On the way...

Chapter 1: On the Way ...

Did i really have to do this?
Did I have to do this because of that one mistake that I started?
That little mistake I made ...
As small as the mistake may have been, I had to make up for it ...
Even if it didn't suit me, I had to do it.
I sighed.
There was no point in standing here and thinking about it.
Especially not in this cold, as cold as it was.
It was winter and the snow was up to my knees.
It was snowing, that means the snow would get even higher, we would probably be snowed in ...
This thought alone was not right for me, because I would spend the whole of the coming night in this one room with him to make up for this mistake.
I sighed again.
I had to do it, as much as I wished there was no going back ...
Slowly I turned around, averted my gaze from the sea that I had just seen.I waded even more slowly through the deep snow, in the direction of his room, far away from my favorite place on campus, the cliff ...
Even the paths to the individual houses were snowed in inches deep, so that my way was slower than planned.
It took me about half an hour to get to the house where he lived.
This sight fascinated me again and again, as big, as magnificent as it was.
The snow even perfected this sight.
After recovering myself, I entered.
I didn't have to knock here, that was the positive thing about the whole thing.
Now it was only to be hoped that nobody saw me on the way to his room.
I sighed briefly, hopefully fate was kind to me.
That's why I crept through the hallways of the house, I didn't want to be seen.
I was lucky because I didn't meet anyone until I got to their door.
When I got to my destination, I sighed again.
Why did this have to happen to me of all people?I wasn't sure, but I knew that I would regret going in and regret not going in ...
I had no choice but to do it ...
So I took one last deep breath, raised my hand, and knocked.
From inside there was a loud, friendly "Come in!" to hear, then the door was opened.
You stood in front of me, smiled at me.
"There you are! I thought you weren't coming anymore.", You said in your friendly voice.
I avoided looking into your steel blue eyes in your face.
"Would I have had any other choice?" I mumbled and walked past you into your warm room.
You looked after me for a moment, shook your head and then closed the door behind you.