So hello to my first KouKou xD
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I would like to tell you something, something about me ... and my brother, with whom I am finally together.
Maybe I should introduce myself first, my name is Kouichi and what I want to tell you now begins while I was in the hospital!

Even while I was still in the hospital, Koji got to know our mother and our father wanted to get to know his second son, which is why he came to visit me in the hospital every now and then.
My brother and friends also visited me almost every day and one of them already knew how I felt about my brother, Koji. This friend was Soe and even if you don't believe me, she was very understanding of my feelings about Koji.
Often when she was alone with me in the hospital, I howled at her, she listened to me, talked to me about it and didn't get weird to me at all, even if most of them would have been.
Then, two weeks later, I was finally let go, which I was very happy about. My friends and my brother had prepared a little surprise party for me, which I was very happy about.
It wasn't until that day that I became 100% sure I LOVED HIM.
Whenever I was a little closer to him, everything in me tingled, my legs became soft and shaky and I even started to stutter a little every now and then. As long as this of course happened, she went with me to the door to talk to me, "Kouichi it can't go any further ...", she finally began, "you notice it more and more! talk to him! ", I thought about it for a moment and finally answered her:" I know yes, but what if he doesn't love me? Or even worse, if it makes him disgusted with me?", I looked at her sadly and then Soe didn't know any more logical or appropriate answer.
Finally we went back inside and I tried to show as little as possible.
The evening actually passed relatively quickly. The first thing we did was say goodbye to Tommy, the youngest of us all.
Later on, JP, who wanted to have some of the food at home, also left, and in the end Soe and Takuya, who still wanted to go to the cinema, went to the cinema, of course I was thinking my part, because the two went very well together.
Our mother wasn't there either, she had been on a date for a long time, luckily she didn't know anything about my feelings towards Koji, because I don't know how she would have reacted.
Now only he was there, Koji, my brother and the boy I loved.
We cleaned everything up together, but I could hardly take my eyes off him. He ah just so innocent, sweet, just awesome. I longed for him because he was so close and yet so far, I could hardly bear it. I saw him, could talk to him, touch him, but only in a brotherly way.
Well, after about 40 minutes, we were done with cleaning up. It was now 9 p.m. and we decided to put in a film and then fall asleep.
So we went up to my room and looked through my DVD's, finally we decided on "Die hard 2", pulled my bed out to a double (or even marriage) bed, made it with two pillows and two Cover, comfortably, put the DVD on play and then finally lay down.
Of course he didn't mind that we slept together in one bed, after all he didn't know anything about my feelings towards him and anyway we were siblings or, even better, twins.
During the film, Koji soon fell asleep and I had to watch him all the time.
He looked so cute, he even smiled in his sleep, it almost looked like the smile was directed at me.After about an hour I turned off the TV, the film was over and I had to go to sleep. I turned in the other direction, but somehow sleeping didn't work out for me. I kept thinking that Koji was lying next to me.
At some point I turned back to him and looked at him the whole time. Later I even found out that our mother was coming home.
At some point it was already 6 o'clock, gradually it got lighter and while Koji was still asleep I got up and prepared breakfast.
Around 8 o'clock I was finished. I had boiled eggs, made coffee, bought fresh rolls and put all kinds of delicious things on the table.
While I was busy waking Koji, our mother woke up all by herself. They both got dressed and then quickly freshened up before they came into the kitchen for breakfast.
Then the three of us had breakfast and then I and Koji cleared the table while our mother started doing the dishes.
Now Koji said goodbye, "So I have to go again! I have an appointment!"
One last little hug, and then he was gone.
I was already thinking that our mother suspected something, because she made such a suggestion, "It's very difficult for you to let him go, isn't it?" My knees were already shaking slightly again, until she finally went on talking, " Don't worry, now you will be able to see each other every day! You will no longer lose him as a brother and actually you never had that either! ", She then turned to me briefly, but then continued to wash.
"Yes, of course!" I replied briefly, but then disappeared into my room.
I was still tidying up my room, but had no idea that I was going to learn something terrible today.Time passed very, very slowly, or so it seemed to me, until it was finally 12:27. It rang.
