Hey
I don't want to talk long, so just:
Have fun while reading!


So here I stand ... alone ... you left me ...
"This is how we want to commemorate Marc L. today. He left this world and went up in heaven ..."
I'm not even listening to the priest ... I don't even want to be here.
A funeral means saying goodbye forever ... and I can't ... I don't want to. I do not want to be alone!
Damn it, Marc! Why? Why did you leave me alone Why did not you say anything? Why did not you take me with you?
Tears well up in my eyes. The priest keeps talking.
".. and so we want to say goodbye ..."
No! I think and turn around. I just run away It's not proper, I know, but I just can't ...
The autumn wind whistles through my hair and the leaves crackle under my feet as I walk through the lonely cemetery. Away ... far from your grave ...
The tears flow from the corner of my eye, mingling with the rain ... rain?I didn't even notice that it was raining ...
But I don't care either ... I don't care! Everything but you!
You are the only one who was really important to me besides my family and what do you do? You just go! Leave me alone!
Pain, sadness, despair ... you left that to me ... nothing more ...
I slow down until I finally stop completely. I sink to my knees and wrap my arms around my body ...
My body is shaking from the cold ... Now my body is cold ... My soul has been cold since your heart stopped beating ...
If only I could see you smile one more time ... Just one more time ...
Then I would get warm again ... Every time your smile lit my soul. My heart got really warm every time ...
Oh how much I loved your smile ...
Please, Marc, come back! Come back and smile one more time for me ...
"Please," I whisper quietly ...
The tears keep growing.It's like a dam has broken in me ...
"Marc ... Marc ... Marc ...", your name keeps coming silently from my lips until I scream it out of me ... "Marc !!!"
I break down crying. I just can't stop ...
I hear steps ... the funeral must be over and now those present come to me ... the steps fall silent ... instead I feel many glances on me ...
I do not care! Let them watch! Let them think what they want! I do not care!
I keep crying, just ignoring the looks ... Those looks that are full of pity ... Oh how it pisses me off!
I would love to get up and scream ... scream at them, scream out my frustration! But I can't ... I'm too weak ...
A part of me has gone to you ... I am no longer me ... only with you I was really me ... everyone else only knew a facade ... a facade that only you brought down. ..
What should I do now without you?Damn it, Marc! Please come back! Do not leave me alone! You're welcome...
I flinch, feel a hand on my shoulder ...
I don't want to and still I lift my head because the warmth of this hand, cold as it may be, sounds familiar ...
I look into the sad, dark eyes of your little brother.
"Sue, you don't have to cry. Mom said Marc is always in here," he points to his heart. "And he's inside with you too," now he points to my heart and smiles. His smile reminds me of you ...
Surprised, I follow his hand with my eyes. Oh yes, I'm really a bit surprised, but then I have to smile ... it's not big, but still honest ... yes, your brother made me smile again ...
"Yes, you are right. I completely forgot that .... come on, let's go," I get up and take his hand. I look up to the sky ... It has stopped raining ... the sky has stopped crying ...
The sad, dark clouds give way to the warm rays of the sun ...And at that moment something became clear ... your body is now underground, I can no longer see it, no longer hear it speak, no longer feel it ... but your soul, that what makes you the most is always with me ...
I close my eyes and see your picture again in front of me ... your smile, which has comforted me again and again, and also comforts me now ...



Tadaa !!
And something new again! ^^
But it's already a few weeks old, just didn't feel like moving from one PC (without Internet) to the other PC (with Internet) ^^
I hope you enjoyed it anyway.

On the continuation of "How could I ...":
... yeah, I'll be honest, at first I regretted even asking if anyone wanted a sequel ... but now I have a good idea what to write. I'll make a whole new FF out of it, but that will take a while!
But it is coming! Promised!
Only now I want to finish my D.Conan-FF and my Inu Yasha-FF first.So please be patient!

Well, see you soon!
LG
Brie

PS: And thank you very much for all of your clerks !!!! * every once in a while *
But I still hope that there are still some to come! ;-P