It's dark and it's quiet.
But this time it paralyzes me.
I don't like it, let it stop.

Your arms are around me.
Get hold of her tightly.
I can feel all of her pain

She needs it, needs the warmth.
Everything in her demands security.
Your voice very close to my ear.

I want to push her away, away from me.
Be alone with my thoughts
But I am not allowed to, she has no one else.

Why can't i enjoy it
Why does it feel bad?
Your embrace presses me, wants to flee.

That was what I wanted the last few days.
Closeness and comfort.
But I don't want this.

It doesn't soothe, it just stirs up.
If I withdraw, I don't deserve that consolation myself.
May not refuse others what I would like to have myself.

I need it the way she needs it.
But neither of us can fulfill these wishes.
It would be so nice and easy.

It's dark and it's quiet.
I can't take it anymore, I get up.
The dark silence of my room envelops me gently.