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Leave me a couple of clerks when you're already there!
So what are you actually staying up here for so long ??? Finally start reading !!! ^. ~
See you,
Hoshi-Zora !!!


I am sitting alone in the small hut on the outskirts of the village of Musashi. I am holding a small bound book, a photo album, in my hand. At that time I decided to live by your side and now that I look at our wedding pictures, I don't regret it in the least. They are very beautiful photos: both traditional and solemn, as well as cheerful and peaceful. Five years have passed since that day in which I have not doubted us for a day. But there is something else that wakes me up some nights and makes me wander outside on warm summer nights, even crying at the beginning. Then when you find me and ask what I have, I ask myself: maybe I feel guilty?I never told you about that night. It was shortly after I made up my mind about our future together. I had argued with you again about Kikyo. You met her again shortly after you confessed your love to me. I was injured and jumped into the well without letting you explain, as I have so often before ... But this time I knew that I would definitely return. I also had to say goodbye to my friends. They invited me to our annual masked ball. It should be a nice evening ...

We sat at a small table in our beautiful clothes and masks, laughed a lot and drank a lot; until I was asked to dance and consented. The young man I danced with was silent, but I could see under his mask how he smiled and his eyes glared at me. I was soon exhausted from all the laughing and dancing.So I apologized without exchanging a word with him. He took my hand and touched it gently with my lips as he indicated a bow. I gave him an embarrassed smile and went back to my friends. We joked a lot and drank a lot until the dancing lights, the stifling air and the wine rose to my head. Unnoticed, as I thought, I crept into the cool garden. I breathed in the soothing and fragrant summer air and looked around. The garden was very large and splendid: large trees with spreading branches stood between all kinds of plants. A small stream that flowed under a garden bridge gave the garden its voice and a gravel path led along it invited to take a leisurely stroll. The garden was only illuminated in the front part, so that I could not assess its size, which was difficult for me anyway because of the wine.
“So I'll meet you again, masked beauty.” I winced slightly at the voice, thinking I was alone.But now I also heard his steps, which came to a stop behind me. I could have just left, but for the time being I got involved in the game. “Well, when I'm masked,” I said, turning around, “how do you know if I really am that beauty you are talking about?” It all struck me as strange, like in a dream. But - was it a good or a bad dream?
He raised a hand and put it on my cheek, on the mask. "I can only guess!" He breathed. I closed my eyes for a moment and enjoyed the wonderful atmosphere. When I opened it again, he offered me his arm. I hesitated for a moment, but then gave myself up and we went for a walk through the garden, deeper and deeper into the black night.
After a while I discovered a bench by the stream and sat down. When I looked around, I could not make out my strange companion in the dark and wanted to go back when he was again in front of me.He handed me a rose. “I can't see this flower in the dark and yet I know it's beautiful. It's dark, don't you want to take off your mask?” He had probably already taken off his mask because I could hear his voice more clearly. So I did the same and felt relieved the cool evening air on my heated face. I smelled the rose: fragrant, like the rest of the garden. I felt the stranger looking at me in the dark. “Don't you want to sit down?” Instead of answering, he walked slowly around the bench and stood behind me. I started to shiver. Was I cold or ... “Are you afraid?” The wine had made me bolder - or foolish! But slowly its effect was wearing off and I hoped it wasn't a mistake to go with him. I got up slowly and held the rose tightly like a kind of sword. I took a few steps away from the bench until I felt two arms close around me from behind and I was gently pulled behind me.Before I even tried to defend myself, I heard his warm voice in my ear again. “You don't need to fear, I will protect you. Nobody will harm you!” I don't know why, but I believed him. I relaxed a little and soon I felt his soft lips on my neck, then on my shoulder. Part of me gave in to the action, sighing with satisfaction. But the rest of me screamed with indignation and anger - scolded me! Again and again I saw you in front of me, how your golden eyes looked at me sad and disappointed, while I closed mine, from which tears were now emerging. But then I saw another picture in front of me: I saw you and ... Kikyo! How many times have I seen you make her promise and even kiss her ?! Suddenly the scream died in me to a hoarse whimper and I turned defiantly. I looked briefly at my counterpart and was immediately greeted by his passionate kisses.I don't know how long we stood out there in the dark, but when we broke apart and I looked up into the moonless sky, the whimpering rose again to a plaintive scream. New moon - wasn't it a sad irony that you were most vulnerable that night? I took a step back, then another. I wept bitter tears, gazing silently at the sky. So many times you've hurt me and broken my heart more than once, and yet I stayed with you so my scars could heal. And now I had hurt myself for betraying us. You would never know, but I punished myself with a lie for life. How stupid I was! How weak that in a moment of loneliness I gave in to the sadness in my heart!
I dropped the rose and ran as fast as I could back to the colorful lights of the festival. To the world in which people hid their lies and secrets with masks, just as I hid my tears now.A month later I was sitting with you under our Goshinboku, where we met for the first time. You put a flower in my hair - it was a rose - and a ring on my finger. I cried and promised you my eternal love and loyalty ...

The door opens and I am torn from my thoughts. "Kagome, are you coming out? Miroku and Sango are there and Shippo has already finished eating with Kaede! There's ramen!" I look at you confused for a moment, then I smile. Ramen ... that will probably never change. It was the first dish I cooked for you at the beginning of our trip. “Of course.” I put the book aside and want to get up. “Wait, I'll help you!” You pull me up carefully and look me up and down, hanging on my stomach. I stroke this one and smile again. "Soon, Inuyasha! Come on now, otherwise the two of us will starve!" He nods and walks ahead. I follow him. "It remains our secret!" I whisper and rub my stomach again.