push my thoughts and fears aside and hug Kai from behind. <br />
Kai should know that I'm there. No matter how big my fear is, no matter how <br />
the panic in my heart is great. I am here for Kai now. Everything else is <br />
I don't care! <br />
"This is your world? Did you want to go back here?" I whisper <br />
in his ear and rest my head on his shoulder. I want Kai <br />understand, but I can't do it. How can you want to go back to a place like that? <br />
It's awful here. I have to pull myself together so as not to be scared and <br />
Panic to scream out loud. This place is horror to me. There is nothing
Worse than him. <br />
<br />
Kai turns to me and takes my hand. I keep silent and follow <br />
him. He leads me down a long, cold corridor. I have to <br />
focus to stay calm. I would like to cling to Kai now <br />
and close your eyes. But I have to pull myself together. For him and for <br />
me. Suddenly we meet a couple of children. I noticed us <br />
no one can see. <br />
Tears well up in my eyes as they walk past us. You have <br />
bowed their heads and walk quietly down the corridor. A boy with a blonde <br />
Hair and blue eyes come towards us. But his gaze is empty. Just like <br />Quays earlier. His hands are swollen and red. He has various <br />
Abrasions on the face. And so he passes us. My heart hurts when I <br />
see this boy. My little brother should be the same age as this one <br />
Be a boy. <br />
Kai leads me into a room. I widen my eyes and begin to <br /> lightly
tremble. Immediately I try to suppress the tremor which I also <br />
succeed. The walls are gray. The bed is made of a metal frame, a mattress <br />
and an old, musty blanket and pillow. There is a cupboard in the <br />
Room, as well as an old small table and an armchair. The room has no window. <br />
The light bulb that hangs from the ceiling without a lampshade emits little light. <br />
I know this is Kai's room. <br />
<br />
"Now it's not mine" says Kai in a low voice. I <br />
notice how difficult it is for him. But I can't hold back any longer. <br />
Everything is so terrible here.<br />
I feel sad when I imagine Kai in this room <br />
used to be treated just like the children. At that thought <br />
my heart starts to ache <br />
"What bad happened to you in the other world that you are back in this <br />
terrible world want you to want to get away from me? "I ask <br />
quietly so as not to start crying. I just do not understand. Kai <br />
looks at me doubtfully. I return his gaze and give him a determined look. <br />
<br />
Kai closes his eyes for a moment and suddenly we're back in town. <br />
Smoke around us, houses on fire and screams. But it all comes from <br />
further away. We are not in the middle of the city. Kai and I are a little <br />
outside. I turn my gaze to Kai. But Kai is standing next to me and holding <br />
my hand. It takes me a few seconds to understand what is happening here. <br />
Then I look at Kai, who is standing in front of a dark light.Suddenly Kai attacks <br />
after a gun. The dark light begs for mercy, still tries to <br />
save, but it's too late. Kai points the gun at the <br />
Light ..... and .... then he pulls the trigger. The light falls to the ground, remains there lifeless and <br />
eventually goes out. The shot booms in my ears. I widen my eyes <br />
and look at Kai, who throws away the gun and runs away. And suddenly <br />
darkness falls over us. The next time I shut my eyes <br />
on the 1st floor, Kai and I are back in Michael's and Gabriel's rooms. <br />
<br />
Kai stands in front of me. Silver tears make their way down his cheeks. <br />
Then he turns his gaze to the ground. <br />
<br />
So that was it. That put a terrible strain on Kai. Kai has a dark <br />
Light killed. I lift Kai's head so he has to look me in the eye. <br />
<br />
"Kai, why didn't you tell me? Why aren't you too <br />come to me? I am behind you. No matter what you do or have done. It is <br />
I don't care. I don't even give a shit. Kai i love you It is me <br />
no matter. I will always stand by you no matter what. "I say and <br />
smile warmly at him. <br />
<br />
Kai looks at me confused. He'd probably have any other reaction from <br />
just not expecting me this. <br />
<br />
And then he falls into my arms. Buries his head in me and starts <br />
to sob softly. I rub his back and <br /> soothingly
Head. I don't care if Kai killed a dark light or not. <br />
After all, those lights attacked the city. Have a lot of <br />
"Lights" killed. I don't know if I would have reacted like that, if I would have killed this light, but I stand behind Kai. I trust him. <br />
Of course I'm a little shocked. Kai may not have done the right thing, <br />
but now he regrets it deeply.He has a terribly guilty conscience. <br />
