was gone with Ran….
When everything seems pointless,
life is your greatest enemy
then not even time will help you anymore.
Not even the time!
* ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *
The next few hours were only a mystery to the young detective. He had managed to go down the stairs, although people hurrying up tried to prevent him. He saw the pool of blood, heard people shouting back and forth ... The sirens of the arriving ambulance and the ambulance, as if in a trance, he followed the events. He couldn't intervene, as much as he wanted. Ran's image of her lying there in the pool of blood had frozen him. The ground had suddenly been pulled from under his feet.Everything was in pieces in front of him ... Even when Ran was already gone and the crowd of onlookers slowly disappeared, he still stood there and looked there. He didn't get it. Something like that shouldn't have happened at all ...
How he got to the hospital after all was not only a mystery to him. There he met Kogoro and Eri, who of course had been notified by the clinic staff. He had expected accusations from her. However, only an oppressive silence fell over the three people, waiting in silence to finally find out from the doctors whether the emergency operation had been a success. Whether Ran would make it ... There was still hope that it wasn't that bad. Not as bad as he had to assume because of the horrific images in his head. He didn't let this little ray of hope be taken away. He clung to it - it was his thread. His only common thread. Minutes crept by and turned into hours. Although it must have been three o'clock in the morning by now, he didn't feel the slightest bit of tiredness.The adrenaline in his blood kept him awake so that he could keep looking at the little lamp over the operating room.
When it finally went out, he prayed inwardly that everything had gone well. Prayed, pleaded, hoped ... It was a brief moment before the doctors came out the door. One of the doctors went to the small group of visitors, the other doctors passed them blankly. "Are you Mr. and Mrs. Mori?", Always these formalities ... couldn't he just say what was going on? The two adults next to him just nodded. "And who are you," the doctor asked the boy next to the patient's parents. "I'm her boyfriend ..." Shinichi said weakly. "She was with me when she fell down the stairs ..." his voice failed. Only now did he realize why she had fallen down the stairs. // It's your fault ... // that thought made a big lump in his throat. He couldn't go any further. The doctor just nodded."I'm Doctor Shimai, the attending physician," the man paused. "We ... We really tried everything! But the head injuries were too severe. We had no chance. My condolences!" The red thread was broken - the young student detective fell into a bottomless black hole. With a slight dizziness, he staggered back a little until the wall stopped him. "No ..." he managed haltingly over his lips. "That can't be ...", he sank desperately down the wall. How could that have happened? How did he deserve it? It just couldn't and couldn't be true. // Please let me wake up and it was just a nightmare.
He hadn't slept all night. Meanwhile he sat quietly at home. The walls seemed to be crushing him, coming closer and closer to him. It was over and over. Getting married, children, your own detective agency - that was all gone. Disappeared, far away. He would no longer be able to catch up with these dreams, his future hopes.Only when the professor appeared next to him with Shiho did he wake up from his trance. "Are you okay?" Asked the 19-year-old woman who knelt down next to her. He didn't answer, just looked straight. "We're all worried about you. Ran's parents called us and said we should check on you!"
* ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *. * ~ * ~ *
Then not even the time will help you anymore.
The young student detective was awakened by the first rays of sunshine. It did not help. Time did not fill the void. He had learned that in the last six months. The six weeks of vacation here by the sea hadn't brought anything. While the others went on, his life had stopped after the incident. It went neither back nor forward. He had no more orientation and no more hopes for the future. Again and again he wondered why it had to come like this. Every night anew. During the day he tried to live as normally as possible.To suppress what has happened. Today it went back. Back to Tokyo, his friends and his home. In a few simple steps he had the few clothes he had taken with him stowed away in the suitcase. He left the hotel, on the way to an uncertain future ...
[i]The only thing left is "Why?".
The only thing left is "Why?".
The only thing left is "Why?"
~~~ END ~~~
Author's comment:It was really weird to write another Conan story. However, I noticed that it is much more difficult to write something about Conan again. Incredible. I don't know how to go on. Let's see what I write next. Everything can be a little. But it was really good to take a break from Conan.
Yep, that's it from me.
Thank you for reading!
Your
mausebein2