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Why are you doing this?
I thought you loved me.
Or why do you always watch me?
Why?
Can you tell me that?
I do not ask for more of you just an answer to these questions.
I just do not understand.
I developed feelings for you too.
Even though I swore to myself that I would never sink that deep and run after a boy, I cry now.
Fine.
Because of a boy.
Because of a perfectly normal boy.
No.
You're not normal.
Not like the other boys.
Is that why i love you because you are different
Because you are ... unique?
I dont know.
I just know that I love you
But this love will likely remain unrequited forever.And no matter how stupid I thought I had a chance with you.
But I didn't have that.
I will never have.
But I couldn't have known that.
I make myself pretty.
Put on makeup even though I hate this stuff.
I make myself pretty every day.
I always try to get your attention.
I always scream in class so that you notice me.
I always look at you.
I always want to be near you.
I'm even always in the smoking area to be with you.
Though I can't stand that smell of cigarettes.
I do not care.
The main thing is that I am with you.
Also today you stood at the smoking corner
But you weren't alone.
There is someone with you.
I think nothing of it and turn back to my friends.
But then.
I see it.
Do my eyes water me?
No.
My friends try to keep me from looking at you.
They tell me you left already
But I don't listen to them.I look to you anyway.
But now I wish I had listened to my girlfriends.
I do not wish to have looked at you.
I don't wanna see
There you stand
In your arms this girl
You give her a kiss.
A long kiss.
Tears well up in my eyes.
I fall on my knees.
My friends try to comfort me.
They say that you are not worth forgetting about tears for you.
I know you are right.
But I just can't stop crying
I just can not.
Just keep watching yourselves.
How you kiss her
I look at you and cry bitter tears.
You finally break away from her.
You look at her and smile.
With your sweet warm smile.
You take your eyes off her.
You look my way.
You see me.
Your smile disappears in a flash.
You come running towards me.
You kneel down to me.
You ask me what I have
Why i cry
I do not answer.
I just look at the place you just stood on with this girl.You take me to the am.
Try to comfort me
I just let it happen.
My head is empty.
Broke my heart
You keep talking to me.
I do not understand what you're saying.
I don't notice anything anymore.
The shock is too big.
But after a few minutes I caught myself again.
I can tell that I'm in your arms
Now I hear what you say too.
I should stop crying.
You ask me again why I'm crying
You ask who did that to me.
I'm pushing you away from me
Stand up.
Run away.
I don't want to answer your questions.
I can't say that I'm crying because of you.
Because you kissed this girl.
What would you think of me then?
You would laugh at me
I dont want that.
I can still hear you calling after me.
I should stop.
You call my name
But I don't want to be with you
I can not.
I just run away
Just go straight ahead.
My vision is blurred with tears.I can not see anything.
But I do not care.
I just keep running anyway.
I feel you chasing me
Calling my name over and over again
But I don't even think about stopping.
I just keep running.
But then.
I stop.
I hear you shouting something to me.
Go away.
Watch out.
I do not know what you mean.
I look at you with a tearful look.
You come running towards me.
Keep screaming that I should get away from there.
Then I hear it.
Now I know where I am
I look to the side.
But ... too late.
I am hit by the car.
I feel like hell all over my body.
I'm sure I'll be thrown a few meters through the air.
I feel a hard impact.
I see everything blurred.
Still, I try to see something.
Look around me.
I'm lying on the street.
It's all full of blood.
My blood.
A few meters in front of me is a car with a capped windshield.
A man comes running towards me.Probably the driver of the car.
I can't see any more.
I'm getting tired.
My eyes close
But then I hear your voice.
How she calls my name
I slowly open my eyes again.
I see you running towards me.
You fall on your knees next to me.
Lift me up on your lap
I can't believe what I see
You cry.
Is it about me?
You say my name in a tearful voice.
Say not to give up
Shouldn't leave you alone.
I see you in your beautiful brown eyes.
You are filled with tears.
I raise my hand
Wipe away your tears.
Tell yourself to please stop crying.
I know these will be my last minutes in the world.
