[i]He gave me so much. Love, joy, a reason to fight. He always said I was his life. Four years full of happiness, satisfaction and passion. Everything broken.
What did you think? You are dead, you left me! Just left me with memories
Your parents were beside themselves, they blamed me. 'You could have saved him!' It was then.
Can't you come back Can you put your arms around me and whisper softly in my ear: 'My Rose, everything will be fine'? No, you can't, but I wish you would.
Oh yeah you were crazy You were my crazy singer, my friend. My one and only, I loved you so incredibly much, but I could never tell you. At your grave, when your mother and I were still standing in front of your coffin, she told me you loved me so much and you told her every day with a beaming smile.
It's so hard to live without you Everything is bleak, I couldn't cope with it. Without you, an important part of my life is missing.
They always called me 'his' girl, your girl. 'Keep your hands off her, this is his girl!' I always heard. I've always been yours, I'll always be yours
But do you want that too? That I always live without you, only love you. Do you want me to be the unhappy, bleak Luciana Rosalie Dearing who doesn't want another boy? I know you, you don't want that.
You told me in the hospital that you would always stay with me even if I didn't see you, you would always love me.
Why are you not there? I am in such pain! Do you want me to suffer At some point I am old and have no one anymore because I still love you ?! Do you want it?
Elias Anderson, I know you. Your crazy, humorous way, your preference for Karraocke, your love for video games. I know you, I love you, I will never forget you ...
But Elias Anderson always wanted the best for me. 'Be happy!' He always said to 'his' girl.

Goodbye, Elias. I will never forget you, but my life goes on. Your last words were 'Live and love! Do me this favor for yourself, okay? '. Elias, oh Elias, you were the best, my everything, but I could never tell you. Maybe that's why I have this bad feeling.
I will live, maybe also love and since I cannot let go of you, I will also write to you. Maybe you can read what I'm writing somehow, up there. Or you look down at me.
I want you to know I love you Elias.

Your rose