minute, Yuri", Kaya interrupted me. "Tell me one thing at a time, okay? Where are you and you-" "Don't say!Don't say ... his name. Please don't tell him, Kaya, don't. Please don't speak it out, I- "
Cool fingers settled on my fisted, trembling hands. "The ... the shooting star is to blame that you hate me!" I yelled at my astonished sister. "The shooting star? You mean, a celestial body is to blame that Seich-" I winced, "Sorry that he hates you?" I nodded silently. “And why should he- uh hate you?” I didn't know that either! I just shrugged. I hesitated to give her a short summary of today's events. When I finally finished, Kaya gave me a sad, compassionate look. "Did ... he say that he hates you?"
I stared at her. Well, think about it ... I let my thinker forehead run free. She had said that he didn't want to see me again, that I should never speak to him again. Didn't it come out the same? I slowly shook my head. "No, but ... I don't know, you should have seen the way he looked at me! As if I wasn't worth his attention. And then those ice-cold eyes! He was never ..." I sobbed. She was never like his parents. But now ... Now everything was different. It was about a day and a half before I inevitably ran into him again. My hatred of school increased extremely. "What should I do if he really hates me?" I whispered. There was no other option either. Why else should you suddenly push away a long-time friend?
Kaya let out a breath. "I don't know, Yuri. I really don't know. It's not normal! I just can't explain what got into him. I always thought you would-" She broke off abruptly. I looked at my little sister in confusion. "We would what?" Suddenly she looked jittery and avoided my gaze. "Uh, well, I thought you'd be stuck together forever, hehe."If she couldn't do something, it was lying. We were really similar in that. But I didn't have the strength to dig any further. I just wanted to go to bed, wake up and celebrate my 16th birthday again. This time I wouldn't have one Made mistakes and there would have been no reason to erase me from his life. Whatever I had done, I would have undone it. But unfortunately I couldn't turn back time. I couldn't find out what I had done. Besides I couldn't just get you out of my head like that! Damn it, what could I do anyway ?!
"Kaya, I'll lie down, okay? When Mum and Dad come home, tell them I'm done from partying, okay? Tomorrow ... Tomorrow I'll be better." She knew as well as I that it would be next to me Day wouldn't go any better. And not the next but one either. But she nodded and dismissed me - for now. I knew very well that she still had a lot of questions, but she was so considerate and let me organize my thoughts first. I shuffled into my room, threw myself on the bed, and clutched the pillow. I pressed my face into it, howled and screamed. And screamed and howled ...

Monday. I hated Mondays. But I hated this one in particular. It was the first day that I was after our breakup - I had decided to call it that (even if only in my mind, I could safely do without stupid talk), because it hadn't been an "argument" and otherwise All weekend I couldn't think of a more fitting term - would see you again. Kaya had thrown me out of bed lovingly, followed me every step of the way so that I couldn't tower out of a window and possibly avoid this clash. When I was finished - later than usual - she took my hand and walked to school with me. That never actually happened because Kaya was very popular at our school and she usually met her friends to go to school with them.And I used to go with ... Be. He always picked me up from home. Not today. Well, so a bit of hope that everything was just a bad nightmare died again.
Now here I was. In front of the huge entrance gate that was open for us arriving students. The path that led to the building was concreted, but left and right there was a green meadow bristling with trees and flowers. A huge marble fountain decorated with angel sculptures on each side gave the area a more pleasant atmosphere. Just to keep this spacious garden in good condition with all the trimmings, five people were employed. The unbelievably high school fees paid by the parents had to go somewhere ... The school building itself was about the size of the White House - honestly! Kaya and I could only go to this school because our parents both worked full time and rarely paid for themselves. They really loved their children and wanted to give them the best possible education.
"Hey, brother. Don't stand there rooted to the ground, you have to go inside. From now on you have to manage on your own, but I'll stop by every break, yes? So then, be brave!" Kaya gave me a kiss on the forehead and then ran to her friends who were already waiting for her. Some screeched when they saw her bright green hair, but they were screams of appreciation because they surrounded my little sister and chattered wildly as they tousled through her hair. As they passed the entrance, Kaya turned back to me and held out my fist and thumb up. I imitated the gesture, if not as vigorously as she did. Then she disappeared inside the building.
Sighing, I moved towards it too, after all I didn't want to be late. Our math teacher was very picky about being punctual.I had just walked a few meters when suddenly-
"Hey, Seichi! There you are! It's pretty late, isn't it?"
I couldn't help it, as if by myself I turned in the direction from which the voice was coming. There he stood - looking straight at me! There was no telling what kind of look he was giving me, I was too far away for that. But the very fact that he was looking at me gave me hope again. "Be ..." A low whisper escaped my lips and as if he could hear me despite the distance, his mouth moved as if in response. My pulse quickened. Was it all just my imagination after all? Maybe we were still friends? My feet moved in his direction. Takeshi, who had called Sei earlier, turned to me. "Hey, Yuri! Tomorrow! You who did that with yesterday with really lei-"
"Save yourself the trouble of apologizing to Matsuo. You were right. A few scratches wouldn't damage his milk face. Come on, let's go, otherwise we'll be late." Seichi's voice was sharp and ice cold at the same time. The look he gave me now was different from the one he had a few minutes ago. He was icy and haughty. If he had looked at me like that earlier, it would have run down my spine like this - like now. So it wasn't a nightmare after all. No maybe here, maybe there. There wasn't a maybe anymore, it was fucking reality!



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