Chapter: Emotional chaos

I just looked at my old FFs. Could it be that my FFs are no longer that good and / or you don't like them ?! With the others I often got 8 clerks for a chapter. At the moment I can be happy if I even get one. (Not addressed to those who are always busy writing ^^) I would be happy if you could tell me why it is ^ - ^

But now have fun with Chapter 6!

Bye Nadine

Emotional chaos

My advisors have been trying to dissuade me from my decision for hours. So far in vain. I don't even listen with one ear. My thoughts are completely elsewhere. I worry, I won't let you out there alone, as much as my servants want to. I will protect you. At the same time I can also see my country, its suffering. I am closer to him there than nowhere else. So my decisions are not only based on rumors and talk of consultants. So I can see for myself what happens, how I can help.With this explanation I leave my astonished advisers behind and walk through the endless corridors of my property. I stop in front of her door. Should I go inside to her? I grab the handle of the door and carefully push it down. With a low creak, it opens a crack. I look inside. Everything is dark, no lamp is on. The sun has long since disappeared behind the horizon and no longer provides any light. The moon only lets a very faint, milky glow penetrate the room. I now step completely into the room and look around. I have to smile. How cute you look when you sleep I walk slowly towards you. The blanket fell off, I'll pick it up and lay it over you. You turn around, mumbling. What are you dreaming about? Immediately my good mood disappears again. Why should you dream of me when you have him ?! I turn to go when my wrist is held. Startled, I turn around again and look into your questioning face.“What are you doing here?” That's a good question. What exactly am I doing here? My body just brought me here. Not that the rest of me didn't want it, just ... Yeah what 'just'? I don't know the answer to this question myself. What should i tell her? She looks at me intently. "I just wanted to tell you that we are leaving tomorrow morning." Oh, did I want that? That's new to me. More precisely, I didn't know that that's why I was here. "But that's not the only reason .." Isn't it? What kind of rubbish am I talking about now ?! “Don't you?” She stands in front of me now. Her tight white nightgown emphasizes her perfect body. I shake my head. On the one hand to erase the thoughts of her body from my head, on the other hand to confirm that there is another reason. She pulls me onto the bed. We sit next to each other and keep quiet.

I am eagerly awaiting his answer. What is this reason? He looks up, straight into my eyes, and begins to speak.Quiet, almost inaudible. "I ... I wanted to see you." Silence again. I look at him with booze, I think I see a red sheen around his nose. I'm slowly starting to understand what he meant by that. I smile happily at him, which colors his face even more. "I .." "Shhh." He puts his fingers on my lips, preventing me from continuing. He is completely the same again, nothing to be seen of his embarrassment. After a few seconds he takes it from my lips again, but closes it again just as quickly with his lips. A quick kiss, then he gets up, leaves the room without saying a word. I stare after him. What was that supposed to mean now? My tiredness is blown away. I sit wide awake in the huge room and stare at the closed door. Why didn't he let me finish ?! I finally wanted to tell him. Finally say that there is no one else. That fool! I look furiously at the large brown, ornate door.What was he thinking ?! Why does he always do that ?! I take my eyes off the door and look out the window instead. The moon bathes everything in a mysterious light. Sighing, I turn around and wrap myself in my blanket again. Thinking about it won't do any more tonight.

What was the matter with me? I lean with my back to the door. No sound comes from her room. Maybe she's asleep again. What was I thinking ?! She has a boyfriend. Tomorrow we will go looking. After that, our ways will part forever. I will never leave her alone, especially not here and at this time. It doesn't matter what the others think of it. I go resolutely to my room. "Lord!" "Hm?" "I have to talk to you." "No, not now. My decision is made, I will leave tomorrow. Until I come back you have to do my business." This ends the conversation for me and I continue down the dimly lit corridor to my room.I go to sleep tired. We'll see what awaits us tomorrow ...

To be continued ^^, if you want and clerks write me XD