Chapter: second poem

Another one from me, says how you like it :.)

Eternal darkness envelops my heart.
I don't know where to go anymore.
My emotions are playing a crazy game.
Once I feel it clearly, like a warm rain shower,
sometimes I don't feel it like the silent clouds in the sky.
Sometimes I want to hold you
gentle and tender.
Sometimes I want to tear you apart, chase you away
so that my heart ... has peace?

I don't know how to act
tell me what to do?
The night makes me dream
the night lets me indulge.
In my dreams we are together
there is no one else my heart belongs to

But then it pulls me out of my dreams
i wake up
I feel this dichotomy in me again.
I'm torn.
Am I living the love of my past?
Or is it the present?
Which should the future be?

Should I love out of guilt?
Or may I allow my heart the only true love?
I can't forget what once wasas much as I wish.
I finally don't want to stop my love anymore.
I want to live with you!

And yet ... I feel this eternal darkness in me.
As long as it exists - the love that forcibly holds me.
With you it is not a compulsion that makes me love you.
It is the pure feeling.
Pure love.

So clear and yet so difficult-
you are the one who makes my heart heal.
The past should remain the past and yet it will forever be a part of my life.

forgive me for my feelings
do not leave me alone.
Hold my hand, look me in the eye
One day, be sure, I'll tell you:
I love you.

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