Chapter: Life Changes- Part 22

Hi everyone! I still have shingles. But now I have all of the presents. Fortunately, Thursday and Friday will be free for me. Otherwise I'll have to go back to work. Well, holidays, those were the days ^^. But I hope it won't be such a rainy Christmas. I don't like cold rain in winter at all. <br />
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@ Melody-Mausi <br />
No, Lyn is not that mad at Kai. But the saying was pretty stupid of him, Kai-like ^^. <br />
I think Kai will never forget that, he won't just be able to get out of his skin at some point, but he can work on it and learn from it. I mean, we all do that, more or less. If you're right, somehow he'll always be the quay. <br />
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@Aliyah <br />
Yeah, the quay. He prefers to flee from his feelings, especially when they are like that. He's gnawing again <br />
nothing and he just doesn't notice what he is really feeling. But soon ^^ Let's see when the first kiss comes;) <br /><br />
@ Katha- Schnuckel <br />
Well recognized again! I would be completely confused if I had never felt like this before. His wall is protection, he can keep it, but he should see sooner when this wall is really in place and when not. I'm afraid this part is not so spectacular today, rather quieter, but this is followed by another debate between the two of them. <br />
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@aoko <br />
Thanks for cuddling. It’s getting better again. The rash is back, but it gets <br />
I definitely got it under control ^^ <br />
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And on it goes! Greetings to Sylvie and Jenny! <br />
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Part 22- The day after <br />
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Shit, that was stupid of me, Kai scolded himself in his mind. He had laid back on the straw and crossed his arms behind his neck. He didn't want to get it across, but it came over him and he just babbled on. "Bullshit!" Said the insensitive blader loudly. He had done the right thing.That was how Lyn knew where she was. Just because he told her his life story, she didn't need to fool herself into thinking that she had to mother him, or worse, think that he had fallen in love with her! Yup! he thought vigorously. But faint doubts made themselves felt. What if he had exaggerated? What if she didn't feel that way, was really just seriously shocked and shocked? Wanted to give him nothing more than consolation? What if he was just imagining it all? His mind was going crazy anyway when he thought of all the strange and new feelings that overwhelmed him around her. He rolled onto his stomach and buried his face in the straw. He must have talked to her again after all. The thought that he was wrong didn't let go of him. He sighed without energy. <br />
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On the way to the shower I met Ray and I wanted to ask him to show the skinner the way to the box in which Bellatrix was lying.The attentive hobby cook immediately noticed that something was wrong with me and pulled a straw out of my hair as proof. "Did you sleep in the stable? What's going on? You look so depressed and sad." <br />
I just nodded and leaned against the wall as if to hold on to it. Ray's friendly gaze ran through a broad trace of concern. "Oh, Ray. Don't ask. There is a dead foal in the third box in the front of the stable. The skinner is about to come to pick it up. Will you show him the way there, please? I can't watch that." I wanted to turn around and walk away quickly, because hot tears welled up in me again, but the black-haired ponytail holder grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. He brushed strands of my disheveled hair from my face and looked at me questioningly. "What happened, Lyn? A dead foal? Don't say ..." He paused and hugged me tighter. I just nodded. I reproduced the scenes of that gruesome night, short and cold.Didn't mention, however, that Kai had told me about his time so far and that we slept on the straw. He could do that himself. I didn't want to offer him a target if it were to remain a secret. "Thanks Ray." I said simply. Detached me from him and disappeared into the bathroom. <br />
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Ray stood there for a while and listened to the splash of water. She had simply withdrawn from his arms. He would so much like to hold her like that more often, stroke her soft, fragrant hair and tell her how wonderful she is. <br />
But that didn't work. She had already told him her point of view and so he pulled himself together, not showing his wish. He clenched his fists and went downstairs, wanted to wait in the yard for the knacker, then jog into the forest and swim a few laps in the small lake to clear his head. <br />
