"Take care of yourself!" "As always, of course."
Maybe it hurt to look into his eyes and think of his last words at the same time.
[i]"Don't do anything reckless." "Thaa, what are you thinking about again."
His eyes were as cold as ice. No more friendly twinkle. Not alive, but still there.
[i]"I'm not going away forever. Sooner or later I'll be back."Maybe that was a lie on my part. Maybe I lied to him. Without knowing it, shamelessly and irresponsibly.

Have you ever seen people laugh? Merry, happy, free. Unbound and ignorant.
Have you ever felt lucky? Airy, relaxed, fulfilling.
Have you ever felt love? Infinite, liberating, warming. Affectionate and gentle.
Have you ever lived Wild, untamed, proud.

You can't laugh I'll show you how it really works!
Did you feel no luck? Come on let's do it together!
You don't know love Let's find love!
Have you never lived? I want to live with you!

But we are no longer small, no longer children. Everything has changed, we are no longer us. We can no longer find ourselves, our childhood is only part of our memory.
If I look at you now, look into your cold, indefinable eyes, then I don't recognize anything.
There are lies and there are facts, you know that. The lie that I am apparently dead, the fact that you were just doing stupid things while I was away.