A new Yuzuki? Or just a delusion?

I yelled several more times to wait, but he didn't. I tried to stop him, but he left. Nothing brought him back and nobody could prevent him from leaving. Not a single word. None of me or anyone else ...

"Yuzuki, wait!"
I woke up drenched in sweat again and look around. Nobody there, everything is so quiet and it's so dark around me. I remember my dream. Everything is so clear and precise and nobody stopped him. Nobody could stop him.
"Yuzuki !!"
So now I'm sitting in the middle of the night again and crying ... cry for him. Cry for Yuzuki. I miss him much. So much so that I want to follow him, but something is preventing me from doing so. I don't know what, but it does something! I get up again like I did on all the nights when I dream of him and go downstairs to the living room. And again I watch the videotape where we were little. Where we played and laughed so happily together.Where these times of tears didn't exist. It was a good time, but now ... It's over now, just like everything else. A tear rises to my eyes again and I suppress it, but it falls. It falls just like Yuzuki fell. He's dead and I couldn't help it.
That day we were out with the class. A picnic by the sea. That was a dream of his. He has always liked the sea. He always watched the dolphins swimming there in the sea. They liked the bank, he said. You are happy, just like him, he told me. Then he looked sad. He sent me to get him a sandwich. He was hungry, he told me. So i went away. I left him alone, which was wrong. He stood by the cliff and looked at me with tears on his face. He smiled. But it was a smile that was full of doubt, sadness and fear. I did not understand. He kept going backwards.
"Farewell, Yukari!I love you, but I have to go. Another place where I'm expected. "
And again he smiled. A sad but happy smile. The wind was very strong and it smelled of roses. A soft and fresh fragrance. But there were no roses nearby. It was just us. He and I, opposite. Like a reflection that was similar and yet different. And then he backed away further and further.
"Yuzuki, wait !!"
I tried to calm him down and find out the reason for his behavior. He backed away further and further and then fell backwards. He reached out his hands to me, but fell. He fell into the vastness of the cliffs. I stood there. Motionless and only saw the fingertips of his hands. Then he disappeared. Vanished into the darkness. Everything went dark around me. I felt like I was falling. It all circled around me. I still saw the cliffs. But I didn't see Yuzuki anymore. Something wet and warm ran down my cheeks.It rained. No. I thought it was the rain, but those were my tears. Over and over again I heard his last sentence:
"Farewell, Yukari! I love you, but I have to go. To another place where I'm expected."
So many questions popped into my head. I still didn't move and just stared. Hoped it was just a bad nightmare. My knees were shaking and I wasn't feeling too good. Everything was still spinning around me and then ... Then everything went black.
I really like the video. But it reminded me too much of him. All the good times we had together.
"Yukari ?! What are you doing down here again?"
My mother stands there, like every night, when I have bad dreams. She knows about the nightmare, but doesn't want to understand me. Nobody wants to understand me. None!
"Yes, mother. I'll go right back upstairs. I'm sorry if I woke you up. I didn't mean to."It's not very bright in the living room, but I see her looking at me crying. Either she feels sorry for me or she is sad because I keep thinking about Yuzuki. And then it disappears up again. I get up and turn off the television. No matter how much I miss him, he will never show up again. I will never >> good morning> goodbye again