might like this girl too - he was mine. I left, told him the last thing I thought about and that I would wait for the day when we could die together because here in this world there was no future for us.

The next time I saw him, he rescued me from a giant and Naraku-controlled soul catcher. I underestimated the guy, made a mistake, yes. My plan to send him later together with the Shikon no Tama into the afterlife was more difficult than I imagined, but now there was no turning back. Me and Inuyasha talked for a long time, but I couldn't let him get near me, didn't want to. He said I am his when his life is mine.I was shocked at that, but it was true. I tried to cover up my feelings, explained Naraku's behavior towards me - that his human heart loved me. It bothered him, it bothered him immensely and that is exactly what I wanted to achieve. Inuyasha didn't let that keep her at bay, as I had actually intended. No, he even grabbed me, wanted to protect me and forced me to. After a short loving hug, I held a dagger to his neck to make it clear that I did not want such contact yet. He was shocked, but I wasn't serious at all. I just had to do my job before we could die together and for that I needed my strength and he made me weak because I loved him. I couldn't give in to him here and would rather wait for the day we died. Then I left, leaving him alone, we would meet again.

Yes, Tsubaki had apparently been right earlier, love made a miko weak.No not all. I remember the youkai who felt the sacred energies of me and Kagome and locked us in his cave. Her powers did not weaken in this micro trap, she did not even become tired or exhausted. Kagome was really special, just like me, just different. At first I was wondering how she behaved, but then I realized that it had to be because of her era. I didn't know anything about her time, but as happily as she walked through the landscape, I could imagine that it was more beautiful than here. Well, for sure, because here and now they were in a time of civil war and aggressive youkais. It took me a long time to realize it, but her strength was even in love and didn't let her weaken as a result, as it was generally the case with Mikos. If she had my education, she would probably outdo me, but she didn't have it. It wouldn't have bothered me, we were a coin, from two pretty different sides.Yes, even if I was jealous, from then on I even allowed her the time with Inuyasha, because I was sure that she could never be with him forever. It came from another time and at some point it would separate Kagome and Inuyasha. But I didn't belong here any more than she did, because I was undead and could only find my happiness with him in the afterlife. But that didn't bother me, because for that we would be together forever, forever.

Many days passed and Naraku became more and more powerful and insidious. He did a lot more than I would ever have thought. But I hadn't underestimated his powers, no, but those of the Shikon no Kakera when they were in the wrong hands. Still, it was a mistake and I couldn't help but wonder if this was my only one. I looked at my life one day, or rather my two, and doubts came over me. Inuyasha might have killed Naraku long ago if I hadn't interfered at first.But was this misstep just a drop in the ocean or did I stumble a lot more often? I didn't know and there was only one thing I was sure of not having the slightest concern, and that was the fact that I loved Inuyasha. Well, whatever I did wrong or not wrong before, I had to correct the mistake with Naraku. I would have to do a lot for it, even if it didn't always please everyone. Some would understand my actions, others wouldn't, but I didn't have to care ... but I didn't. I was just like everyone else and so I didn't always do everything right. But it was clear to me that most of them didn't see me as normal, let alone as a person. For some I was a walking corpse and for others the holy Miko. I should have been more perfect with the latter and I even blamed myself that it wasn't me. But the truth is that I also had my strengths and weaknesses.Whatever. I couldn't change anything about my mistake or mistakes and I couldn't conjure myself up more perfectly either. I was just glad that Inuyasha always forgave me and that made me happy; that and the knowledge that I would always have a place in his heart, no matter what ...