'Forgive me'





I sit here and think of you.
I love you.
It hurts - everything, especially the heart.
Because I am not allowed to love you - you, my teacher.
I said that finally the soulful phase would have disappeared for you. But no...
Will i see you tomorrow Or ever again? Are you still at the same school next school year? Tell me! Hidden. Give me a hint and don't laugh at me. You're welcome...
Now as I write this for you - that you must never see it! - I calmed down a bit. Something. It'll start again soon. The pain. The hate. The grief. Alone. My self-hatred towards me, which however also hits you out of sadness, anger, and despair, arises. Forgive me You're welcome...!
Forgive me for being who I am. So ... useless! Forgive me because I love you. Unfortunately. Forgive me and my single tear that falls down my nose and settles on my lip.Forgive me
Forgive me, Marcus.



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Posted on July 19, 2006 at 23:03