A new FF !!! It's about Sakura ... (as already mentioned in the short description)
I hope you enjoy reading ^. // (this should be Deidara ^. ^ *)

I am walking alone in the village. The rain is pounding on my clothes, my hands are soaked. The village is protected by a slightly foggy layer so that you can only see a few meters in front of you. A lot is going on in my mind. Like three years ago, it was the worst day of my life. On the other hand, a nice day.

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Three years ago

I look out the window like every morning when I wake up and I knew something was going to happen today. I get dressed and run out of the house to the training ground. When I arrived nobody was there. // Funny, otherwise Naruto and Sasuke are always there too early ?? // Suddenly I hear the bell ringing, a signal that something has happened. //I knew it!! // Immediately I hurry to the tsunade-sama. Once there, my breath catches me.Sasuke is lying in a meadow where we have all gathered. A mark on his hands indicates that he presumably fought his brother. Immediately I run to him, fall on my knees and take him in my arms. His last spark of life had long been extinguished because he was cold and rigor mortis had already set in. Tears run from my eyes. Nobody can stop them. "Sakura-chan, come let him. You should get out of here!" Says Tsunade-sama in her calm voice. But I didn't hear her because my world collapsed. The same thought over and over again: // I don't want to anymore, let me die !!! // Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder. It is the hand of Kakashi-sensai. He pulls me away from Sasuke, I defend myself, but he's stronger. Now I'm back on my feet, but it shouldn't be like this for long. I got sick, everything spins until I fall over. The last thing I noticed was someone stopping me before I fell to the ground.Slowly my eyes open, a white light shines towards me that burns very much in my eyes. Reluctantly, I now open my eyes completely. I look around immediately. // I'm probably in the hospital, it looks like. Hey, there ... / My eyes widen. Next to my bed, Kakashi-sensai sleeps on a chair. He wakes up too. "Oh, morning Sakura-chan. How long have you been up? How are you?" He asked in a worried voice. I couldn't help but chuckle. "I'm fine Kakashi-sensai, I just woke up !! I'm in the hospital, right? And since when have I been lying here and why?" I ask back. "Yes, you are in the hospital. Hmm .. you've been lying here for about three weeks. You broke down! And .." he says with a sad look and I don't let him continue. "You know, Kakashi-sensai, I had a terrible dream. The alarm was raised and Sasuke was then lying in a grass and he ... he was dead ... and ... they got me ...", I say quickly without breathing and with tears in the eyes.The Jo-nin touches me with his hand on my cheek. Now I look at him with wide eyes. "Kaka ..." He puts a finger over my mouth. "It ... I'm sorry, but ... you ... you didn't dream that. It ... it ... it was real !!!", he says with a sad voice. // No ... // it screams into my head.

An hour later

My eyes are red They don't want to cry anymore, but they still do. All the pain goes away. But he will never leave me. I still feel embarrassed under the embrace of my Sensai. Why I don't do it against it, I don't know myself. I only know one thing, that I need someone now. And this is my Sensai, because at the moment I have the least use of Naruto. I then fall asleep in his arms, so that even my eyes had to stop crying.

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Yes, it is painful to remember the past, but you learn from mistakes, right? Naruto is now with Hinata. Yes they are together.Naruto finally noticed that Hinata loves her. Naruto has also become completely different, more confident, grown up, but still addicted to ramen. I could no longer suppress a small laugh because of these thoughts. Now the sun is coming out. The fog is forgiving and the blue sky appears. In these three years, I have found out a lot about life. For example what? I laugh inside. Well, I now know if I've really loved all along, but I didn't want it to be true. It's my Sensai, or rather Kakashi. I can't say Sensai anymore because he isn't anymore. He doesn't know anything about my feelings yet, but it's still to come. *Oh yes!!! * // Yes, and now stop annoying me all the time. But you also have a good side. Without you, I would not have made it through these three years. // * Thank you, I'm very honored !!! *
// Hehehe, you are very funny. // Now I see Kakashi across the street.I wave to him and run to him. "Hello Kakashi," I say with a happy laugh. "Hi Sakura-chan, how are you?" "I'm doing very well and you?" "Yes, me too. What are you going to do today?" Go to the fairground! Do you want to go? "No answer. // Did I say the wrong thing now? // "Yes, please", it comes from him after all. //So now. Sakura, take all your courage together !!! // "Ummm .. Kakashi I have something very important to tell you. I ... I .. uh ... I can't today because it just occurred to me that I still have to go somewhere." I tried to lie. But I know I'm not good at lying and Kakashi looked at me asking. "Well, you won. I ... I ... also wanted to tell you ... Uh, ask if you would pick me up ??, I ask quickly, alternately.
"Well, I'll pick you up from your home at 7 o'clock, or do you want to go with me now. You haven't been with me for a long time?", he asks without blushing. // Yes, yes, I want to. No, what do I say now ?? // * Just keep calm! *" Ummm ... I'm sorry, but then I have to go home to clean ... "I reply and put a sweet smile on my mouth.


