Death is normally the redemption of all agony at the end of a long life. But not everyone has the pleasure of being able to experience them.
I have served the DigiWorld for many years, completing all of the duties assigned to me by my father and the elder council. All my life I just lived
for her and never questioned her intentions in any way. But that should end that day ..

And God wanted our life:
Paradise froze to ice!
eternity
Is the storm that covers you!

Yes i loved her. More than anything in the world .. you my partner .. my Digimon. Her grace and shape have made me our since that day
first encounter captivated. She was a Digimon of Darkness, I admit, but she had a heart like angels.
It was a coincidence that I found her at the time, seriously injured, on the run from her brothers, who rejected her because she did not go the ways that were predetermined for her.
I took her with me, looked after her and let her be part of our life until she became a part of my life herself. I loved her more and more with every day she was with me.
And even on the day of her digging to the mega level, this love remained. Because she felt the same for me what I felt for her ..... So we made love every day, day in and day out and no one could and should separate our happiness, not even my father, who suspiciously watched our two loved ones.

Your words are merciless, your looks are deadly to the soul. But nobody in the world can take our love away from us.

I wish the clock could have stopped, its hands stopped turning and we were lucky.
But still the time went on and the anger of the superiors broke over us like a flood of meaning ... It was just not forbidden to us to be together, was it? I was a Keeper and you a Digimon. She shouldn't have been my partner or my lover, even if we didn't care.

My father called me that day. His words that he spoke hit me deeply and awakened a feeling in me that I had never felt before in my life.
I think the right word for that was "hate".
He mocked my dearest, humiliated me to the worst and threatened me with repudiation if I didn't understand that my love for Lilithmon would harm us all ... Even if it wasn't so, everyone was against us.

[i]He who righs with the Almighty can do something for him
prescribe? Whoever rebukes God answer! Do you want
nullify my judgment and find myself guilty there
You are right? Answer, Samuel!

"I hereby forbid you any contact with this Digimon. You are the future guardian of the worlds, you are not allowed to develop such a relationship in any way, and certainly not with a Digimon! We have a great task and if you are with the If you break the law, it will be the downfall of all of us! ""Why do you always talk about the downfall of all of us? Nothing will happen, Father, believe me. It's all just lies to tie us to this world. I don't see why I'm on the greatest good of what because of laws that are irrelevant a being can feel to forego love! I love you and I will not deviate from it no matter what you say or do. "
"Is that your last word Samuel?"
"So it is, and if you want to cast me off now, do it. I will not be angry with you, only with those who are overtaxed and who do not let you see the truth."
"You don't seem to be clear about what that means for us! I would be dishonored, ridicule of the whole Digiwelt. You wouldn't give me another word, rob me of my office! We would no longer have a home, so believe me, she loves Don't you Samuel! She only uses you to enforce her machinations. It was never her intention to stay with you, her brothers alone will take care of that. They will injure you, maybe even kill you ..
Then where should your soul go? She will be cursed forever, remember!
"It's enough father, think what you want about me, but never again raise reproaches that you don't know! Lilithmon would never harm anyone on purpose, and certainly not, she loves me too much for that, believe me! I ask Urge you to let me and Lilithmon go, we won't cause you any more problems, I promise you.
"I can't do that and you know that! I will not take this shame on myself, you will do what you have been commanded and that is my last word Samuel! Leave this Digimon or never be my son."
"Then so be it. I can't be against what my heart tells me, so I'll do the only right thing now ... Leave you and move away. But never forget that you will see my Anglitz for the last time today . Whatever happens now, it will be my fate and my end, I will not regret anything, even in death nothing! "

Without mercy this conflict tears me apart,
On the one hand, the glimmer of hope for me
And on the other hand brings me hellfire!
Have mercy on the soul that struggles for an answer!

After that conversation, I left my birthplace and wandered the country side by side with my beloved. We were happy yes, but even happier
when Lilithmon revealed to me one day what she was wearing under her heart. It was a gift from God that nobody would have dared to dream that this would actually happen once.
But this joy did not last too long, because we realized what that meant for us. If father found out about it, my dearest life and mine would be in great danger. So we had to keep moving away because we weren't allowed to take a break.

For a long time, we traveled around.In search of what might soon bring us the solution of all problems. Because my father told me about a book that should be able to break the laws of the worlds. This would have been a chance for us to become equal beings and to live together in a better world. Then our child could grow up in peace and harmony without worrying about what tomorrow would be.

But the journey there turns out to be more difficult than I had hoped. A few moons before we were supposed to reach the temple where the book was located, we were tracked down by my father's servants. He wanted to finally bring me home to put an end to this game, to our chagrin ... So we fled as quickly as our legs could carry us away. Deeper and deeper into the dark forest until they lost our trail.

We wandered for a long time in the deepest darkness, until a ray of light opened ours and we were allowed to see the temple for the first time, where our heart drove us for a long time. It should truly contain the "Book of Worlds", but getting it was almost impossible for mortals if I weren't fortunate enough to be a guardian.
I knew these kinds of traps and curses, which my father must confess, a very good teacher. At a young age he taught me everything that could be important to me later. And so I managed to free the book from its sealing and let his words echo again.

As I said, it was forbidden to read from the Book of Worlds and was severely punished, mostly with death. But I wasn't afraid that there were worse things in the world, I was already aware as a child that everything would come back to this world one day, even if not the way it had come.
Nevertheless, I leave the book and sacrificed a part of myself to the earth, for that is how it was asked. Lillith drew you into a spell, when I finished I went to her and with the words of the book, my blood dripped onto the place of hope. As soon as it hit the ground, the circle shone in radiant colors and at that moment my loved one looked like an angel's Anglitz.

I long for your touch. Every kiss burns like fire inside me. I distort myself after your devotion, I want to love you and handle you as only a man can who truly loves a woman like you

With every word that we advanced, my joy and my drive for her grew. I was already longing for the moment when we would finally be together ... This moment was almost within my grasp .. But fate would not allow us this ... They had found us ... And they only let us know a choice.
We either gave them the book or we died here and now.
But I didn't want either of them, I wanted life and I wanted to love.
So I went on, every word burned into my head, calling up to heaven, praying for God's blessing ..But God did not hear me, the last word that got stuck in my throat should forever remain unspoken. The lockdown of the Sky Brigade mercilessly braced me and my body fell in front of mine
Dearest on the ground. I couldn't speak the last word anymore, too much blood was oozing from my innermost being. So my lips could only shape one thing before my body blessed the temporal one.
"I am sorry"...

Oh god! Forgive me my love
But I don't want to leave her!
The leaves fell from the trees
Because autumn colored them red!
My cheeks grew more mortal
Annoyed by death:
Caught in the undertow
Out of merciless transience ...

I would have liked it to have turned out differently. At least that we had the right to go over there together. But even that was denied to us.
Only I was punished with death and forever chained to this world, which I wander around forever in my dark dungeon and would never see the light of day again. Always reminded of the torment I suffered when I lost my loved one.
Lilithmon, on the other hand, was to be banished to the world of darkness forever because she had dared to break the laws of the digiworld.

I never forgot your face
Because it is warming endlessness!
Just like Eve bit the apple
We enjoyed the fruit

And why all of this? Were we really only punished because we loved each other but weren't allowed to be free? Why is it so absurd that I loved and wanted to honor a being other than my own races? I think there was not only fear in what was to come, but what could have happened if our child had ever seen the light of day. Then the hierarchy of today would not be that of the present time, but a far different one, greater and freer than it is now. Our son or daughter would have made the world what we had longed for all of our lives.

But I am alone!
A life without you,
How should it be?