A miracle has to happen for me to survive.
But miracles do not exist.
I know that now.
And I don't want the last to see you cry
I want to keep your beautiful smile in memory.
The beautiful smile that I fell in love with.I slowly shake my head.
Tell yourself to please stop crying.
That I can't stand it.
That you shouldn't cry, please.
Not about me.
You just look at me
Don't say anything.
Just keep crying.
My hand is still on your cheek.
I'm starting to cry again.
We look at each other.
Say nothing.
Just look each other in the eye.
There is silence.
All you can hear is the sobbing of my friends who have come along.
I don't know how long we've been looking at each other like that.
But I feel my life slowly coming to an end
But I don't want to die.
Not yet.
Before that I have to get rid of something.
I smile at you
Then I open my mouth to tell you something.
Something I should have told you much earlier
That i love you
More tears run down my cheeks.
So that's how it should end.
My life.
But I don't want to live anymore either way.
The pain deep in my heart is too great.
If I hadn't been hit by this carI would probably have taken my own life.
I'm not afraid of the dead.
Somehow I'm even happy.
Because there is nothing to live for anymore.
I don't know my parents.
I grew up in a home.
Then I went to a foster family with my brother.
They hit us.
My foster father raped me.
Night for night.
My foster mother did nothing about it.
Instead, she just hit me and my brother.
I actually wanted to take my life back then.
But I didn't want to leave my brother alone.
He was older than me, but I couldn't bring myself to leave him alone.
I was the only person he still had.
But I couldn't and didn't want to stay with these people.
Me and my brother ran away.
We came here.
Lived together.
Although our life was difficult.
We gave each other courage to go on living.
But my brother died a year ago.
I wanted to go after him.But then I saw you
I fell in love with you.
Drew new strength from yourself to live on.
You're the reason I'm not dead long ago
I wanted to go on living for you.
Because I made myself hopeful.
Hopes that I could win you over
But it looks like the hope was in vain.
Now I'm taking her with me to the grave.
I look into your beautiful eyes one last time.
Now I want to leave this world.
You now know about my feelings for you.
But you don't answer.
But that's not bad.
I didn't expect you to do that.
I feel weak.
Slowly took my hand off your cheek again.
Let them sink.
My eyes are slowly closing again.
You shake me gently
Scream my name
Screams that I shouldn't leave you alone because ...
Do you mean that seriously?
Was that the truth?
I gather all my strength and open my eyes again.
I wanna look in your eyesRead in it whether it was the truth or a lie.
I would not have expected this.
You told the truth
You love Me.
But who was this girl?
And why did you kiss her?
I've been asking myself these questions all the time.
And now I've finally said it.
Your answer surprises me.
You say it's your girlfriend
But you don't love her.
You've wanted to break up with her for a long time.
To me.
That's why you always looked at me like that.
Because you love me.
More tears run down my cheeks.
You also say that I shouldn't leave you alone because of that.
Now that I know the truth
How I would like to grant you this wish now.
But it doesn't work.
Unfortunately.
You apologize
For having to see you kiss this girl
For that I'm lying here now.
You now wish to lie here in my place.
So that you can take my pain away from me.
I put a finger on your lips.You shouldn't keep talking.
More tears run down my cheeks.
You're telling me again not to leave you alone
I ask you if you can do me one last favor.
You nod
I ask if you can give me one last kiss.
Because I want to take a beautiful memory with me.
You bend down to me
Your lips are slowly touching mine.
It feels so incredibly beautiful.
I've always wanted that.
But that this wish is so fulfilled for me.
In this situation.
I would not have thought that.
Slowly you break away from me again.
I smile at you
You smile too.
Oh how much I love that smile.
I breathe a quiet thank you.
I hope you heard
I'm getting weak again.
My time has come.
But now I don't want it anymore.
I want to go on living.
Stay with you.
But it's too late.
We found out about our feelings much too late.
At least I have a little consolation.I take a nice memory with me.
Namely the memory of you.
My eyes are slowly closing again.
But now…
…forever…

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