Forgotten friendships


I was always by your side, I can't even remember how it should have been without you.
Your mom once put me in your cradle. She called me your companion, your good dreams bringer, your guardian angel. I looked at you, saw the green-brown eyes and a gentle laugh. That was when our path began.

I was there when you lay on your stomach for the first time, when you could sit down for the first time, the first clumsy crawling attempts. God what I was scared when you fell over again with the living room table when you got up for the first time.
Mom quickly found a new stable table, because our angel is not allowed to pass. Then came the first steps, followed by all the nonsense that you could now do even more easily and you always took me with you.

You baked sand cakes for me and even if I hated the laundry, I was happy.
You went slides with me and how often did I lie under your buttocks.
Swinging, feeling free like a bird, that's what we wanted.
The first day in kindergarten. Oh what did you cling to mom, but then I was there, stayed there with you and we got to know Lisa. She had a cat. I still know exactly what her name was, because I thought Mausi was funny back then,
But Mausi's story scared me, she said at some point you would no longer want me and throw me away, because that would be our fate.

I shook my head didn't want to believe it, but at some point the day came. I know you just got into school and told mom you were too old for me now. I should be on the shelf.
I was sad, but in the evening I heard you move the chair, felt delicate fingers scratching my fur and taking me to bed with you. Yes, I was no longer allowed to accompany you everywhere, but you were there for me during the night.

Unfortunately, the days went by so quickly you grew taller, I was rougher and I was only allowed to be by your side when you were sad. I comforted you as best I could, but it wasn't enough because at some point you kissed me, said goodbye and it got dark around me.

What I have done wrong? I want to do better, but don't do this to me. I hear you. You laugh but without me You cry, but I can't comfort you. How mad you can get. Who would have thought that.

You're talking about sorting out, moving because your studies are starting. Would Mausi be right in the end?
It is getting restless around me. How long has it been since I was moved?
You wonder what's in the old, dusty box and it's getting light.

I see you. Look into green-brown eyes and a bright smile.
"There you are! So you come with me!"

A long time later I'm sitting on your last bed, your bony, wrinkled hand holding my ear. I'm slowly losing the filling and yet you squeeze me.Yeah I know somewhere you're pushing me
It will get dark one last time and earth will lie on us, just as it did on Mama.
I was once forgotten and found again.
Now I am here, always with you.

Because I am your first cuddly toy.