Kakashi then fell silent. Nobody said anything until I broke my word. "Kakashi what I ..." I want to start talking, but he interrupts. "Sakura, I have to tell you something. It's very important to me!", He says in a calm but nervous tone, takes another deep breath. "I ... I ... well you ... you have always been my favorite student. I am very happy that I was allowed to train Team 7. During that time I got to know you all a lot better and we became friends. But there is someone there who that I haven't gotten out of my head lately. And ... and ... "" Who is it, Kakashi.
"Sakura, what am I going to keep you up to? Isn't it obvious ???Sakura it is you, you are that woman I can't get out of my head !!! You are that girl. "

I can still hear the words of my former sensei in my head.

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I look at him completely frozen and with my mouth open.
"Um ... I'm very sorry ... but ... but I ... I know you ... I love Sasuke ... and ..."
"I already know Sakura ..." he replies in a sad voice, then he just leaves without saying another word.
Now I'm standing alone, going home too.

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Now I'm lying in my bed. I could only cry just cry
* Why did I say that ??? Why didn't I just tell him the truth about what I feel for him ?? Now everything is over! "
Another tear runs down my cheek. I felt very guilty. Also because of when Sasuke died. If I had stopped him he would certainly not have died, but I'm just a weak little girl.I don't really deserve to live.
At some point I just fall asleep and I dream, dream about something that will happen very soon and that won't last long.

I wake up drenched in sweat. The sun is already high in the sky. I get up and look in the mirror. My eyes are red and puffy. Suddenly I remember last night. Kakashi confessed his love to me and I, fool, didn't tell or stop him. I make a decision and make my way to my Sensai. Today we have our day off, luckily. I stroll through the alleys and paths until I arrive at his house. Now I have to take all my courage to make it. I slowly go to his door and knock. I wait, but he doesn't open the door, knock again, but again nobody opens. After a while I decide to go again, but then the door opens and a sleepy man with gray hair looks out.I look into his eyes.
"Sa .. Sakura what are you doing here ???"
I want to reply something but no sound comes out of my mouth.
"Sakura ???"
"A ... Al ... Uh"
"Come on in."
I enter his house and he asks me to sit on a couch.
"Do you want something to drink?"
"Uh .. Yes, some tea, please."
I look sadly at the floor and am ashamed that I can't just tell him that I love him. He comes back with a cup of tea and coffee.
"How Much Sugar?"
"Ummm .. 2 pieces, please."
He puts the cup on the table in front of me.
I take the cup and take a small sip, he also takes a small sip of his coffee before he starts talking.
"What are you doing here, Sakura?"
"I .. I .. wanted to sort it out about yesterday."
I look him in the eye, but he just looked confused.
"What do you think??"
"Well, you .. well we talked to each other yesterday ... and there .."
"Sakura, we didn't talk to each other yesterday !!""But what we ... well we saw each other on the street and started talking. I asked you if you could go to the fair with me ..."
"Sakura, we certainly didn't meet yesterday because I was on a mission yesterday."
"But who else should I have talked to, I'm not paranoid !!!"
"But you really didn't talk to me. I only came back this morning."
Many thoughts are buzzing in my head.
I finish the tea quickly.
"Well then, I'll go again."
But Kakashi holds on to my wrist.
"Sakura, if there is something, tell me!"
"Yes, I will, Sensai"
I leave the house with a smile. But I still can't believe it. I did talk to him yesterday. I walk slowly through the forest. I just imagined it all. But no, that can't be! Lost in thought, I walk more and more into the forest without noticing that someone is following me.* So it wasn't him who said those words ... And I thought ... * I sob. I would love to die. * I finally thought someone could love me ... * Sadly, I look around and see two birds that are fondling around and are happy. A squirrel looking for nuts. // They all have it so nice, they are all so happy! // I come to a lake. I take off my shoes and socks and