noticed how angry I was. If I tried to be honest with him, he could at least have the decency to show me the same respect.
I cleared it up asap and closed the dialog box, and now I was even more sure:
He is the last!

A week went by and I have to say that I really had no more heartache. I didn't shed another tear and I didn't have any bad feelings about the whole thing either. I didn't care much about him.
I sat on the bus on the way home and stared out the window. I used to think of him mostly at this point, figuring out how beautiful it could be and how uncomplicated. I no longer gave in to this illusion. Ticked off was ticked off. I took my MP3 player out of my pocket, put the plugs in my ear and hit "random play". The music only made the bus ride more relaxing and closed my eyes for a while.I had given myself completely to the sounds and the voices, both the guitar solos and the sometimes weird voices of my favorite rock group supported my well-being. After 3 songs, however, I was spellbound.
"Can't distract me again
everything revolves around you
I lie here and count the days
how many are still to come? I dont know.
What have you done with me?
Why are you doing this to me?
What else should I change?
I'm just getting back to you.
I want to get away from here
but it doesn't seem to matter where I'm going ..
that doesn't stop with you,
tell me when does this stop .. "
I had to swallow. All of a sudden and without any warning, tears came to my eyes.
"And I fight my way through the night, have no idea what you're doing to me, I can't get you out of mine
Head and I have to (..) "
Another lump in my throat. I got goosebumps and the world in front of me slowly blurred under my tears.I wished that the song could be turned off, but I couldn't. I was sitting on the bus and the first drop ran down my face. I quickly wiped this away and tried to calm down. But no matter how much I wanted it, I couldn't stop the song.
"All of my wishes
I used up on you
I can't believe it myself
because only I get out of there
it's hard to get it
but somehow it will work
everything would change if I didn't see you again. "
Every word and every syllable hit me, because that was exactly what I had tried to suppress and initially successfully. The song was like a mirror, yes Silbermond held a mirror in front of my face and it exactly matched the original. A few years ago when the song came out, I didn't realize how beautiful it was. I didn't even really understand the content as I had never listened. But now I lived this piece and I would have liked to have pushed it away from me a little.