Chapter: Chapter one

Chapter one

As I said, I had watched a lot of TV and otherwise somehow lay completely next to the cap ...
Nevertheless, now follows:

[i]Beyond death

Hardly a day goes by that I don't have to think about you. It's almost like an addiction to hold you in my heart, never wanting to let you go. Was that the reason you had to die in the end?

I have no answer to that
I will never get an answer to that either, because you have it
taken to the grave.

I can still remember the day you died, this blood everywhere, red ...
You lay there in your own blood motionless
cold,
dead.

I couldn't do anything, was paralyzed when I saw you like this.
Then I walked up to you, took your head in my hands, put it in my lap, but you didn't say anything.
Slowly I had to register that you really had left me.

When you were buried I just cried, nothing and no one could calm me down, cried bitterly at your grave, didn't want to leave for days.To free me from the pain, our friends said that you would now be needed elsewhere, that you would have done your job with me.

But I can't believe that !!
Why should your task be done now, shortly after the two of us got so close?
What was it about that?

The feeling of loving someone?
Was that the point?

To discover love only to lose it a fraction of a second later in order to be able to feel even more sadness?

To suffer?

If that's supposed to have been your job, then I don't understand anything anymore. Losing a loved one, is that supposed to be the deeper meaning of an individual's life?

I ask you, should that have been your meaning in life?

Once again I break down crying in front of your final resting place.
Weep bitterly again.
Even if it doesn't bring you back to me.

I scream, scream my sadness, my anger out, yell, bawl, scream,
cry
shatter, shatter, fall apart,die.

Suffer...

Mourn...

Is that my purpose in life?
No, that can't be, but ...
This thought, it stays in my mind, I can't take a step without it.

Sorrow and sadness ...
Everything I have experienced in my life so far ...

Only this brief moment with you was a ray of light in my life, my miserable one.
But it was too short to be my mind.
And yet I wonder why they enjoy making life hell for me.

Can't you wait till I die and go down to hell?
Why do I have to suffer so much on earth, why does something always happen to the people around me?

What did my love have to die for
why couldn't it get me?

I don't want to anymore, I can't anymore !!

Inside I kneel in front of your grave, hold on to it.
I made up my mind to follow you, to follow you into death.
I slowly reach into my pocket, take out the knife,the knife that killed you

I look at the blade, run my finger along it and cut myself in the process. The first step towards my salvation.

Reluctantly I point the knife at my chest, pause one last time until they give me strength,
Strength to stab.

*
I scream, scream my sadness, my anger out, yell, bawl, scream,
cry
shatter, shatter, fall apart,
die.
*

Gasping for air, I fall to the ground, in pain, terrible pain, but the longer it takes, the less I feel.
The torments, they seem to have disappeared, I see light, feel warmth and in the distance I see ...

You...

As you were already waiting for me, just waiting for me, you knew that I couldn't be without you, that I would come to you, even follow you into death.

And you were right, as always ...

Now nothing can separate us, we have overcome the limits, the limits of death ...
Now nothing can separate us, we will be happy for all eternity.Finished...
I know, I haven't mentioned a single name, but there's the main chara description for that ... ^ - ~

Leave me clerks !!

Kind regards
XSerberusX