Because I love you!

Chapter 4 - "Because I love you!"

"Tyla, you are dead!"
The words echoed, penetrating the girl's heart like arrows each time. She didn't change a face and she didn't know how to reply. The words disappeared and nothing remained except the young girl who was staring constantly into the void. It felt like she hadn't heard the voice that had finally cleared her up about her own death. But suddenly she mumbled, barely audible:
"So dead?"
"Yes it is."
"Then I didn't win after all! Just a draw.", She mumbled monotonously to herself.
"You saved him! But your real wish remained unfulfilled."
"Oh, I saved him and that's all that matters."
"No, it's not! Everyone has a right to be happy, including you."
"Yes, it's just too late for that now." The last words were incredibly difficult for her, the tears flowed down her red cheeks and gently pearled off her upper lip."For me there is no" too late "! Well then, I can give you the opportunity to say goodbye to him and that as what you really are, as Tyla, as a person. You can tell him what you feel and find out if he feels the same way. "
"That is extremely generous, but I'm afraid I have to refuse. I no longer care to find out."
"You're scared! You're scared of certainty, aren't you ?!"
"I - I ... oh what.", She stuttered and paused for a long time.
"You can't lie to me, after all I know what you think and feel," she admonished the voice mercifully.
She looked down crying and nodded tentatively.
"Yes, it's true, I'm afraid of regretting what I've done when I find out that he never liked me, never loved me, and there is also the fear that the pain will only get worse when I find out that he has me as much as I love him, but we can never live togetherness. The idea of ​​having to carry this terrible pain with me for the rest of eternity makes me break inside. ""That's how it is with love, it is not only beautiful, it can also be painful. That is why I make you a proposal, say goodbye to it and if what you fear happens, I will let you forget and you will become yours Find peace. "
Tyla said nothing, in her head she went through the proposal carefully and came to the conclusion:
"For all in the world I finally want to get rid of these three words!"
"Well, so be it. I'll give you a day, but in fairness I should perhaps tell you that I'll make everyone's memories of you disappear when the day is over, I'm sure you can understand why."
"Of course.", Tyla laughed and tearfully remembered how it all had started.
"Now close your eyes, Tyla!", They ordered her and obediently she did as I said.
With a jerk she opened her eyes and found that she was lying in the middle of the forest, in the forest where it all had started. Her bag was next to her, she was wearing the same clothes and the knife was next to her on the floor."That wasn't a dream, was it?", She asked herself, but after shaking her head violently, she said: "No, definitely not, so I should better hurry, after all, I still have a lot to do."
She got up with a swing and patted her clothes, grabbed her bag and got out of the forest, because by now she knew how to escape this forest.
As she stamped through the thicket, the moon shone brightly on her head and thoughtfully she spoke to herself:
"First I should write Chris a message that I would like to meet him, then I say goodbye to my family and then Chris comes to the end. Yes, I'll do it that way, although it is strange not."
The big tear in her eye glittered like a pearl in the light of the moon and gave an image of beauty that was indescribable.
Found out of the forest, the sun slowly began to dawn and Tyla set to work to put her plan into practice.First she texted Chris with the time and place she wanted to meet him, then she took the bus home, where she faced the first goodbye.

