where to start ... Why should she even tell him? Because otherwise he would beat her up? Because she can only talk to him about it.
With all the brooding, Kari didn't notice that Bryan had long since left the room. She only came back to reality when she heard a loud bang.
(That came from Bryan's room ...), Kari went carefully into the hallway and then into her brother's room. Bryan was there on the floor. He gasped and a lot of books fell on him.
She carefully approached the, the first thing she noticed was how red his face was and that he was bleeding.
"What's going on? Hey! Hey Bryan !! What's this going to be?"
"...", no answer, obviously Bryan was passed out ...
(What am I to do?!)
Kari thought back and forth. After a while she decided to call the ambulance, even if it was a bit too exaggerated for her taste ......
| Infirmary |
Kari sat next to Bryan on the bed. The doctor's words crossed her mind.
"We discovered a virus in your brother ..."
(A virus in his body that would probably mean death for him ... I couldn't stand Bryan, but I never wished him anything like that ...)
Slowly Kari started to cry ...
"HM?", Kari looked at her hand.
Bryan had woken up and was smiling at her ... It was a real smile ... A friendly smile ...
"Why are you crying?" He asked gently.
"Bryan ... with you ... it became a ... a ... a ...", Kari couldn't say that ...
"A virus was discovered in me! I knew it would come up at some point, but I was hoping that it would be later ..."
Kari looked at her brother and couldn't believe what he was saying ... He knew he had a virus in his body?
"But why didn't you tell me?", Bryan put his head back on the pillow and looked at the ceiling."First of all you are my little sister, if you had known that I would be so sick, you would not have been afraid of me ..."
"Why did you want me to be scared of you?"

Kari was on his way home, her brother hadn't been able to answer the question, and he knew that he would soon die ... Soon he would be gone ...
He seemed to be as carefree, idiotic and full of sick fantasies as any other boy his age was. But Bryan just looked after the girl with the nice curves to make him look as "normal" as possible ...
He would never have forced a girl to do something that she didn't want herself ...

Kari arrived at home full of sadness and got a slap in the face as a hello.
"Where is your brother, why is his room so dirty? * Cough cough *", Kari looked at her mother.

| Hospital |
Now her mother too ...
Kari's mother had contracted AIDS from cheating with others.There was also a virus. But since she was still a chain smoker, her life was as good as the end ...
Kari couldn't stand the stench ...
She was alone, like the girl in the park.
It got dark and Kari went on ...
Further into the dark ...
Moving on to a final wish.

She stood in her room and looked at the object that she had wanted to use so often, but had never dared ...
Inside she dreamed one last time.
(I wish to be born again ... As a girl, named Kari, with a brother named Bryan, who treats me the way he always wanted to treat me ... and with a mother who doesn't give up her dreams, she gives up just live ...)
Carefully she put the blade to her chest, where her heart beat ...
It would stop in a moment ...

I never wanted to lose EVERYTHING ... I lost the one who really meant everything to me and I hated him with all my heart ...I have taken what was most dear to me ... That which I will probably never get again ... Life is valuable, when we die, we step before our creator and he either gives us eternal rest or wandering around.
Creator, when I stand before you please give me rest and one day let me be reborn ...
As the girl I always wanted to be, together with my most precious memories and with my most precious treasure ... me, my soul, my family and my life ...
Yari, the answer to your question, do I know what it means to lose EVERYTHING, I now know.
But I had to give the most valuable for these experiences ...
...

| END |