Konan put me in the room and closed the door. I slept a long time, very long time. When I woke up I slowly straightened up, I had a headache from crying from the last day. I kissed in a mirror and saw that I had very red eyes from crying. I got up and went to the door, I opened it and went down a long hallway. I tumbled because I still don't see it that well. I went out again and walked through the woods. The sky was really dark, the forest was really dark green and close together and the ground was slightly wet because it had started to rain heavily. I kissed upstairs and I felt my ice cold tears roll down my cheek again. The rain rolled down on my cheeks and my tears were adorned with raindrops. I sat down on a wet tree, pulled a kunai and hugged me deeply. The pain has been good for me since I was little, since I lost my parents I did it more and more often and at some point it became a little addiction. I noticed how my warm blood ran down my arm and dripped my clothes lightly. I just took care of my arm and didn't notice that it had started to lightning and thundering. Half an hour later I got up from the tree, jumped down and went for a walk. This pain in my arm helped me to forget the pain and the bad past for a short time, but it would not last long for a long time. I tore off something from my cloak and used it to bandage my scratched wound. Should I leave Akastuki and roam around myself? or should i go see my parents' murderers? Perhaps they have been keeping dead for a long time or they may be perceived elsewhere. That they were kept somewhere else is of course understandable, but whether they are dead is unknown. I continued to roam through the woods and thought. Maybe Akastuki could help me find the murderers of my parents! But I never thought about what will happen in my life. I ran to Akatsuki and hugged my team who came to meet me. I have to go on a mission with Hidan and Kakuzu. We went off without saying a word. It made me sad until we arrived at a pub, we should look for some information from Kakuzu's opinion that meant about oro. I quickly got the information through my jutzu and we slowly started again. We came back to Akatsuki and Hidan and Kakzu reported, in the meantime I went out again and went for a walk to the beautiful lake with the blood-red, black water lilies on the water. I sat down and looked back inside. Over and over I saw my past and tears rolled down until I got up and left again. I wiped my tears away and went back to my room, I started to cry bitterly until Konan came back in, she became like a mother to me and she became one of the fewest and most important people in my life.

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I hope you enjoy it.this time it is shorter and my opinion is not so great and sad and something like that but I may end it later when I have time or desire :)
I ask for commissioners and suggestions for improvement> :)