Chapter 1: Sorrow
Even the girl whom the black-haired young man thought of so often had not yet forgotten him.
Every place she was, every person, every smell and every moment triggered a memory of HIM in her.
The academy they had both attended was always full of signs and references to him, in the city she thought she saw his face everywhere, and here too, in the park, she had to think of him.
This was where he left her.
It was a place she avoided, and she swallowed hard at the mere thought of what secret it was holding.
She stopped.
Then why did she come back here today of all times?
Her gaze slid over the lake that lay in front of her.
Slowly she dropped to her knees and dipped her fingers into the ice-cold water.
It was so clear that you could see to the bottom.
Her eyes rested sadly on a lonely flower.
She was still in bloom, but stood locked at her feet.It was a black night flower, one the young woman did not recognize.
Slowly she ran her fingers along the flower.
° I was just like this plant back then, ° she thought.
° A girl who was as inconspicuous as hardly any other.
Nothing differentiated me from all the other people in this world
I was just like a shadow that followed Sasuke and Naruto everywhere.
Sasuke ...
Sometimes I regret so much for really letting you go that I hate myself for it!
Just because I lived so weak and adjusted, I couldn't stop you.
And now you have really come to me, after all the time that I have mourned for you, in which I have cried and in which I have locked my love for you in the farthest corner of my heart so that I can forget you.
But I just can't do it.
How I would love to get involved with you again, would love you ...
But the time for that has long passed.We had our chance and didn't take it.
It torments me to know that even though I cannot accept it.
You begged me to come back to you.
You even swore by your life that you loved me!
WHY CAN'T I JUST PUT YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN?
When I see you, the sight of you fills me with joy and warmth.
Only your closeness lets me become what I once was again.
A girl with dreams, a love and longings and ...
Yes, and with a future.
But this future has gone with you.
I just don't understand anything anymore.
I still love you, but I try to ignore it and at the same time I long for you while I hate you.
I just do not know how to go on!
Day after day I wonder if I shouldn't just run, run until I reach the end of the world.
Maybe there is a world somewhere in which we can be together without any problems. °
When the girl let go of the night flower, she slumped."Was that it already?", The pink-haired woman spoke more to herself.
"What was it?" Someone asked behind her.
The girl spun around and looked straight into two dark eyes.
"Run!"
Run looked at her seriously.
His expression relaxed again as soon as he looked into the young woman's face.
"Sakura, you're not thinking about your upcoming mission again!"
It was the excuse she'd given him so he wouldn't see what was really bothering her.
"Yes," muttered himself after a while.
Run sighed.
"You shouldn't," said the blond Anbu leader quietly and quickly came closer to hers with his face.
When he kissed her gently, Sakura stiffened.
Why does he have to do this? she asked herself in her mind.
She closed her eyes in anguish, which Run misinterpreted.
"That's right, Sakura, relax!" He breathed and pulled her into a hug.
She didn't move.
Everything was spinning in her head.She felt like a traitor.
And at the same time she tried to convince herself that she had a right to love men other than HIM.
But she didn't love him.
Tears welled up in her eyes.
Sakura tried to move, but couldn't.
Again she overwhelmed her pain.
Darkness covered her mind.
As she slumped in Run's arms, she passed out.