reverent Yokai, hadn't done this a long time ago. I could have killed her like any other person back then, but I hadn't. My thoughts were suddenly interrupted when Rin suddenly threw himself into my arms. She buried her face in my stomach a little. I suddenly smelled the smell of salty water. She cried. This woman didn't seem to notice. She was still staring at me, slightly horrified. Jaken would still pay for that. How could he even lose sight of Rin? Her tears proved that something terrible must have happened to her. I wanted to bend down to her and comfort her a little when I remembered that this woman was still there. What would she think? From ME, the great Daiyokai? That I was worried about a small, weak child? I turned away from Rin and turned around. I took a few steps. When I realized that Rin was still not following me, I called for her. Then she finally came and I was able to go away with her. I didn't have time for this woman from a Taijiya at the moment.Although I was surprised that this time she wasn't in the company of my stupid half-brother and his gang of idiots. Did they have another argument? I wouldn't be surprised at Inuyasha ... But what did I care about her problems and worries? Nothing!! So I just went on with Rin and left her behind ... First I had to find this incompetent servant Jaken in order to first assign him the appropriate punishment for his carelessness ...

[Sango:]

I didn't know how I found my way back to the others afterwards, but I had found them. Like in a trauma, I found her, because my thoughts were still far away. And with the thing from earlier. He called her HOW? Rin ?! But it couldn't be! She couldn't possibly be that woman in my dream. That was impossible! Totally IMPOSSIBLE !!! And then the thing with Sesshomaru ... Did she belong to this yokai? But if, suppose, she was really going to be the one from my dream, only that she was younger now, then who was the one who had saved my life. But not about ... ?? I stopped. No, it couldn't be this yokai. He would never do anything like that ... He was too angry for that! No, not SESSHOMARU !!!



~ A few years passed after this pretext ... ~



[Sango:]

"Hiraikotsu !!"
With brute force I hurled him at the large and agile cat yokais. He broke the neck of one. Another had his head chopped off so that the blood splattered. Kirara at my side ran forward and bit one of these yokai in the leg, so that he howled. I took the chance and took my hiraikotsu, which I then tossed at the yokai. This was dead instantly. It was a clean broken neck. This always worked best. After the work was done, I went to the village elder.
"Thank you very much for your help! Thanks to you, dear Taijiya, our little village has been freed from the annoying cat yokai. We owe you our deepest thanks. I hope the payment is enough. Thank you very much again!"
The old man bowed his thanks. It was a matter of honor.
With a 'You're welcome', I accepted the payment and made my way to leave the village. Kirara accompanied me and ran alongside me as always.

I had been traveling from village to village for years and made a lot of money fighting low yokai. Since Inuyasha-kun and Kagome-san had finally destroyed Naraku and completely put the Shikon no Tama together, we had all separated. Kagome-san, together with Inu Yasha-kun, guarded Shikon no Tama. They had then given it to old Kaede-sama and now, together with her, took care of the jewel. Kikyo-san hadn't been seen since then, and neither had Inu Yasha's brother. Miroku-kun had traveled alone with Shippo-kun. Shippo-kun wanted to practice his skills.After he no longer had the kazaana in his right hand, Miroku-kun wanted to find a suitable woman who could bear him a child. I refused myself, so he went out to find someone else. I knew it was stupid and foolish of me because I actually loved him. But I still had a mission and I didn't mean to stop him. After Naraku's death, Kohaku was freed, but he was still not himself. And when the splinter was removed ... he had done it willingly ... he died instantly. But I couldn't let that happen. After breaking up with my friends, I went to see an old hag. She could revive him ... The pay was high, but I agreed. And I made sure that it wouldn't be the same with him as it was with Kikyo. He shouldn't live as a soulless doll. The old hag wouldn't do this until she got paid. So I now traveled from village to village and tried feverishly to raise all that money. Just to give life to Kohaku. Today was the last time I'd killed a couple of Yokais for money. Because today, a year after the witch made me the offer, I finally had all of the money. And that was good, because I only had a year. If I didn't transfer the money by midnight today, the deal would have been broken. But until then I still had enough time. I already made it. Now I was on my way back to the witch. Today I would finally be able to give life to Kohaku ... Finally ......

