Now I'm lying here again. Where it all started. And there, where everything will come to an end. I can not change it. Because it was my wish. In the end I will still fulfill it. Since you left I have wished for nothing more than that. Because this pain is unbearable now. It burns me up inside and I can't stop this fire. It takes its course, I watch and do nothing. That also proves that I am weak and I will always be. From the beginning I was weak and no matter how often I trained, how often I broke down from it because I went beyond my limits, I will always be. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to prove to you that I can protect you too, that I can be just as strong as you. And I didn't keep my promise that I made to myself. I am just as weak as before. And that's just because I feel feelings.Feelings ... they can be so beautiful and in the next moment they destroy everything. You ruined my whole life! And if I leave now, if I leave this feeling drowned life, no one would miss me. That's why I made that decision. I don't want to anymore and I can't anymore. I'm at the end. My tears have long since run dry. You have always accompanied me even when everyone has left. And in the end they left me too. But should I hate her for that?
No, you can't help it. It is all my fault. And yet you always said it wasn't my fault. But you lied to me, I can feel it. Because I have eyes too, I'm not blind yet. And this pain, this guilt that I carry within me is slowly killing me. Your love that you feel for me robs me of my air to breathe. But you do not notice that. You can't help it that I was so stupid. It is not your fault that I am now back where I started.But this time with a broken heart.
I've been lying here for ages, but that can only be a few seconds. Here in this empty room. Where all the pain started The old academy building that has been empty for a long time. Just as abandoned as I am. Left in the lurch. Just used by everyone and then finally thrown away. Used up. Useless.
A cold wind blows through the hollowed-out empty windows. Delivered without protection from the cold. The cold is spreading in the academy room where Team7 was previously designated. Maybe everything would have changed if I hadn't gotten into a team with you and trtozdem, even if I thought after you finally betrayed me to Orochimaru I wouldn't love you anymore. But my heart longs for you so much. Just a thought of your face releases a new pain in me.
The cold wind blows my, meanwhile long, pink hair to the side. I should be freezing now.It's a dark winter night and I'm just sitting on the cold stone floor in a long white dress.
Next to me is a kunai. The kunai that I took with me when we last met. Your Kunai, Sasuke.
I slowly pick it up. Nobody will ever miss me. Nobody will ever ask about me and no one will ever get an answer. I will be silent forever.
I take the cold kunai and put the sharp blade on my right hand, just above the aorta, the main artery. Like a knife, the blade cuts through my skin and ultimately my vein. Red, warm blood rushes down my arm. The pain should come, but I don't feel anything. I repeat the same thing on the left vein as well. I don't feel anything. Painless pain. I feel how slowly life is leaving me. I lean against the cold stone wall. Nobody will find me, nobody will ever care.
My vision blurs, the candle next to me slowly goes out, just like my spirits.I want to close my eyes because I hear several people screaming my name. But I don't want to hear you, or is it the angels who call me softly. I slowly close my heavy eyes. I hear steps, they come closer and closer, faster and faster. I don't want anyone to find me! At least I want to be alone when I die. My eyes are still closed until someone is so close that I can hear every breath. I don't want to hear it though! I just don't want to anymore. I will be very happy to receive my death. My name is called, I also notice how several people are standing over me. But I don't want to see you, you left me alone in the hardest time of my life. So don't just come when it's over.
"Sakura !!! Open your damn eyes !!!" I know that voice, no, that can't be true! It's a bloody trick. But why does it sound so real then?
With difficulty I open my eyes and look into two black eyes, they are even blacker than every winter night. Sasuke?It can't be, can it? I look up. There I see Naruto looking at my face in horror. He calls my name and cries just for me. But I don't want that. If you've always left me, why are you here now? What's the point if you call my name? You all know my name, stop that !! You shouldn't help me, no, leave me alone! I shut my eyes. I don't want to be here anymore when you realize that you love me. I'll see, but from a different place. From a different angle.
"Sakura. I ... I love you." I open my eyes. That can't be true, can it? Now that I'm disappearing from this world, do you start to love me? But if so? My mouth opens slowly: "I ... love ... you too. Forever ... always ......" A tear ran down my cheek. I closed my eyes. That was the last thing I should see. Your tearful look. Your beautiful face.Another tear made its way down my cheek. You have accompanied me every time. And now in these last few seconds they will be with me too. I trust them. You will never let me down. I could still feel how Sasuke took my right hand and Naruto my left hand. Before I finally stepped over into the white light, I feel how suddenly all the pain disappears from me. I was finally able to let go. After that I only felt my body become light. That was when I stepped into another world.


i ~ * ~ On the tombstone of Sakura ~ * ~
An ultimately fulfilled love
Still, death had shown no mercy
Two loving hearts
they will overcome death too
Even if you are no longer with us
you always stay in our hearts
In infinite love
your family, Sasuke Uchiha, Naruto Uzumaki
Relatives and friends / i

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I don't say much about it, I just hope you enjoyed it, even if it was a bit sad.LG, your July