to me about anything."
I smiled. She looked at me with big, twinkling eyes. Close to tears. "Le ... Lea ...." I stuttered when I saw her like that. She was just as amazed at me as I was. I couldn't believe what I just said to her. "Yes! You are right! I don't need any other friends .... You are my best friend!" When she said that, the last word stuck in my head. Best friend she said. I thought she already had another best friend I didn't just think so I was pretty sure. My heart thawed. I had to smile when I found out that I was her best friend. The smile ............ it came by itself. She looked at me, and smiled as well. We sat on the bench and smiled at each other. I didn't take anything anymore, just the warmth it radiated. She was doing me incredibly good. Nothing I took was not even the other students who surely gave me weird looks again. I didn't care about anything. I am Lea's best friend! It's me! And nobody else! It was the most beautiful day on earth, so beautiful that I didn't deserve it. I haven't been so happy in a long time. The beautiful moment was interrupted by the school bells.The students squeezed into the doors. It looked a little brutal. Lea and I were the last.
The class seemed to go on forever, as if time stood still.
I didn't follow the class, I was lost in thought again. I wasn't listening to Mr. Mc`field, I just saw his lips move. I propped up my head because it felt heavy, as if someone had filled it with water. I still didn't care. I looked out the window. The sun blinded me. I hated my seat .. because at noon the rays of the sun shone through the branches. I squeezed my eyes shut. And kept dreaming until someone shook me from behind. "Hey, Manuel are you sleeping again?" It was Collin. The sun shone on his black hair. He looked at me with his beautiful green eyes (which were actually very beautiful for a man.). "y .. yes?" I was confused. "We're reading the book .." he whispered. "Page 76." "Thank you! Collin ..." He nodded. Collin and Lea were probably the only ones who liked me. But I didn't really know Collin. Because Collin talked to me from time to time, and explained to me what if I didn't understand it. I thought he was okay. He was the prettiest of the boys. His skin was the color of snow. His bright green eyes radiated fresh. His face was perfectly shaped, his expressions just as perfect. His body was built with a perfect athleticism. He probably made every girl weak that he came across. Does Lea get weak at the sight of him? That question made me wonder. Hopefully not. I chuckled to myself. I saw everyone reading. Now I was angry with myself. I got distracted again! Unbelievable .... I opened the book on page 76 and tried to read carefully. I didn't see everything. Because my concentration failed again. It said something about professional life. I didn't really care either.Seventeen minutes more ... It's very quick. But I was wrong, it felt like an eternity. When I was finally absorbed in the reading, people started me. I jumped up easily. Collin, who was sitting behind me, grinned at me in amusement. I grinned back but was a little embarrassed. The students got up slowly and packed up their things. Put up the chairs and quietly left the room. Mr. Mc`field stayed at the desk reading. He paid us no attention. Lea took my hand again and pulled me out. She ran so fast that after a few moments we were out of the school grounds. I saw Collin only fleetingly, but even as I saw him waving, he had put on his typical grin again. I smiled .. and turned back to Lea. She looked up at me. "Could it be that you get on well with Collin?" "Why?" I asked quickly. "Well .. Because he just waved to you." I didn't know what to answer. "It would be great if we were friends!" it suddenly came out without me wanting it. She looked at me strangely. We arrived at Lea's house. She said goodbye in a friendly manner. My house was only forty yards away. I climbed the stairs, which consisted of only six steps. I hastily unlocked the mailbox, would I get mail?
No ... My mood was slowly sinking. It was a couple of years ago that I got mail. I unlocked the door slowly ... Finally I had no more reason to rush. Everything was the same as always. I slammed the door behind me and fell into my bed. I was tired, slowly closing my eyes to many. I tried to open it again with great effort. I saw that I couldn't stop it. I only heard the birds chirping, they always sang songs the same melody ... they repeated, sang in a choir or alone. Soon I didn't hear anything anymore and let myself sink into the world of dreams.It was foggy and dark, damp and cold, I was standing on a stone floor that shone from the wet. The fog was so thick that I could barely see my own feet.
Where am I? I wondered. I ran for a while, but I couldn't see anything ... just thick fog. Nothing is here, no people, no houses, nothing, just endless silence. But a little further away I recognized a black spot and ran towards it. It took a while to reach him. There was Lea standing with her back to me. Her back was bent a little and you could hear her sobbing softly. Yes ... she was crying. I walked slowly towards her and wanted to put my hand on her shoulders but she took a step forward. "Lea ..?" I asked carefully because something seemed to be wrong with her. "You were gone...."
She said softly. Her voice was teary. "What do you mean by that?" I took a step back as a precaution. "You weren't there ..." she sobbed again. "When I died ..." I automatically opened my mouth and widened my eyes without meaning to. "Ge .. died?" I asked to make sure I had misheard. "Yes ... you were gone when I needed you the most. I was lying there waiting for you, but you didn't come. I waited for you for days ..... Manuel." I could hardly believe what she spoke there.
"Lea, what are you talking about, I don't understand!" I cried anxiously, afraid that she might hate me. "We could never be friends Manuel. You used me ... so you don't feel alone. But you didn't think about my feelings." These words came coldly. I noticed that she wasn't crying anymore, but still stood with my back turned to me. "Forget me Manuel," she said quickly and ran away like lightning. Suddenly I noticed that I was moving too. Yes I ran after her. It was so fast that I could barely see it. But I was hot on her heels. She didn't look like Lea."Lea stop! I love you!" These words came out of my mouth, it was hard to believe. But it seemed to be working. Lea stopped five meters in front of me. I ran to her when suddenly the ground disappeared from under my feet. I was still moving in the air and down a lot at breakneck speed. I could see Lea's face for a very short time.
It was as rigid and motionless as a stone. Her skin paler than usual. What have I done to her? I thought while falling. I am an egoist. Suddenly a loud crack tore me from the dream. My upper body automatically jumped up. I sat on the bed with Big Eyes and gasped for air. Beads of sweat slipped past my cheeks. What have I done to her? I burst into tears, put my face in my hands, and started crying. I didn't want to lose Lea. It was cruel. How she didn't look like my Lea. My heart was racing. I tried to get myself back. It was harder than I thought. This incredible pain seared into my chest ... right into my heart.