"How cowardly of me! I just couldn't tell you," Farewell "it didn't go over my lips. Nevertheless, it was wonderful to be able to lie in your arms again, mom ..., dad!"
The blouse was already slightly damp from all the tears that had been shed and even now it was not given a chance to dry.
Weeping bitterly so that all the people on the street looked around for her, Tyla continued on her way.
She drove into town and marched relentlessly into a small pet shop in the middle of town. It came out after a few minutes with a medium-sized box.
The big tower clock struck eight o'clock when Tyla was still sitting on the edge of the city fountain and licking a huge ice cream, never taking her eyes off the box for a moment. After the last blow had passed, she got up, shoved the rest of the ice cream in her mouth and picked up the box."Another hour, then I can walk too.", Tyla mumbled to herself, not considering the dark clouds behind her in making her decision.
Tyla set off with the box in her hands and it quickly became clear that she was on her way to the lake. In fact, she got there about 15 minutes to nine o'clock. It had already started to rain heavily and Tyla was completely soaked except for her underwear, only the box hadn't come across a single drop, with the help of her jacket and her body she had protected it like a mother had protected her child.
There was always a small wooden pavilion at the lake, which Tyla used as a shelter. In it she put her box and even went back into the rain to keep an eye out. Hesitantly and full of fear that he might cancel, she looked at the display of her cell phone for almost a second, but no message came.
Tyla was already trembling with fear and cold, when suddenly Chris turned the corner. He also seemed soaked to the bone and the sight of it made Tyla's eyes water again, which, thanks to the rain, could not be recognized."You look good!", Tyla greeted her friend with a laugh and looked him up and down.
"You have to say that! You crazy!" He mocked jokingly, but the young girl was deeply shocked. Hastily, so that the words almost fell apart, she asked:
"Why madwoman?"
"Well, it's obvious, you just go to your aunt's house without telling me anything and then you really want to meet me here and that even in such dog weather, so I hope you have a tough reason for you!"
Even his hearty grin couldn't stop Tyla from crying and so she tried to say what was on her mind before her voice would fail.
"Listen, Chris, I - I ..." she stammered and fell around the neck of the puzzled looking boy.
"Yeah what? Tyla, what about you?"
"Oh nothing. I was just so happy to see you and ... and ..."
"Well, if that is the case, you will be even more happy, because look what I have for you."Beaming, he pulled a huge box of chocolates from behind his back and Tyla recognized it immediately and looked down at her with mixed feelings.
"So you actually remembered it.", She stated, slightly ashamed, and looked deep into Chris' eyes. She felt the blood rush back to her head and it almost started to glow.
"What is that, of course I remembered, I would never forget something like that. After all, I also know what your first words were to me. Don't you?"
"Of course I still know.", She laughed and didn't even know what to say anymore.
Chris looked at her a little puzzled and said thoughtfully:
"Now let's be the chocolates, chocolates and tell me what's on your mind. Tyla, you know that I can't take it when you're so sad, so tell me!"
"Me, well I ...", Tyla stuttered and her thoughts started to tumble and before she knew it she was in Chris' arms again.She couldn't say anything, the tears welled up in her eyes and her throat tightened. This was followed by a strong bite on her lower lip and with the taste of blood in my mouth I explained I on iuf iuf iuf iuf iuf me to take my last chance to finally tell you what I really feel about you ...! Chris, I love you. "
Chris looked as if he had just been told that pigs could fly and he stared at her in disbelief. Tyla also looked into his eyes and the long silence of her counterpart bound itself around her heart and tightened it tighter and tighter. She begged that he should finally say something. Until suddenly Chris grabbed her arm, which was wiping away the tears, and held him tight. He pulled her close and took a step towards her. He put his free hand on the back of her head and pressed it very gently in his direction and his lips gently laid on hers.
The rain pelted the kissing couple and it seemed as if time had stopped.It seemed like an eternity before the two broke up again.
The sight of Tyla's tearful eyes brought tears to Chris himself.
Tyla knew that he was hoping for a sentence from her, but she couldn't, she didn't know anything, it was as if she had forgotten how to speak. She had known it, now that everything suddenly seemed so unimaginably beautiful, it fell a hundred times worse to let go and everything in her refused to accept the foreseen fate, above all everything in her refused to leave him. She owed him to promise that they shouldn't love each other, because she couldn't just disappear without a word of explanation. She had to finish what she had started and put all her strength and heart into her words:
"I love you, Chris! And I always hoped so much that you would feel that way and now ... now that we finally had the courage, I have to go. Where and why I am not allowed to tell you.But believe me that it just can't be changed. "
Chris's horrified look revealed that he didn't understand a word of what she was saying, how could he. Judging by his gaze, he felt the same pain as Tyla had felt then or still felt it. She practically looked at him as his heart broke and it was only her fault.
"I have something for you before I go!" Tyla howled while she waited for a reaction, but Chris seemed frozen. Undeterred, she went over to the pavilion and took something out of the box. It was a little puppy, a black bitch who was like her "animal self" in the last hair.
"I heard about your dog and I thought that from now on she