And that's punishment enough. I stand behind him. <br />
<br />
"Come on, let's go to our room." I whisper to Kai, who <br />
then raises his head. He wipes his tears away, hugs me <br />
and together we go to our room. There we sit on my bed. I <br />
take Kai in my arms and stroke his cheek. I want Kai now <br />
don't ask about his world. Not now. Kai wraps his arms around me and <br />
lays his head on my collarbone. <br />
“I'm so terribly sorry.” Kai whispers with a broken <br />
Voice. <br />
I do not reply to it. I don't think it's appropriate. <br />
"I lied to you. I almost destroyed everything." <br />
Kai continues whispering. <br />
"Now everything is over. Now everything will be fine again." I say. <br />
<br />
I am still deeply shocked by Kai's world. Never in a lifetime would have <br />
I imagined that his world was so terrible.That they are so cold, so <br />
is hateful. And that's where he and Tala spent their entire lives? At <br />
I shudder slightly at this thought. <br />
<br />
Suddenly I notice Kai's embrace finally loosening up <br />
solves. Kai fell asleep. I reach for a blanket and Kai's head slips <br />
from my shoulder to my lap. I take the blanket and put it over <br />
him. I can see tears in the corners of my eyes. I stroke Kai over the <br />
Cheek and look at him. So many thoughts are buzzing through my head. I <br />
use the time and try to sort it out. <br />
<br />
(Kai's point of view) <br />
Tears well up in my eyes, my body shakes. But worst of all is <br />
the mess in my heart The fear, the self-reproach, the remorse, <br />
the pain .... I never thought I'd have so many feelings that <br />
they can all come at once, that they are all connected.On the <br />
I would love to flee back into the dark, let myself drift, <br />
to where nothing can reach me. <br />
<br />
I'm terrified of what's to come. What will Nini say now? <br />
Will she be afraid of me? Rightly so! I know she is right in front of me <br />
stands. I can feel their closeness, their warmth. Only when I open my eyes will I find out what she's thinking now. I lift my eyelids very carefully ... and look directly into her eyes. Immediately I lower my gaze to the floor. No, I can't look at them now! <br />
What I did was too horrible to be upright and <br />
full of self-confidence that I could confidently raise my head <br />
could just look others in the eye without looking away <br />
to have to, because otherwise they could recognize my outrage, because they would then with the <br />
Point your finger at me. And then I'm alone. And this is my very greatest <br />Anxiety. To be alone! Then nothing has any meaning anymore. Neither my life <br />
nor any action that I would take. <br />
<br />
It is said that everyone has a motive for their actions, even if they <br />
does not know. What is my motive? Anger Despair? Hate? No, none of these <br />
Things are true. I am just an animal, nothing more. A little power in <br />
my hands and I become a monster, murder and no longer think about my <br />
Act upon. A single push of a button and my entire existence is destroyed. <br />
<br />
But I don't just wallow in self-pity. No, I'm thinking of <br /> rather
the dark light. What did it think in its last few seconds, which <br />
Must it have endured fears? The tears don't want to stop flowing. <br />
I know Michael and Gabriel see me that way, but I don't care. Shall <br />
they calmly see how weak I am. Let them find out what I <br />
have done.Maybe they'll send me back to my world of their own free will! But <br />
I don't want to go there either. Because my friends are here. Or should <br />
do I rather say former friends? How much I miss Jenny and Tala. <br />
And Nini ... even more so. It may be just a few inches in front of <br />
me, but it's so far away anyway. <br />
<br />
Suddenly I feel my head lift slightly and look directly <br />
in Nini's eyes. But contrary to my expectations, I don't see any fear there. <br />
Just warmth, trust. My heart beats faster, the pain gets smaller. <br />
I myself cannot believe it, I cannot understand it. Also the words that came to my <br />
Pierce my ear, I can't really understand my heart: <br />
"Kai, why didn't you tell me? Why aren't you with me <br />
came? I am behind you. No matter what you do or have done. It's completely <br /> me
no matter. I don't even give a shit.Kai i love you I do not care. I <br />
will always stand by you no matter what. "It's like I'm in <br />
a dream. As if a nightmare had turned into a beautiful one
transformed. <br />
Again a wave of emotions overwhelms me. But this time they are not <br />
bad, don't hurt. They just touch me, make me start all over again
cry. Powerless and yet full of hope, full of courage, I fall into Nini's arms. Tears run from my eyes and