tight and listen carefully to Kakyo's voice.Then I realize that I'm crying again, without any sound, without any tear. I only cry with my soul ...
"Ka ... Kakyo ... please stay with me! Please hold me tight!" I breath into his ear. And so I sat tightly clutched to Kakyo on the bed. His warm body and his heart pounding ... I noticed that for the first time. With one hand firmly pressed against his torso and leaning against his chest, I wanted time to stand still. I haven't had this feeling since ... since Yuzuki was no longer with me. Slowly and completely uncertainly, I let my eyelids fall and hear Kakyo mutter something to himself.
"Hm?" I just let out of myself and look up at him, still in his arms. My heart is beating wildly and I just look into his eyes, into those beautiful blue eyes. I can't take my eyes off and his gaze is so penetrating. Suddenly he approaches my face and I can feel his lips firmly on mine.With it I am torn from the rigidity and wide my eyes very firmly. When I don't return his kiss, he lets go of me and just holds his hand over his lips.
"I ... I'm sorry.", He mumbles as he gets up and just looks at me as if he had just seen a ghost. Then he pulls open the door of my room and as soon as I lift my hand to stop him, he disappears. I get up slowly and go to the window, I look out and see him rushing away with quick steps. Then he looks up and I quickly jump away from the window. My heart is racing like crazy. Damn what's the matter with me? Did he notice me?
It took me a long time to get a grip on myself. I look at my school supplies and sit down at the table to finally do them. My math book is open and I'm trying to do a word problem, but somehow it doesn't work. My thoughts are not about math, but about Kakyo.If only I could forget I don't want to get worse in school. I have to keep the promise to Yuzuki! So I start reading that one assignment again, but nothing. I only read them with words, not with mind. Somehow I have to understand her. Several times I try to understand this simple task, but it doesn't work. So I get up and go down to the kitchen, where I make myself a cocoa and drink it in one go. With little enthusiasm I go up again and get on with this task. Then I notice that it works by itself. Who said that milk is no good? He must have been pretty drunk there. With a laugh, I finish the last task. I just hope that I didn't take it too lightly and that this is correct. When I close the math book and pick up the next task, I look at the clock. Only 20 minutes have passed. Maybe I can go for a walk after the physics problem.Let's see! But do the job first. And whoosh, it's already done. After only 10 minutes. I've never done my homework so quickly. Kakyo should me more often ... In the middle of this sentence I dissolve my thoughts and just shake my head over it. Why should he kiss me again? There's no reason for it, and if I did, then I wouldn't allow it anyway. But his kiss was so warm and irresistible. I think I'll never forget that. "Oh, what am I so worried about it !! I'm back in this world and now I'm off through the shops !!" I scream full of energy and jump up from the chair. With one quick movement I open the closet door and look for my scarce things in it that I stowed away a long time ago because I couldn't take them anymore. It was too much like Yuzuki. But now I'm fit for it again.
"Hmm ..."
After a few minutes I finally found it again and lo and behold! It fits me like a glove.To my denim mini-skirt and the tight red shirt that I tied briefly over the navel, I pull my black tights and my knee-length boots. From my description of what I'm wearing, it must sound pretty slutty, but it's not that bad either. I quickly tie my hair in a braid and storm out of my room with the blue bag and slam the door behind me, which then closes by itself. Without a key, I wouldn't come back in afterwards. But I've thought of everything and now let's go shopping !!
On the way I hear guys whistling. When I turn around, they grin fully at me. I always have to smile and laugh myself over it afterwards. My first goal: Libero Shop !! This is Yumi's favorite shop. She is one of my friends, but I never even offered her to come into my house. I regret that to be honest. When I enter the shop, the salespeople look at me in a weird way.Like, “What kind of a bitch is that ?!” But I don't care. Today is my day and nobody can take it away from me! With a smile, I walk through the teenage sections and see Yumi there.
"Hey Yumi !!", I wave to her and run to her. She just looks at me in surprise and drops the pants that she was holding in her hand and looking at.
"Yu ... Yukari ?!" she stutters in disbelief. When I nod, it begins to circle around me and blinks several times. Suddenly she asks me what happened to me and if anything has happened that she doesn't know. Then she looks at me with a completely penetrating look. I just shake my head and smile very much at her.
"I also want to stand out a little again." I remark by the way and she has to laugh.
"Come on !! I still have an hour! We could shop together! Let's just have fun," she laughs and is as happy as a child. I just nod and so we make our way through a couple of stores that are pretty trendy.In every store we do some nonsense and wear different things. Time goes by and we say goodbye at the market fountain. When she's gone, I sat on it and looked around. Slowly I shiver a little and see a small restaurant at the other end of the market square. With one jump I get up and start running. I stop in the middle when I see the prices. And not only that. Kakyo sits in there and dines. How can he afford such an expensive restaurant? I quickly turn around and make a start when I suddenly hear Kakyo's voice.
"Yukari !! Hey, Yukari !!" I hear him calling my voice. Slowly and uncertainly, I turn around. He looks at me in surprise, but then smiles. I notice that he looks me up and down and then starts to grin.
"What happened to you? Why are you running away again? Didn't you want to go in there?" He asks the few questions and points with his thumb over his shoulder towards the restaurant."Um ... I didn't want to go in there. Actually, I just wanted to go there to see if my mom was there, but she's not, so I don't need to go in. And ..." to hide through lies. Then I remember his first question.
"Hey !! What do you care what happened to me !?" I yell at him slightly. As he is about to say something, a pretty girl comes out of the restaurant and picks Kakyo on her.
"Who is that?" She asks in a delicate and gentle voice and looks at me. Just as I was about to introduce myself, Kakyo answered her question that I was just a friend of his. ONLY a friend! So that's what he thinks of me! He only sees an acquaintance in me, where he kissed me just a few hours ago. Forced the kiss too. Halfway! I didn't answer that.
"Ah, hello. My name is Yasmina. I'm Kakyo's friend.", She smiles and shakes my hand.With confused thoughts, I take this gentle hand and embrace it.
"Hello. I'm happy too. My name is Yukari.", I also smile and hide my anger towards Kakyo and the jealousy towards Yasmina. She has a beautiful name. To match her looks and her voice. I look from one to the other and say goodbye with one:
"Bye, I have to go!"
"It was just a kiss. A kiss among friends. It didn't mean anything and it will never happen again." I say to myself over and over in my mind as I move away from them. Shortly afterwards I stand on the cliff and look down. I still can't believe it, but I finally have to accept it. Weeping, I untie my shirt and almost pull it over my roch. Then I sit down and just start humming our two favorite songs very softly. Yuzuki and me ...

So!! This is the 3rd part of my FF: p That it took so long, you owe my Abitur: p In the 11th it's bad, how will it be in the 12th and 13th?You can probably do that. think and then I only have time to write during the holidays. But I'm trying, okay? * smiles * so see you then and I hope you enjoy it !! Bye! Your Lionakai * hug you *: p