Since I wasn't expecting anyone, I let my mother open the door.
Suddenly I heard someone coming up the stairs to my room.
I thought about who it could be, but nobody thought of it, as Koji didn't want to be back until around 2 p.m.
My door opened and yet it was Koji. At first I was happy until I noticed that he wasn't alone.
He had a girl with him, even a pretty pretty one, and I got jealous very quickly.
"Hey Kouichi! May I introduce Lyra to you! We're together!", He told me and around me everything together, but I still tried to stay calm and react normally.
"Lyra, may I introduce you, Kouichi, my twin brother!", I had to hold back very hard to reach her, with a heavy heart, my hand.
The two then stayed about 30 minutes until they finally had to leave again, as Koji was called on the cell phone by our father.
So they said goodbye quickly and only shortly after they were out the door downstairs, the tears were already running down my face and I threw myself crying and sad on my bed.
I just didn't want my brother to have a girlfriend now, but it was. I just couldn't anymore, I was finished, because somehow I told myself at that moment that I would NEVER be with him again.
My tears didn't stop running down my face and I didn't even notice when Koji came back because he had forgotten his cell phone.
He sat down next to me on the bed and put a hand on my shoulder. I jumped up and turned around, "Koji !?", I just got out and wiped the tears from my face with lightning speed.
"What is wrong with you?" He asked me, sounding a little worried.I still didn't know what to answer him, I could butcher him, just at this moment, tell him that I loved him.
I sat up once and looked into his eyes, I just couldn't hide my sadness, but neither could I reveal my feelings to him now.
I faked him a lie and told him that I had fallen in love with a girl, had just called her and told me that she would not love me and that she now also had a boyfriend.
Well, in one respect it wasn't a lie, I was in love, but not with a girl who now has a boyfriend, but with Koji who was now with Lyra.
Suddenly Koji put an arm around me and pulled me closer to him, "Don't worry about it, okay? She's stupid if she doesn't want someone like you!", His comforting words did very well at that moment, so that I even finally sank down on his lap. I was even more pleased when I realized that he didn't mind that I lay down with him.
I enjoyed this brief moment.
It was really nice and then he stroked my back soothingly.
My tears passed quickly and my thoughts were only with Koji.
"Are you okay?", He asked me about 5 minutes later, whereupon I sat up again and nodded, "Yes, thank you Koji!", I just answered him at that moment and smiled at him.
"Why are you here anyway?" I asked him curiously afterwards.
"I forgot my cell phone!", He said, got up and went to my desk, "Here it is!", He looked over at me and I nodded briefly.
"Then I have to go down again, Lyra is still waiting for me downstairs! Can you handle it on your own now?" He looked at me slightly questioningly at that moment, but I just nodded again.
Then he said goodbye briefly and then hurried out.Now I was all again.
I looked out of the window and saw the two of them kissing and then walking away hand in hand.
I grabbed the phone and dialed Soe's number.
The doorbell rang and Soe picked it up.
I told her what had happened and asked her to come and see me.
She agreed and went on her way.
At around 2 p.m. she was there and we started talking.
"Maybe you should have told him the truth! What should he have said or done?", She looked at me rather questioningly.
"No!", I answered her at the end, "I can't! I mean, afterwards he would have thought that I wanted to press him or something!", Shortly after this sentence I lowered my head and thought about how I would like it to her should explain, "Besides, there is ... I mean, he comforted me so sweetly, he was so tender to me, I mean ...", at this point she interrupted me, "Okay, I understand you, yes, but think but once to Koji! You're lying to him at the moment, to the power of ten! "While I was thinking about it, I could only agree with her more and more," The truth is indeed a possibility and possibly a very good one, but I could do it to him just don't say at this moment! ", I looked at her slightly doubtfully.
"Sleep on it first, okay?", She put a hand on my shoulder, "Tomorrow, maybe everything will look very different!"
I agreed with her and sometime around 7 p.m. she finally left.
What I didn't know until then was that she was about to commit a big mistake.

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I hope you enjoyed it
if yes and also if no,
I would be very happy