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"Yes. You are right. It would be better if you go to Germany.With the Lear Jet, you should be here in two or three hours. We will then wait for you at the airport. "Boris put the phone down and heard quick, energetic steps behind him." Gaspadin. "said a clear and monotonous sounding voice." What is it, Tala? "" The helicopter will soon be ready for use and in connection with the satellite system. You can start the "city tour" in an hour. "Boris laughed maliciously." "City tour" !? In such a good mood today, Tala? You and the others will of course come with us. If we find them, we'll pay them a visit. And Kai is overwhelmed and taken away! That this time it runs smoothly for me! He's the only one who can deal with Black Dranzer, ..... I mean Ultra Dranzer, and command him. This will be interesting, because Ultra Dranzer has the power of five Bitbeasts and an even more pronounced will to fight. It was developed from the data of Black Dranzer, but is even more effective and very idiosyncratic, just like Kai.I'm curious to see how they will level everything with each other! "Boris threw his head back and let out a nasty, loud laugh." You can go, Tala. Take some rest, you will still be able to use your strength. "" Yes, Gaspadin! "Tala obeyed and turned on his heel. A grim smile flitted across his rigid features." Kai, we'll see you again soon, then I'll finish you off for good. Then Ultra Dranzer will be mine! ", the red-haired block of ice whispered dangerously calmly. <br />
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I was still angry with Kai and his arrogant expression. You listen to him, take part in what is said and then he pretends that I only did it to hang around his neck! "Ouch!" I called when one of my hair strands got caught in the blow dryer. Great, now I had a tangled knot of his hair! Only because of Kai, because he said that! I sighed. But stop now, Lyn, I scolded myself in my head, that really has nothing to do with this crisp and handsome guy!And then sadness came over me again when I thought of Bellatrix. How her body lay in the box, covered with a blanket. How am I supposed to teach this to my mother? And when? I'd rather tell her when she comes home from vacation. Or? But then I screw up this one vacation a year for her and what's the point of telling her that now? She'll be just as sad and reproaching herself in a few days. I can let you enjoy your trip there. Even if I'm deliberately lying to her. Damn it! What is right now and what is wrong? No, I won't tell her for six days when she's back here! None of this will change anything about the condition of the foal ..... I put some comfortable clothes on and went into the kitchen to make coffee and something to eat. The horses had to wait a little longer to feed them. I just couldn't walk past that box and see it hidden there. Through the open patio door to the garden in the living room, I heard the cheerful voices of Tyson, Max, and Kenny.Once again they honed their attack and defense techniques. Pretty perfectionist boys, I thought, but that's also why they built this reputation in the Beyblade scene. <br />
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Shortly afterwards I heard the sound of an engine approaching our yard. The knacker. I switched on the music system in the living room and put on a CD from Qntal, a band that plays dark pop and medieval classic. I crouched on the couch and tipped my head back. I didn't want to hear anything of what was going on outside in the courtyard. I crawled deep in the armchair. Even when the truck drove again. I knew what it would look like, how the steel gripper arm would wrap itself around the animal's body, how it would plop up and onto the loading area. Already dead dead, looking with milky pupils, cold and drawn out. <br />
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Kai was still lying in the straw. He only got up and went to the sliding door when he heard a large car pull up.That’s the skinner who’s going to get the foal, he thought to himself. He saw the man disappear into the stable with Ray and shortly afterwards how they stepped out again with a loaded wheelbarrow. Ray turned away as gripping pliers grasped the dead body and lifted it up. Then he let go and the foal fell two meters down onto the loading area. <br />
It's not really nice when you see it that way, thought Kai and saw parallels to himself. This body was also simply disposed of, thrown in the garbage. Only he was still alive ... at least somehow. Mentally he swayed back and forth like seaweed in a shallow wind, swayed to the cloudy or to the rainy and stormy side. There was no sunny side, he was too upset, too hurt, had too many questions about himself, his past and his parents. He never admitted that to himself, played the tough, the aloof, the loner, always cut himself off from the others to a certain extent, acted deliberately, self-confidently and coolly.As if nothing would throw him off course, nothing could frighten him, as if everything he did went the way he wanted it to. But it became more and more clear to him that it wasn't like that, that he had lied to himself all these years, surrounded himself with a glow, buried all his fears, wishes and hopes deep inside himself, thus stopping her rebellion, but never completely suppressing it and erased. They were always there latently, showing their faces in the moments when he allowed them to suffer a mental breakdown. Ray, Tyson, Max and Kenny, they had taught him a lot about life. You should never