[Sesshomaru:]

Alright! Now Rin was gone again! What was she actually thinking of? Just because she was grown up now, she couldn't just do whatever she wanted. She was still MY property and still danced to MY tune. No wonder, really, when you consider how I had treated her in the past few years ... But what was I talking about, she has hardly listened to me lately. Well, she definitely didn't have that from me. Most likely from Jaken. I stopped and looked at the floor. Yes, Jaken, my former servant. He was my most loyal servant so far. WAS it ... I couldn't stop it. If I hadn't had to worry about Rin so much, I could have saved him from that Naraku back then. As well as Ah Uhn. This Naraku who also managed to destroy MY weapons and the weapons of my disgusting half-brother. He had destroyed many. Jaken, Ah Uhn, Kouga, his own descendants ... Yes, even Kikyo was swallowed by the earth afterwards. I didn't care what Inuyasha said, I was sure he had murdered her. That time left severe scars. I then looked for a second arm as an alternative. It was human, but it belonged to a very famous priestess, so it was guaranteed to last a little longer.I thought about Jaken again. I regretted pushing and kicking him around like that. Maybe, but just maybe I should have apologized to him. I should have told him that he had served me well and was always a support for me. I should have apologized for all those punches and kicks. And I absolutely should have ... MUST say 'thank you' to him only once. How I would like to do this now, but now he was dead. Irrevocably dead. Ah Uhn had to follow him too. I couldn't prevent all of this. But the worst thing was that I also blamed myself for the fact that the two were dead. I hated to admit it, but somehow I missed this little gnome. I missed his constant nagging, his arguments with Rin, the way he always tried to sneak into me. I had somehow taken him to my heart in all of these many, long years of service. More or less ... I hoped that somewhere in nirvana he would see how much I missed him. I hoped he would answer ... But nothing happened ... I became more and more reserved and had hardly spoken a word during that time. Rin was going through some kind of trauma at the time. At that time she could not understand that the two no longer consecrated among us. She cried a lot. She was still too young to really understand all of this. I couldn't prevent Jaken's and Ah Uhn's deaths, nor could I reverse them, but at least I should have taken care of Rin. It had been harder for her. I look death in the eye almost every day, but you? But instead of comforting her, just hugging her once or just saying a few calming words to her, I even blamed YOU for the death of my servant, because I had to take care of YOU while HE was dying. I avoided her, blamed her and just wanted nothing more to do with her ... A big mistake, as I now discovered today. She got further and further away from me. Losing a servant and a mount wasn't as bad ... At least, not AS bad as losing a part of myself. And that was Rin ... MY Rin ... There was only one thing I was happy about then. Namely that Naraku was dead. Even if it was my lousy half-brother who killed him ...

[Rin:]

Far away! That was where I wanted to go ... FAR away !! I was so sick of this yokai. As if I were to blame for Jaken's and Ah Uhn's death back then. Why did this Sesshomaru-sama always have to vent his anger on me? How so? How so?? I stopped and dropped to my knees. Life was so unfair! At that time I stayed with him because I couldn't find another one at home. HE was my home! He was kind of like a family! And not a SECOND family, but a REAL family! But now I was grown up.So why did I still stay with him? I could find a home myself, right? Not at all, because he WAS my home ... Besides, there was something else! A secret I kept from him for fear of him. I loved him! HIM, the great lord of the western countries ... How did this come about? Just because! I kept wondering about my feelings, but it was true. I really, really loved Sesshomaru-sama! But every time I wanted to make this clear to him or tried to get him to take an interest in me, he always turned me away. Mostly with a cold look, but sometimes he made it painfully clear to me that he didn't want to know anything about me. He had changed a lot since that incident ... Since Jen's death. He always apologized to me immediately, but he had never really changed. I thought he really didn't mean it when he hit me. No way!! I guess he was just confused. Especially now that he had to remember the thing from back then. When I accidentally reminded him of Jaken's death earlier ... He hit me there too. He must have been sorry for everything he had done to me ... But somewhere, deep inside ... SO deep that he didn't even notice ... he probably still blamed SOMETHING on me. That should explain all of his outbursts of anger lately, but ... Is it really FROM the fact that he's gotten so cold? So cold