everyone and tried to help everyone, no matter what they had to do. Shinichi used to be a light in his life for him, someone he could help and who also needed his help, now it was Ai who had grown up without a family for so long.
Her whole sad fate made him sad too and he couldn't believe that she really had no parents anymore. For this reason alone, he was there for her and grabbed her under the arms wherever he could.
"Professor ... I couldn't forgive myself ... if ... if the organization caught you ... I'm sorry I dragged you into the whole thing," Haibara apologized.
She really didn't want all of this and if she could, she would have tried to undo it, just so that the professor would not be drawn into everything.
It was only over time that she realized what it really was like. She used to belong to the organization and hadn't cared if people died from her poison, she had a high position and provided for her life, but only now, now that she was friends with the professor and realized that if he could also reach the goal of the organization, she was puzzled and no longer wanted any of this.
She noticed it before, but the feeling had been strongest today and she actually meant it. She would also be sorry if little Conan got caught, he too had grown very dear to her and she didn't know what to do without him and her friends.
"It's not your fault, Ai," interjected Agasa. He never blamed her for it, she had made some mistakes in her life, but he couldn't be mad at her, not because of it.
"You don't have to lie about it. If I had refused to develop the APTX, none of this would have happened. Then you wouldn't be in danger," said Haibara and swallowed softly.She knew that if she had refused then she would no longer be alive, but it would have been worth it.
"Now stop. I don't regret anything. And if that hadn't happened, then I would never have met you. Even if so many negative things happened, it also had good things and many positive memories," explained Hiroshi .
"Professor ..." Ai stammered softly. She was really grateful to him for everything he did. "Thanks."
"With pleasure, Ai", the old man nodded and looked at her. "Are you feeling better now?" He asked immediately.
"Yes," said the girl. "It's all back to normal," she nodded.
"I'm glad. You shouldn't be angry with Shinichi. He's just trying to help you," said Agasa.
"I know that, but he can't help me. Nobody can. I made this mistake on my own, not Shinichi. And if the organization wants to get me, they should, maybe everything will finally stop and I won't bring any more People in danger just because they know me. "
"Don't say that. I know how you are, but you can't just sit around and wait for them to get you. Where is old Ai? he interjected.
"You are right ..."
"If I'm right, then be back as before, happy and don't worry too much. Shinichi and Heiji already know what to do. Trust them both," the old man asked.
Trust? That's a big word. I can't really trust anyone, but he's right. I shouldn't wait for them to find me. I should probably ... Trust, the girl told herself. Now she looked again at the professor and then at the floor, as if there was an answer there.
"I'll try," she then agreed.
Trust.
Who could she trust?
Akemi was no longer alive and so far she had only trusted her sister so much that she would do anything for it."That's good," nodded the professor.
"I hope you are right," Ai muttered softly. She tried, but she wasn't really sure. Fear spread over and over again in the girl, over and over again this fear.
Fear of a certain person. Even if she was far away, she always felt as soon as she was in the room, no matter where, even on the bus she could perceive this aura.
Not only did the organization have a certain smell, the high-ranking members also had a certain aura that could be recognized.
"Of course. I should just let Shinichi know that everything is okay again, then he'll worry a lot less. Besides, he'll know right away that you won't let yourself get down," said Hiroshi.
"Do that," she immediately agreed. Being alone had been the best thing that could happen to her now, and it didn't matter when she was alone.
Everyone was alone at some point.
And in the organization you were only trimmed to do so. You could never rely on others, no matter what you thought or how hard you tried. One was always alone.
Alone.
Lonliness.
These two words were always related and once you got caught in their circle, you couldn't get out of it.
"I'll make breakfast right afterwards. Come downstairs to the kitchen if you like," smiled the old man and went to her door.
"I will definitely do that."

She was no longer alone, no longer lonely. She had someone. The professor, he took care of her touchingly, he was there and listened to her.
Since Akemi's death, he was the only person she had left to relate to and she was happy about that, even if everything else had just been terrible. "Thank you," Ai mumbled softly and looked after the professor.
Haibara got up thoughtfully, stepped to the window and looked out into the morning. As every day, people went to work quite normally, even the post office had already been here and nobody felt it, the calm before the storm."They will come for me," Ai whimpered softly and leaned her head against the pane. It was cool even if you didn't have a fever, but it gave you a little cooling.
"Traitors will be punished ... and because they couldn't find me, they were put on it," she added.
Ai closed her eyes for a short time, she felt nothing, no malicious aura, no observation, simply nothing and yet she knew better. Slowly her eyes opened again and she looked up at the sky. Soon ... very soon, I'll be with you ... Akemi, she said to herself afterwards and even had a small smile on her face. Soon it would all be over, maybe it would even stop with her death and she would not draw the others into the matter. And in the end the whole thing had its good points.
Ai could finally be with her sister again. She still missed her so much and the pain never decreased and it would surely go on for a long time to come. It wouldn't be easy, but soon it would all be over.
Then and exactly when Chris Vineyard was throwing the party in their mansion. The woman Shiho feared so much, the woman they sent. So far she hadn't heard anything bad about her in the organization.
Bad? You couldn't put it that way.
She had never failed or been unable to complete an assignment ... she ... the boss' darling with the special position.
"Vermouth ...."